For me, your What I'm looking for is too wordy and needs editing (what's the & thing )
The username you have chosen, along with your heading about being lonely too long, makes you appear needy which may draw attention and curiosity but not attract serious prospective daters.
There's nothing wrong with you, but maybe your self-esteem has taken a battering and needs work
What a lovely, funny, precious lady your Mum was Ian
I'm nearly sixty now, lost my Mum when I was 39..
I recall saying that I felt like I was lost at sea, bobbing around in the ocean without a lifebuoy.
My daughter is now 39 and our beautiful relationship, like mine with my Mum, has brought it all into perspective, she would be set adrift also if we were to part forever.
I agree that many mature women, like myself, do not place relationships too high on their to-do list as they have most likely had more than a few in their past and their priorities have shifted.
I actually never sought mine, they just kind of happened
It appears that my adult children have the ability to recall such things as what they gave me for Christmas ten years ago, the words of wisdom I imparted during their growing years (who, me wow! ) and quite possibly what I made for dinner on May 12, 1998
So as long as they choose to keep me in their company, I'm sorted
That man nearly drove me mad back in the day, talk about playing with fire - I was almost incinerated
I was a moth to his flame and learned a thing or seven about life, some I could most likely have done without..
But he was the most interesting, insightful, captivating man I've ever known and I'm glad I spent some time in his company in his later, more mellow years.
There was a single red rose in my hand as I said my last goodbye.
I had a 4 year on/off, roller-coaster ride of a relationship with a man back in my early forties.
It was breathtaking, bewildering, exciting, maddening and intoxicating .. I was exhausted when I ended it.
Some years passed before our paths crossed again, we each had lovers at the time which for me was a kind of safety net - I was never going back there again but was able to enjoy and appreciate the deep connection we both shared, his insights and unfailing ability to pinpoint the causes of my varying states of discomfort and angst, sharing my happiness and excitement at other times.
His roller-coaster life ended three years ago, he was only 47 and I guess he was exhausted also.
Going off on a tangent here, but your response to Crown's post re your 'tough facade' really resonated with me
I too have been surprised when men have made that comment about me, I didn't think I came across that way, but maybe some men perceive strong articulate women as toughies lol.
I understand that it's not usually meant as a criticism, often simply an observation..
My most recent example being on July 4 when I was rocking my darling little dog in my arms while the sedation took effect in preparation for his euthanasia.
I asked the vet to inform my kind neighbour, in the waiting room, how long I would be .. I overheard her ask 'Is she ok?'
To which he replied 'Yep, she's a tough lady, she'll be ok'
I assume he meant strong, resilient, as my heart broke that day and I'm still devastated but we just have to carry on with life, right
Life is tough and we have to be strong to cope sometimes, especially when we are alone.
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wow! 
) and quite possibly what I made for dinner on May 12, 1998 
RE: how the other half lives
Like Molly, I had no expectations placed upon meMy parents raised me to be a good, kind person with room to follow my dreams and pursue my own idea of happiness.
I raised my children the same way and have no regrets