Know exactly where you are coming from. Do it myself all the time. Have missed out on some nice guys because was too afraid of getting hurt and falling too deep.
So sorry to hear of this. I am sure you will make an educated and informed decision. I had a friend on dialysis and she did very well actually. HOpe all turns out well in the end.
RE: You know you do ,but never said it.
Know exactly where you are coming from. Do it myself all the time. Have missed out on some nice guys because was too afraid of getting hurt and falling too deep.