I am going to try to treat people better, and with more tolerance, I have experienced some wobbles with this Covid and after locking myself out of my house a couple of times I've invested in a key safe.
Dear Honey, to be honest, you sound like someone who cares and has true feelings for this man, sometimes love is not all singing all dancing trip to the stars and this sort of man is the type a lot of women would settle for, but.
If you decide to engage with him, you must be sure you won't fall for someone else, as this would surely break his heart.
Have you talked to him about this, maybe he will want someone who is prepared to commit? Just imagine him leaving you if this feels bad, maybe you do love him.
RE: candle light
You stole my thought