cookiemonster67 Poetry (17)

Gonna cry me a river
build a boat and sail away
Live out my life on that river
Up until my dying day
Life on this river
I tell you its a living hell
Tears keep flowing,
Gonna watch this river swell

The waters they are growing
Sure glad I built this boat
The banks are overflowing
I just gotta stay afloat
Drift along with the current
Soul survival is what I crave
Hoping it’s not resurgent
Holding on and try to be brave

I’m in for Stormy weather
Try to Stifle all my cries
Tying to Hold it all together
Stop the tears from my Eyes
Life on this river
I tell you its a living hell
Tears keep flowing,
Gonna watch this river swell

On the crest of a big wave
The water’s to the brim
I can sense a watery grave
Please help me, I can’t swim
The depths are cold and dim

Got up late, I must get to work
The boss will be waiting and going berserk
Only 30 minutes to get there on time
A 20 minute drive so i'm cutting it fine
A quick cup of coffee, so tasty and pleasing
I jump in the shower, the water is freezing
No time for breakfast, not even a bite
Need to iron my shirt, should have done it last night
Get dressed and I leave and jump in the car
Shouldn’t take long as it’s not very far
The traffic is light and surprisingly clear
In only 10 minutes and I’m already here
But the building is locked then I hear a shout
It’s the security guard who’s lurking about
“you should go home and relax for a while”
“they’re not open on Sunday’s” he says with a smile.

I need to do some shopping, I need some bread and cheese
I need to go before they close, now where did I put my keys?
Did I put them in the drawer or hang them on the hook?
Or leave them in my coat pocket? I’d better take a look
I visually re-trace my steps to where I was before
Right from the moment I came home and opened up the door
I hung my coat, they’re not in there, did I leave them on the side?
And so I look at a frantic pace I’m searching far and wide
I check the cupboards and the drawers but no keys do I find
“They must be here” I scream out loud, “am I going blind?”
The hook is hanging empty, no key there to be seen
Annoyed and so frustrated cos that’s where they should have been
And so I’m searching room by room, the keys they must be found
Crawling on my hands and knees and searching on the ground
And now I hear a jingling, although I could be wrong
I check my trouser pocket, they’ve been there all along
And now with keys placed in my hand, quickly I am gone
Outside I stop and wonder “did I leave the cooker on?”
I cannot go, I’d better check in case I did forget
I have a look, the gas is off, there was no need to fret
Put on my coat walk to the door and then I stop and freeze
I pat myself and look around, now where did I put my keys?

I wish I could be with you everyday
But my children you live so far away
Your mother decided it must be that way
And this is the price that I must pay

I speak to you whenever I can on the phone
But that doesn’t stop me from feeling alone
I try to sound happy in a positive tone
I’m sorry that mum and I broke up your home

When you are older you might understand
Why things didn’t work out how we had planned
Our foundations were built on shifting sand
Eventually the marriage could no longer stand

But please don’t feel guilty because you’re not to blame
It wasn’t to be and that is a shame
I realise things will never be the same
But into my life I’m so glad you came

Now it’s quality time that we must share
Enjoying the moments whilst I am there
For you it seems cruel and justly unfair
But I want you to know I still love you and care

Awakening at the break of dawn
Breathe in and taste the early morn
Coming to terms with what lies ahead
Desperately wanting to stay in bed
Enjoying that coffee the rich full roast
Forgetting to check and burning the toast
Getting in the shower, feeling the soothe
Having a shave until your chin is all smooth
Into your clothes so fresh do they feel
Jacket zipped up to keep out the chill
Kicking through leaves whilst walking to work
Living close by is one major perk
Making your way through the firms parking lot
Needing a coffee that you pour from the pot
Opening E-mails and checking the mail
Phoning a client trying to make a sell
Quickly finishing up it’s time you were gone
Reaching your home put the heating on
Shower again then cooking a meal
Tasty nutritious now you’ve had your fill
Unwinding your tension and wanting to slouch
Vacating the kitchen to lie on the couch
Watching TV and you’re starting to yawn
X-rated movie it’s only soft porn
Yawning and stretching as you get into bed
Zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

Money, family and steady job, there was a time when he had it all
But drugs took over and he lost the lot, he lost his way, such a long way to fall
Now he’s got nothing and the local park is where he calls home
Just a bottle of cider and he’s drinking it all alone
Slipped from society and fallen from grace
Pain and anxiety Written on his face
A victim of his life He made a wrong choice
Just a shadow of a man without a voice
When people see him they cross the street
Afraid to let their glances meet
Embarrassed he might ask for change
Or shout out something they find strange
He lives for today as tomorrows too far
It may as well be a dark distant star
He can’t remember the sweet smell of soap
And the love of his life is his dog on a rope
Just an empty man with an empty can
Sitting by whilst his life get’s flushed down the pan
Winter is coming, the rain and the frost
If he can’t find shelter then all may be lost
And when he has died nobody will care
No-one will notice he’s no longer there

A Heart is that is unique
And it’s from my heart that I speak
It takes all the stress and strain
And hides all of the ache’s and pain
It’s something that we wish to share
And take it with us everywhere
It can be broken by others with a single word
Or a simple action that can’t be heard
But the heart is stronger than the mind
And love will make it soft and kind
But when it’s full it’s oh so light
But heavy when empty, that can’t be right
To be with someone soft and sweet
Can cause the heart to skip a beat
Although it’s small and easy to hide
It can store so many things inside
A closed heart is a lonely place
So open it up and feel the embrace
And share the feelings that are stored within
Enjoy it and let the love begin

