molly said something about someone stopped loving you, it was not his fault, etc. but for me - it's all the same. In time I can become more reasonable and see things from another angle, but when I'm hurt - there's just one angle.
I read that cats like to be given a massage and I tried that once, but my cat looked me with dissatisfaction in her eyes, as if she wanted to say: 'What are you doing?!', so I gave up.
Ideally - we should learn from our past mistakes and enter new relationships with that knowledge, yet fresh and capable to love and trust wholeheartedly again. But, can we really do that? Or do we develop all sorts of ways to protect ourselves from being hurt again and thus - maybe - prevent ourselves from being truly happy with someone else?
Most women don't wear their make-up all the time, especially at home, on the beach, when they go for a casual walk... Even if they do, most stick to some basic things, like a little powder or a lipstick/lip balm, mascara... Even women who work in the fashion industry - prefer to be without make-up in their free time. That's why you can see photos of so many famous people with no make-up in media - they wear too much make-up at work - on the stage, film shooting or modelling - so they prefer not to wear anything in their leisure time.
I don't know where you meet so many women with heavy make-up all the time...
How do you expect to find a woman who 'takes good care of her skin, her body and her feet' as you wrote in your profile with no help of the cosmetic industry? Creams, body lotions, etc. people use daily cost a lot more than buying a mascara and a lipstick every now and then...
A nice house in some peaceful and quiet area where I could stay whenever I want. And when I want something different - travel to more noisy places and less noisy places all over the world, depending on the mood. That would be perfect.
I read your profile and you say that you dress in suits and take a lot of pride in your appearance and it made me remember one thing that happened to me when I was in my 20's. I had a friend whose father was a doctor, always elegant, in nice suits, perfect haircut, a real gentleman. I met him with her on several occasions. So, one day she invited me to her home. It was a big house with nice furniture. When she said that she would introduce me to her mom, I expected to see an elegant lady. Instead, I met a woman with some shapeless undyed hair (partly gray), no make up, no plucked eyebrows, old-fashioned clothes and - hairy legs! I was shocked. My friend later explained to me that her father forbids her mother to wear any make-up, dye her hair or shave her legs. He likes that old-fashioned natural look. I wouldn't mind if they both looked like that - natural, with little to no care about their physical appearance - but that combination of a well-groomed man and a natural-looking woman looked so ... strange... But, I guess we all have a different taste...
RE: He hurt me, but my love is bigger than my anger.
Yes.You will always regret if you don't try one more time.