Anger at the whole unfairness of it maybe. Good point though at the fact that very young people die, that would help me stop feeling sorry for myself and be a bit philosophical, I've had 46 years too so can't really complain!
I'd choose the music for my funeral, 'The end' by the Doors and 'Sympathy for the devil' by the Rolling Stones. Lol.
RE: is there dark forses out there?
There are horses for courses too!