Vanity Fair and City II (45)

Real, unreal and trust---The real and the unreal are the rapid whirls of the eddy whose wider circles move quickly and complicatedly among the inside and outside world. The real can become the unreal, and the unreal can also become the real. So trust collapses.

Today PP cried suddenly. We didn’t know why. When she stopped crying, she sent a web page link to us --- a web page about how to know who have deleted you on the MSN.

We browsed the web page and found the way to check it. Many members left comments to that page, all about the sad feelings---“It is so sad that those I consider as friends deleted me!” and kind warns---“ It is not good to try to find out who has deleted you, so never try it.”…

PP cried because she found that some of her friends have already deleted her. She said: “I haven’t done anything to hurt them. I trust them, I am kind to them, I consider them as my friends, but they deleted me.”

So we all tried to find out who have deleted us according to that web page. Actually I have already known a little as to who have deleted me. Those who haven’t come on line for a long time have already deleted me… I know it, but I seldome think about it.

I did delete some MSN members too. Most of my friends on MSN are my middle school classmates, university classmates, good friends, neighbours, former colleagues and current colleagues, a few are those net friends I have never met in my life. I added them occasionally or they added me occasionally and since they are just net friends, I don’t have much things to talk to them. So when times flies by, I would delete some of them to clearify my MSN…

I couldn’t help checking who have deleted me… and the result is, none of my middle school classmates, university classmates, good friends, neighbours, former colleagues and current colleagues delete me, but some net friends deleted me just as if I deleted them… lol… I still remember some of these net friends did have a good conversation with me once or twice before, but they deleted me somehow, just as if I deleted them somehow… for some reasons.

I did feel shocked or sad when I knew one or two of them deleted me since we have a happy and friendly conversations last time… but now I have gotten used to it. When you said you have never deleted me or blocked me the first time, well, ok, I trusted you. You were my friend. But when I found that you deleted me or blocked me the second time, ok then, I am not blind, I have eyes, I have a brain, so I can judge. And trust collapses.

One of my good friends deleted me either! I don’t believe because we always chat via the internet since she has moved to America. Luckily I have her QQ. So I asked her why she deleted me on MSN. She said she didn’t delete me and she didn’t know what had happened. Yea, I trust her, because she has been my good friend since I was 16. And I don’t think there is any reason for her to delete me.

I remember once a wise man left a comment to the forum: “Judge men by their actions, not by their words.” Yes, and Judge friends by their actions, not by their words, as words can be unreal or even cheeky, but actions can not lie. Then you will find out some friends are just the so-called friends, and some trust is just the so-called trust.





Eyeless trust is just like this stick, will lead you to the abyss.