please ...

bear with me. I need to blog this. we buried my cousin Sonny yesterday. RIP mate. and i wrote a poem too, of course dedicated to Sonny. came out quite spontaniously too. the only thing is that when i finished it, i pressed the 'wrong button'. stupid i know, but there you are. poem's gone. and i could not just rewrite it. it was gone. erased from my pc screen. and gone from my mind.
i tried to compose it again and again, but the harder i tried, the worse it became. writer's block ? anyway i couldn't. pity.

it was a lovely poem, full of life, with a message to live for today. forget the yesterdays. forget the bad days. rememeber and thank the Lord for the good ones. and not to think too much about tomorrow. tomorrow would take care of itself, when it becomes a 'today'.

yes it was a lovely poem, and in reality i should take on my own advice. i have written a few others ofcourse, but this one i lost was a special dedication, spontaneous and from the heart. sorry Sonny. but, in your remembrance i'm writing this blog. no big deal i know, but under the circumstances, it's the best i can do. sorry to see you go. sad that you passed. know however that many many many shed tears yesterday. yes we'll miss you. rest in peace, my friend.
at least let me 'read you' one i had written some weeks ago.

with eyes closed wide, i now can be….
with eyes wide shut
i see you clearly,
traipsing on a wisp
calling me.

i do,
i follow you
into a land of fairies
with song, and joy, and rainbows.

but its not real.
t’is not my world.
it's really only
imagination.

beautiful creature
winged, light,
a sightly delight
opened my eyes.

in the midst
of the darkest night
with eyes closed wide
i now can see……

and be
me.


and you, who is reading this, i hope it gives you (even fleetingly) a good feeling. thanks