OUT OF MY SYSTEM....
There has been something bothering me about an ex & still is....a guy has never done this to me before & I thought wrong! What did he do?HE DISAPPEARED WITHOUT AN EXPLANATION....no talk,no call,no text,no email....NOTHING !! No contact whatsoever!
I've been hurt by men. I've been cheated on. I thought being cheated on was the worst feeling to be dumped. Cheated on made me feel like I wasn't good enough,that I wasn't sexy enough....yadda yadda. But this to me feels so much worse.
It felt like he took my heart with him when he disappeared & I want my heart back. He made me feel like I'm nothing. He made me feel like I meant nothing to him. I feel that I need/want closure. I want to know why. It hurts NOT knowing WHY!
Why can't I stop thinking about him? I have feelings for him! I'm in a way confused...I miss him yet I'm uoset with him. I wish it ended better. He was the first guy I trusted in my life after being hurt so many times before...& he took that trust way.
I want to move on yet I'm waiting for an answer I probably will never get. Was it him? Me? Or us? Did I hurt him...I don't know? I know I deserve better & there are other men in the sea! But....
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That's what I'm trying to do!
It doesn't feel good & it hurts & the one person who can put my mind at ease won't. Maybe one day I will get an answer until then I will take one day at a time & move on.
And try not to fear it will happen again... I have such a fear I admit...
My advice to you is get your mind completely off of him or anyone else who may come along until you know %100 that he is committed to you and even then do not ever give your heart completely....ever
I didn't meet him on internet
We met in person & dated in person
And were together for months
Just to let you know
What I can promise you is tht time is the greatest healer. So allow yourself to grieve, but know that one day you will be over it.
The person I was involved with we planned marriage the future together spent a whole month of time as one then two weeks back at their own location all was well Skype talk, missing one another then 48hr period of small contact followed by a curt message with 2 excuses not reasons..then blocked, blanked cut out without conversation..and like you it is hard to understand the REAL Why.