Lost Love Poems (2,650)

Feel Like a Fool

I feel like
A total fool.
I let you use me
Just like a tool.

I am tired of being treated
Like my feelings don’t matter.
I feel like I’m going crazy.
Just like the Mad Hatter.

You are done using me.
You will respect me and my feelings.
Or you will regret it.
Because I will send you reeling!

No more will I be
Your little plaything!
My heart and mind are not toys
So let freedom ring!

I am NOT a fool!
I am NOT the same!
You will never again use me!
I will not be “trained”!

Dianna that the moon would tonight rise
And keep such hours as you walking the street.
I was twenty-five and lonely - no surprise
Tonight finds me where lust and money meet.
And having searched for love in stranger's eyes
I felt the need for an erotic feast.
So once again I found myself in Kings Cross -
In the fever of the night where souls are lost.

Sydney nights hang heavy in the summer
Heat oozes in the nighttime seamlessly
And when I saw her she was not a stunner*
(A young man marches on now dreamless he)
An invitation now to come with her
(Like Coleridge I'd found a "sunless sea").
Now somewhere in my dreams you still abide -
Although used by society and tossed aside.

I thought I'd try my best inside my memory
Although how did it all come down to this?
Aside from life and all its petty jealousy
I sought and had found my midnight mistress.
The act pedestrian and every day
For you should I settle as a conquest?
Something bored and maybe even banal -
(She was up there paying off her credit cards).





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Memories of you and me tumbled for free
inside me
We met over Google
without a doodle

We talked through glass
Sun was shining on our grass
We swam in our words
Music played without chords
We flew through the universe
Slowly a dark green curse reached out

We danced with the stars
Rode in our sky cars
Our minds climbed one mountain
Our wings were thin
Both of our hands were in the sea
You didn’t drink tea

Lights shined around us
Our hearts poured gas
Signs wrote in our eyes
There was already a heist
Vampires graved our blood
Musical raindrops made a grave mud
Green night embraced your heart
You painted bloody art
Music screamed disguised
A mocking nightingale was chastised
Heartbreak-war filled our red wine
thoughts

My sun-black words stopped running
Your cloud-eyes were burning
Printer words pleaded with me
My heart decided to flee
Soundlessly I screamed
Get me out of here
Wanted to go to a crystal sphere

Secrets were a mocking bird
Flew with voices unheard
Sea-horses reached for me with fire tongues
Spiced-rainbow drops touch a night sky song

I stood alone
Can’t get a mountain loan
Would I ever dance in the bicycle-rain
again

The story start with vision that,
of light the Sun and rain the Moon,
with rainbows two in colors all,
and Birds in pairs,singing that of beauty in the Heaven.

But all was just illusion,
the beauty of the Truth and True,
was never there to prove,
with empty hands,with nothing real to give,
with lifeless Heart in endless grab,
the story was of happiness in vain.

What ever light,it had no chance,
the shadow came and took it over,
the seeds for more,had nothing of the care,
they starved in the dark,to never get the life itself.

The story was not vision of the Heaven,
instead it was the Hell of selfish darkness,
and all what's left is grief and sadness,
with pools of tears,with emptiness and sorrow.

Now everything is there in darkness,
nothing can be seen,
future is just all forbidden,
and everyone are there to leave.

The time is now to say goodbye,
the night has come and all is gone,
and only thing that can be done,
is having that remorse of mind.

Seismic waves of tears flooded my eyes
I slept on a bed of lies
Tremors shake each corner of my bleeding heart
You gave me a heartbreak tart

Blood-screams climbed out of my throat
I was on a twisted-thorn boat
Tsunami waves of pain slashed through my crystal-glass
soul
Holding on to a hope-straw pole

Thoughtless thoughts galloped through my
mashed-potato mind
Our ghost-love sealed in a coffee-grind
Tried to escape the cyclone-forest of questions
Our marriage-sledge got stuck halfway up the
Appalachians

Thorn birds cuddled in our bed
I choked on a black-red fish bread
I want to cut this porcelain heart with a dull dagger
You were a Hyena-bragger