So what are we all doing on this site?
Looking for our Mr. or Mrs. Right?
Not how you thought you’d spend Saturday night
Sending a message, not knowing what to write

Too fat, too thin, too short or too tall
Its morning by the time you’ve gone through them all
So up to bed you finally crawl
And into your dreams you quickly fall

And when you awake you hurry like hell
Back downstairs to switch on the Dell
Which seems to boot up at the pace of a snail
To check your inbox to see if there’s mail

You click on your mailbox and peek with one eye
To see if anyone bothered to at least say “Hi”
Someone has, you’re excited until you read their reply
“I’m sorry but you’re not my type……..goodbye”

And so you begin your search once more
You won’t give in because you know the score
You find someone you like but there’s one major flaw
They’re the same bloody people you E-mailed before


So many lonely hearts gathered in one place
Looking for someone to put a smile on their face
Have so many people fallen from grace?
Or just stepped aside from the human race?

So when you’re next searching, read the text they put in
Don’t look to see if they’re fat or thin
Or judge them by the shade of their skin
Because the person we seek may lay deep within

Legs that can no longer walk
Tongue that can no longer talk
Ears that can no longer hear
Hands that can’t feel you near
Eyes that can no longer see
You as you stand next to me
But the air in my lungs is fresh and clean
Thanks to the help of the machine

By all rights I should now be dead
I fell thirty feet and landed on my head
Severed my spine and caved in my skull
But this damn machine has a purpose and goal
And that is to keep a pulse in my vein
Despite all the damage I’ve done to my brain

Now all of my family are gathered around
They’re talking and crying but I can’t hear a sound
Probably saying their final goodbyes
And pitying me for my sudden demise
Then finally the decision is made
To switch off the machine so I can fade
So off to the next life I silently plod
Let’s all bow down and pray to the machine that plays god

The master plan didn’t work and there is no plan B

So now I have no idea of what’s in store for me

So do I bluff it as I go? Or just admit defeat?

I’m full from all the food for thought the taste is bitter-sweet

At first I was in denial and was crushed by all the lies

But I sobered up and then I saw the truth with my own eyes

So now I know I was a fool for wanting to believe

But you played me like a little toy I was easy to deceive

My resolve is growing stronger now, More so everyday

I realised I needed love and you were in my way

Love is something I don’t think you’ll ever comprehend

Your heart can never be broken, There’s nothing there to mend

So move along and do not stop there’s nothing here to see

Because I’ve gone to seek my life and see what awaits me

We met in the summer of 43
I was home on leave from being at sea
I’d been shot at and shelled everyday
But when I met you it blew me away

I was mesmerised by your elegant grace
And captivated by your beautiful face
We strolled on the promenade hand in hand
And sat down to talk by the old bandstand

We spoke of the future, our hopes and our fears
No mention of war, we didn’t want tears
The brass band was playing your favourite song
You told me you’d wait, no matter how long

All too quickly my shore leave had past
A long kiss goodbye, I hoped not the last
I promised you I would be back really soon
To take my future bride on her honeymoon

And so we set sail and you waved goodbye
I stood on the deck with a tear in my eye
Cursing the war and despising the Hun
And Hitler for all the damage he’d done

But I never came back to live out our dream
It was taken away by a kraut submarine
We sank in the channel no time to escape
Two deadly torpedos had sealed our fate

Many years have past my body’s no more
No flesh or bones left on the sea floor
But my spirit remains so strong and so true
Just biding my time and waiting for you

When the time is right we shall meet again
I’ll offer my soul for you to regain
Then up to the heavens we both will soar
Hand in hand forever more

We met in the summer of 43
I was home on leave from being at sea
I’d been shot at and shelled everyday
But when I met you I was blown away

I was mesmerised by your elegant grace
And captivated by your beautiful face
We strolled on the promenade hand in hand
And sat down to talk by the old bandstand

We spoke of the future, our hopes and our fears
No mention of war, we didn’t want tears
The brass band was playing your favourite song
You told me you’d wait, no matter how long

All too quickly my shore leave had past
A long kiss goodbye, I hoped not the last
I promised you I would be back really soon
To take my future bride on her honeymoon

And so we set sail and you waved goodbye
I stood on the deck with a tear in my eye
Cursing the war and despising the Hun
And Hitler for all the damage he’d done

The war it ended in 45
Although it was tough, I made it alive
We pulled in the dock and was greeted with cheers
Flags were a-plenty and so were the tears
I eventually found you besides the dock crane
And promised that I’d never leave you again

The next month we married now husband and wife
And just a year later we created a life
A baby girl to fulfill our dreams
Even if we had to put up with the screams

A job in an office, a house in the sticks
And a daughter who got up to all sorts of tricks
But you were never going to be happy with one
And two years later you gave me a son

So we lived out our lives watching them grow
Into the adults which we now know

We watched them get married and have children too
Then all of a sudden it was just me and you
But we never felt bored, depressed or lonely
We just enjoyed each others company

But then you got ill and they told you to rest
Then took you to hospital to carry out tests
Cancer had struck there was no going back
But courage was one thing that you didn’t lack

I tended to your needs everyday
And cried to myself watching you waste away
For me it was so painful to see
And knowing you would be soon leaving me

It happened in the spring of 2003
Surrounded by our children and me
You fell to sleep with a smile on your face
So beautiful with an air of grace


But from the pain you have been set free
And once again you are waiting for me
So as I scatter your ashes released from this urn
Don’t worry my love, it will soon be my turn