Seekonk, Massachusetts, USA
"FAREWELL LITTLE SISTER"
Well....Yesterday I was at the Hospice where Linda was and when I was there...It seemsd that her eyes might be open just a Hair...so I asked the Nurse about the way she looked and she came in and told me.."Shes awake..she can hear you"....So after the Nurse left.I sat there feeling awkward as to what to say...I held her hand and began by talking about the way things used to be and all that and laughing after what I said as if she was laughing along with me(She never moved)..But for some reason I found it odd that after all this time (never opening her eyes)That she was awake(so to speak)for the only time in 2 weeks....I stayed with her for 3 hours...Her pillow was all wet and I had to get the nirse who told me.."Thats what happens when they are in this condition...So I held her head as the Nurse changed the Pillow case and then put a Towel over the Pillow.........When I moved her head..her eyes opened wide for a split second...And her mouth moved...but no sound..........I stayed with Linda for as long as I could...But I had to go(I had borrowed a car(Truck broke down) and I had to get it back...I kissed Linda on her forehead as I always did and I left..(Not knowing she was hours away from the end)....I just got the call from the Hospice 30 minutes ago...Linda has finally passed away(Was just getting ready to go see her too)..Poor thing...To have to die from starvation and thirst(And all Thats left is the Memories of watching her daily die in this way......I never want to or will be a part of watching someone die in this fashion ever again....."May God Bless you and take you with him Linda".."Youll always be "My Little Sister"............But its strange that she was awake for her final hours for me......Scary and Haunting it will always be............"Some where somehow..Ill find you Linda"...(those were the last words I said to her as I was Leaving).....And now shes gone.......And yes Ken........Im crying like hell right now...................(A 2nd or 3rd opinion and she possibly could still be here now)....But...Shes gone........(Happy Hollidays)(Not this Year)......
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Sometimes death comes as a blessing to take away pain and agony!!!
Nam you can rest assured that she's no longer suffering. she at a better place now!!
When you lost someone close to you...
It is okay to miss them.
It is okay to cry.
Grieving is a part of the life experience.
It will last as long as it lasts...
I was crying...only now I fully realized that I was crying about myself... live without him ?How???... For him it was just the time to go Home.
Cry,Namaron,cry.
So sorry that she is gone but maybe she is in a better place now...no longer suffering...wish you the best and good of you to be there in her last days...
If it is any help, yes the past few days are fresh in your minds eye, but rest assured when you think of her the good memories are there too.
Nevertheless condolence Nam.
My she rest in peace.
It's final truth for every human.....it's painful for us.
I have no words to Express because I know how you feels
This time but it's God decision and we helpless before God.
On the monday morning I got a call from my brother to say it will be today but don't rush, this was 4 am, by 6 I was there and she was still alive. But in 3 days she had changed dramatically. I didn't recognize her. I held her hand sobbing for what seemed hrs. within 10 minutes she had gone. Like she waited for me. I held her hand all day and wished I hadn't as she went so cold, its horrible but yet she starved to death, body organs shutting down,cancer is a terrible way to go. 4 yrs on I still can't look at photos of her without sobbing.
My mum would also still be here if she hadn't been so stubborn as to not go to the doctors, her cancer in the early stages is curable, but that was mum, the best mum anyone could wish for. Its hard but time is a healer and you will come to terns with it as we all do.
Keep your chin up
Sounds to me that you and Linda had a special and beautiful friendship.... One to treasure forever. May she rest in peace. I pray Nam you will be comforted at this time of pain. You indeed loved her and she will have felt your love and warmth in her last hours. God Bless you my friend.