Fly-lies swanked through my meltdown thoughts
You gave me a pathway filled with disappointments
We built our dreams in the Milky Way
The sky turned a dark grey

Stood in the desert
Hot chocolate memories exert
Screaming words played before me
Felt like a calendar escapee

Everywhere trumpets were singing their song
I’ve been captured by a bee throng
I grasped at an empty hole
The years stopped rock ‘n roll

Starless windows smiled
Flew with heartbreak lilies
Everywhere around me was open-heart surgery
I was so confused
The sea was bruised

Why couldn’t you see
There was no Magnum fee
Leaves grabbed my air
My lips end with solitaire

Looked for marshmallow answers
Where were all the love advancers
Soundless was my prison cell
Laughter-shadows slowly stroll

Did James Bond steal the warmest heart
Mount Everest fell apart
My eyes melted

Scanned love disappeared
Would the swamp tomorrows be persevered
The eagles cry
Would the angels ever lie

Looked through blues mist
Heard the ego of your voice in my dreams
Saw your shadow in our secret places

Your voice caught me
Fire of hate burned like spice tea
Why didn’t I listen to the voices of warning
The snake at the back of your voice so
perfectly disguised

Walked slowly through the rain of my tears
Memories of us were running through my mind
Cut me open without a typhoon warning

The rose-promise in your eyes was full of
shark teeth
Tried to catch the fallen promises
Reached for a Disneyland love

Remember the words you spoke
Your moon-gentle touch caressed my skin
The movie-soft glance in your eyes

If only I could see the twisted lies underneath the
vampire-beauty

You were the only one who never really knew me
You were in a poisonous cocoon

Now, your face is just a memory in the
thorn mist

Glass of snow didn’t glow brightly in
your voice
There was no Poppy of choice

You were in a fog
You let me sink into a bog
Leaves were falling from the trees
Wind was blowing your name to the
vampire centuries

Your words were silk snakes
Covered with cup cake flakes
I drank your poison masquerade
You sang your love song charade

Don’t stumble
Let there be no salt water-rumble
Cold hills were falling under my feet
Where was the green country-beat

You left me without a word
My heart was eaten by a crocodile-bird
I questioned a paper moon
You flown on the wings of a typhoon

You bathed me in a fractured black sea
Ghost fingers will hang you from a
memory-tree
Your lies will make you a celebrity
My heart was in a glass effigy

My thoughts kept running back to you
Why did you ever come into my life

Remembered the first day when my eyes lied themselves on you
The day was bathed in sunlight
You stood there gold in your hair.

Our eyes met for a second
My heart was a red stone
Silence was in my mouth
Words swam in my eyes

Space wars took place in my heart
Did not want to open my heart-door
You came through the plastic floor
I was defenseless
You shot through me merciless
Would you save me from this pirate love-ship

Love-wings flowed from my eyes
Tear nights became my midnight lover
Why, oh why was I in this love-web

Dance memories played a sequel in my head
You told me I must relax
My battered heart screamed
How can I when love-fire is
thrusting in me

I was captured in your pseudo love
I knew the dragon-darkness was coming for me
I didn’t have Harry Potter’s magical wand

I knew our life-ships were never one
Still hope ranked five stars in me
I would sleep in your Hercules-arms

You came from a golden path
Everything was given to you
My path was full of sinking sand
My melody-song was for my feet-wheels

Wish I could cut my heart open throw it in the deepest sea
I asked God to take this love-cup from me
Still I drank the arsenic love-cup

You went to the world
You sang like Ronan Keating
Someone else stole your heart
You bought her to me
My smile was shed with unseen tears

My curtain-visor closed my wet tears
Our eyes never met again
I was in my deep-sea prison when you
cuddled your golden rainbow day

Stood on the highway of loneliness
Saw your face on every passing car

Walked on the beach of heartbreaks
Every wave whispered your name

Ran through my tears
Did not want to feel the memories of us
Every star spelled your name

With every nightingale’s song another letter of
your name was stippled deep into my heart

Oh, when would the rain-memories stop
plundering my heart