Thank-you to Everyone for your posts ALL of you. I value your input. All input, so please feel free to contribute in any way.
You may help someone out there, which is my hope. It may be that there is someone your words and experiences can reach better than mine.
To all whom have viewed and not posted as well as to the ones that have posted, I hope you got a measure of hope and comfort no matter your situation in life.
Thank-you, Trish. I know we have different view of life in general, but in your posts and a few emails, you have given me different views to consider in ways that I never thought of before. So, it is wonderful to have your kindness and understanding here, it means much, Thank-you.
Um, with all due respect, I have never felt the world owed me any thing. Not once. Nor do I feel so now.
I especially do not want anyones pity. I never have. I only whis to give hope to others hurting as I have.
I have always given back to the world no matter how far down I was. I served on homless shelter lines.
When I had a home, I opened it to those that had no place to live. I spent money to help others whom were worse off than I, even when I did not have it to give. . . Even after my numerous surgeries.
I would do the same, now, if I had a home and I will do so again in the future after I again have a home. I am not exactly homeless. I live in a camper and cannot take others in. But one day, again.
I have NEVER, EVER Forgotten, never Stopped Loving my Spouse nor have I EVER forgotten our time and Eternal Life together. I have always treated Him with the utmost dignity and respect. I greived for Him.
I also, grieved Deeply His losses. He has a Daughter, whom is and has grown up w/o ever knowing the Wonderful man her Father was. I have grieved that she lost in this as well.
Even when many told me I needed to forget Him b/c He chose the path he was on, I could not. He chose to throw everything away.
For me, Marriage was always and If I should ever re-marry, Marriage will, again, be for Forever. Never, ever have I not had this view. We were apart b/c of His desires, not mine.
I have never belittled, John. I am honest about BOTH of our shortcomings. Neither, have I ever belittled any of our other very loved and deeply missed dead ones, Never.
As, of now, whilst in the same State, John will always have a vist from me, until I die. After, I relocate to another State, it will not be as possible. If I remarry, which I hope to do, in time, G-d willing, The visits will have to be with the understanding and Blessing of my New Spouse. Not many would/will be accomodating of this.
I said that it was my turn, not because of pettiness nor selfishness nor jealousy but because I have never had the chance to have my turn. My life has been spent fighting for my life and all the things most people get to take for granted, that I could not pursue anything else.
I am thankful for what I have been through despite the difficulties, heartbreak and lonliness. G-d has a reason for it. I do not understand all of His reasons and I may never understand, I just know He has reasons and that is enough.
I did wish He had let John and all Our Loved ones be here because I missed them. Not because I wanted anything except to be able to hug them and say I Love You.
Everyone has an opinion and also the right to voice it. You are no different.
Thank-you, Sommer, It means much coming from you. I know You have travelled a similar, yet different parallel path. I hope you and PPV will always have what John and I missed out on. You two deserve it. BTW when is He coming back? I miss his posts.
I went to my Late Husband's Family Church today. He was Catholic, I am a Messianic Jew. For my Faith, Palm Sunday is also Important but I had forgotten it was even Palm Sunday. They passed out Palm lesves.
John, used to make a cross out of both of ours when we were Married. The Priest handed me two. I will try to make a cross like he did.
I, also, am proud to have you as my Friend and Little Brother. Thank-you for all your encouragement. Your wonderful words are always up lifting. Thank-you very much.
BTW ALL, I realize I made a mistake in my thread, due to my Dyslexia. I have been alone for 23 yrs not 32. Sorry Talk about making oneself older than they are
How are any of us to take this? A disability can happen to anyone. It has NOTHING to do with MR or MS Wrong!!!!!
I am Deaf. I was a premie, and my Twin brother did not make it. I was NOT born Deaf. I became deaf later. My parents worked with me and I survived despite many other health issues.
So, Tell me, because of this, my disabilities, were my Parents MR, and MRS. WRONG reprocucing with the worst of the HUMAN Spiecies?????
I think Not!!!!!!
How dare you be so Judgemental and Shame on you!!!!!
OP, I would marry a person with a special needs child.
Thank-you, HL, for both your wonderful words and the encoragement that it will help others as well as your beautiful well wishing. How are you, btw, Beautiful Sister?
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I hope this will help Someone out there. . .
Thank-you to Everyone for your posts ALL of you. I value your input. All input, so please feel free to contribute in any way.You may help someone out there, which is my hope. It may be that there is someone your words and experiences can reach better than mine.
To all whom have viewed and not posted as well as to the ones that have posted, I hope you got a measure of hope and comfort no matter your situation in life.