SCB.....if you are reading this, and I suspect you will be....I want you to take note of what I say.
You created a thread whilst you were here. I could sense your pain and do empathise with you. I gave you some advice on it. You didn't respond to my post, so I doubted your authenticity.
It appears I assumed wrong and you are, in fact, the person you say you are.
I want you to speak to somebody about this stuff. You need to offload to someone. It may be a counselling support phone hotline which you can remain anonymous to.
At how you perceive the world to be treating you and your response to it, indicates to me, you need to make some changes within yourself. Once you start making these changes, the world will start receiving you in a more positive light. You cannot go through your life blaming others. You have to take some responsibility for why these things are happening in your life.
Once you start taking control of your internal negative emotions, you will start noticing positive changes around. It won't happen overnight, but it will happen.
Talk to someone who can give you some guidance/advice.....a trained counsellor....somewhere on where to start. You need some "tools" on how to get things going for yourself.
I am no medical expert myself, but I have been where you are now.
Now.....take some action and pick up a phone. Call someone.....someone you can trust or a support helpline as I mentioned earlier.
If you want change in your life, do it now.
You are not silly. You have a brain, but you can't work this out on your own. You need to offload this internal stuff.
If you truly are on anti-depressants, then discuss with your doctor first.
If you both agree you are in a better frame of mind, then you should come off them slowly....not cold turkey, otherwise you could suffer unpleasant withdrawal symptoms.
....but don't make that decision on your own. Discuss with a health professional first.
RE: what you listening to no.11
Hi ValHere ya go...