I feel very depressed right now. I feel like I'm dying, like I'm drowning in a deep ocean. I need to gather all my strength just to swim to the surface and gasp for air.
Sometimes I feel like I've fallen into a deep hole and when I try to climb out, I get to the surface, but then fall back down again and again.
Sometimes I sit on the chair near the basement window in my room and cannot stop crying. The tears roll down my cheeks like a water fall. I'm overwhelmed with my traumas from the past and I cannot get rid of my memories.
Sometimes feel like giving up. Sometimes, when I go to sleep, I don't want to wake up because I don't want to face my depression anymore.
yep but you need to change whats going on in your mind now...not tomorrow, the here and now...
To do that direct your thoughts towards helping others. Like in, do something nice for a friend or family member. Maybe just say something nice, or perhaps pick and give your mum a flower, if it is all white outside, then just give her a hug.
Try to stop dwelling on you feelings, your thoughts or whatever. As long as your mind is directed towards benefiting others it is impossible to feel depressed, it is not possible to be depressed while your mind is trained on helping other, so please practice thinking of others, the more you do that ever more and more happiness in your own mind. Happiness is a choice if you give your self choices, don't forget... Try it
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Read very carefully. Go and talk to a doctor about this. Depression is serious and it sounds like it has taken your life over. I know what I am talking about when I say that you need to see a doctor about this. It can get better.
Doing good for others IS a process/technique to help. IT is what I call our "Lower Mind" that is connected to the Ego which is seated in the Past. Personally, I have been told to "Get out of your Head!" as it has been my "Guide". - 'act this way' to keep you protected from things that appear similar to situations in the past. The Heart is a part of the body that is actually higher in Energy than the Mind. Ancient Egyptians saw the Mind as basically 'worthless' but the Heart as 'priceless'. It was the 'Seat of the Soul'. To start, go to youtube and go to the Channel called "Divine White Light" There are various "Reiki Sessions" that focus on numerous 'conditions' and the healing of them. Reiki uses Energy to help the Body/Mind Connection to repair itself. These Sessions are recorded Live and will assist the listener as long as the listener has the Intent and desire to be assisted. This can work in conjunction with the help of a Jungian Spiritual Therapist (That is the Path I took) and will help you to 'move on' from things in the past. Again, on YouTube, there are Channels such as Power Thoughts Meditation Club that uses Ancient tones (called Solfeggios) embedded into relaxing music that can also help. Again, something I have been doing for myself for several years. Question: Have you been seeing any specific number combinations lately? Such as 1111? There are reasons for this that are amazingly positive and supportive. You CAN transmute these feelings, my friend..... not all at once but definitely a 'doable' process. Your asking for help is a MAJOR point of this. Realize that! that is where your Intent begins, To make the CHOICE to be free of your situation is asking the Universe for Help. That cannot be denied! Another website you might look into is Darious Barazonda - "YouWeathRevolution". He has Speakers on who have helped me GREATLY and it's all free!
Feb 24, 2019 12:15 AM CST I feel like I am dying of depression
BerniePennyAmyMelbourne, Victoria Australia3 Posts
BerniePennyAmyMelbourne, Victoria Australia3 posts
Hi there,
I had this... your words are describing EXACTLY how I felt - it was many years ago and I was feeling sadder and sadder and unable to stop crying... (I've also experienced trauma).
I went to my doctor and told her about how I felt and that I had been trying for so long to feel better but that nothing helped. I also told her about the trauma I had survived.
She said it could be possible that all the trauma and stress had lowered the level of serotonin in my brain, so she asked me if I wanted to try anti-depressants - (Sertraline (aka 'Zoloft').... I was frightened but said yes...
I had some headaches for the first two weeks (a little bit) but slowly I began to feel less in a dark hole... I still had to deal with the problems... but I was starting to feel like I had the strength to at least take each day one by one and slowly I felt less frightened and hopeless.... I started on the lowest dosage and slowly increased it over several years - because life kept throwing very painful situations at me.... BUT I began to feel more 'normal'... still unhappy but not frozen, not stuck... able to get some strength to climb out of the hole....
Andy, your description sounds like CLINICAL depression... by that I mean your brain chemistry /neurotransmitters have become depleted/imbalanced and you need medical help - just like a diabetic needs insulin to balance their blood sugar levels...(as well as counseling)
please feel free to pm me
antidepressants saved my life and I'm so very glad I started on the most simple one and it worked for me... I'm now on the maximum dose and have been for 14 years. It's what some people need - not all depressed people - but some.... there is a point where the brain chemistry can't 're-boot' itself and we need medical help. Repeated traumatic events CHANGE our brains over time - and if we experience too much trauma it can change our brain health.
I also think good food/ enough sleep/exercise/ social contact/ self care is VITAL - avoid drugs/alcohol - and personally like a reply above- I benefit from Reiki and meditation....
but none of that was possible without stabilizing my brain chemistry FIRST
andyroseasianguy: I feel very depressed right now. I feel like I'm dying, like I'm drowning in a deep ocean. I need to gather all my strength just to swim to the surface and gasp for air.
Sometimes I feel like I've fallen into a deep hole and when I try to climb out, I get to the surface, but then fall back down again and again.
