Now i understand, but it is to late

I remember now that a few years ago, my mother was saying "No parent should lose their child, never a child should die before the parent ... it is better that the parent be the one who dies the first ... because the child will heal itself in time ... but a parent who loses the child will never heal "unfortunately then in my mind I contradicted it ... in my mind there was only one thought" maybe the child he loves his parents just as much as his parents love their children - each of them would suffer so much for the loss of the other "and in the end I add in my mind" I will never understand what is or what could be the difference between the love of a child to his parent and the love of a parent to his child ... and I will never understand, why my mother believes that the parent would suffer more, at the loss of the child, than would suffer the child at the loss of the parent. " now instead I think of u the retreats .. "1. a word from Americans says: Never say never .. 2 unfortunately I have said too many times "unfortunately" and unfortunately every once in a while my life introduced me to that "never" that I did not understand or with which I did not agree .. and 3 unfortunately most of the times when life contradicted me in relation to that "Never" of mine .. most of the time it did not contradict me in a pleasant way at all .. although many say that words can not hurt ... I can say that sometimes words hurt, very bad ... and can hurt in different ways ... on the other hand if I could take that word back with "I will never understand .... "which I once said .. I would take it back without any regret if I could and if I knew that this would bring my Baby back from the dead :(