Sometimes I sit on the chair near the basement window in my room and cannot stop crying. The tears roll down my cheeks like a water fall. I'm overwhelmed with my traumas from the past and I cannot get rid of my memories.
Sometimes feel like giving up. Sometimes, when I go to sleep, I don't want to wake up because I don't want to face my depression anymore.
Can someone help me please?
What you need is a rota, a rota we’ll stick to religiously. Now come on, tidy your room.
Some good advice there, especially the bit about seeing your doctor straight away. Don't be afraid to tell him exactly how you are feeling. There is a group in Ireland called 'Aware' which is basically like AA in how it works, only it's about depression not drinking. I wonder if there is something similar in Canada?
Above all know that what you are suffering from is manageable and sometimes curable if you ask for help. As for today try and have a walk in the open air.
Don't take depression medication, it is disrupts brain chemistry. You can beat depression with yoga meditation and some hobbies . Hope you'll get better soon
andyroseasianguy: I feel very depressed right now. I feel like I'm dying, like I'm drowning in a deep ocean. I need to gather all my strength just to swim to the surface and gasp for air.
Sometimes I feel like I've fallen into a deep hole and when I try to climb out, I get to the surface, but then fall back down again and again.
Sometimes I sit on the chair near the basement window in my room and cannot stop crying. The tears roll down my cheeks like a water fall. I'm overwhelmed with my traumas from the past and I cannot get rid of my memories.
Sometimes feel like giving up. Sometimes, when I go to sleep, I don't want to wake up because I don't want to face my depression anymore.
Flame35: Don't take depression medication, it is disrupts brain chemistry. You can beat depression with yoga meditation and some hobbies . Hope you'll get better soon
Do take depression meds, if your doctor says you should. When depressed your brain chemistry is already disrupted all the medication does is restore the balance.
snowlynx , Depression drugs have been proven to disrupt the chemistry of the brain . Even some good doctors say it .It it's just a trap of pharmaceutical companies . When I first used antidepressants, I did not know ; I was only 26 years old. The doctor gave also my history teacher antidepressant but he did not want to take it he healed with his hobbies .I had other observations. The drug companies give these doctors bonus for each drug they give people . l don't like talking without knowing something well
andyroseasianguy: I feel very depressed right now. I feel like I'm dying, like I'm drowning in a deep ocean. I need to gather all my strength just to swim to the surface and gasp for air.
Sometimes I feel like I've fallen into a deep hole and when I try to climb out, I get to the surface, but then fall back down again and again.
Sometimes I sit on the chair near the basement window in my room and cannot stop crying. The tears roll down my cheeks like a water fall. I'm overwhelmed with my traumas from the past and I cannot get rid of my memories.
Sometimes feel like giving up. Sometimes, when I go to sleep, I don't want to wake up because I don't want to face my depression anymore.
Can someone help me please?
Some people have and will recommend anti depressants, and for some people they work to some degree. From my experience they didn't help but hurt me. Besides the side effects the biggest thing is there habit forming and difficult to stop. The best advice I could give is to try CBT (cognitive behavioral therapy). It teaches you to use different techniques to change the way your brain processes feelings & information. How well it will work for you depends on how much effort you put into it.
I am so sorry for that you feel so bad. First step you did very good you wrote about it. Keep writing. What works for some does not work for all. Keep journal of feelings. Walk a lot in nature, force a smile when passing folk they smile back it's infectious smiles that is. Help someone else, someone said
No matter many here have given good advice pick out what suits or helps you.
Flame35: snowlynx , Depression drugs have been proven to disrupt the chemistry of the brain . Even some good doctors say it .It it's just a trap of pharmaceutical companies . When I first used antidepressants, I did not know ; I was only 26 years old. The doctor gave also my history teacher antidepressant but he did not want to take it he healed with his hobbies .I had other observations. The drug companies give these doctors bonus for each drug they give people . l don't like talking without knowing something well
I know you are trying to help but you are wrong, dangerously wrong. The vast majority of doctors know that anti depressants have transformed the treatment of depression. They worked for me and I know of many people who wouldn't not be alive today if not for them. In terms of publicity all we hear about are the exceptions, the horror stories, we don't hear of the vast majority of people who have had good experiences with them. That's the nature of the internet, scare stories take the place of science and clear evidence.
bigjb62: Some people have and will recommend anti depressants, and for some people they work to some degree. From my experience they didn't help but hurt me. Besides the side effects the biggest thing is there habit forming and difficult to stop. The best advice I could give is to try CBT (cognitive behavioral therapy). It teaches you to use different techniques to change the way your brain processes feelings & information. How well it will work for you depends on how much effort you put into it.
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Sometimes I feel like I've fallen into a deep hole and when I try to climb out, I get to the surface, but then fall back down again and again.
Sometimes I sit on the chair near the basement window in my room and cannot stop crying. The tears roll down my cheeks like a water fall.
I'm overwhelmed with my traumas from the past and I cannot get rid of my memories.
Sometimes feel like giving up. Sometimes, when I go to sleep, I don't want to wake up because I don't want to face my depression anymore.
Can someone help me please?