THE ECHO’S OF DECISIONS

I believe that all of us are well-versed with the pebble in the quiet body of water and the ripples that this causes. After a couple of seconds the water grows still and the pebble has settled and become part of the pond. Unfortunately, our lives cannot be exactly compared to the pond, simply because our lives are a constant stream of activity. So in this case, while we are still alive, we may be compared to a stream or river, depending on how active we are.

Throughout our lives we live a history. From the day we are born, right up until the time we move on to the “other side”. We constantly write on the slate, which at the end of our lives, bear witness to our history.

The choices and decisions that we make during this time affect the outcome of the history in the making. For in life, every action has a reaction. In Biblical terms this is referred to as sowing and reaping. It’s impossible for you to plant seeds of one tree and reap the fruit of a totally different tree. Thus our decisions echo through time.

I’ve lived through an average childhood, with spikes of horror and terror in-between. None of us, I have come to believe, has not had some kind of horror in our lives. My brother dispises my mom and this is more than a little disturbing or disconcerting to me. So my mom and I spoke about this.

I looked at her in the winter sun as we sat outside and enjoyed each other’s company. And I realized just then that our decisions echo throughout the corridors of time. I have come to understand that, just like myself, she goes to bed and her closet opens up with skeletons bringing themselves into remembrance.

We all have “shoulda, coulda, woulda” moments in our lives. We sit and say if only I didn’t or did make that decision, things would have been different. I realized that our decision to do or not do certain things in our lives will forever echo throughout the hallways of time.

Our decisions define who we are, whether or not they were made at the spur of the moment or are well considered. We find it more difficult to forgive ourselves than we do others. A lot of us get only sleep and no rest. We go to bed tired and wake up tired. Why, because our decisions will constantly echo through our lives.

We are our own worst critics. We often times forget that life is trial and error and we can’t do everything right the first time. We can’t base our hopes, dreams and desires on what others have become. As we differ, so will our decisions and outcomes. Just make sure the decisions you make are actually yours and for you. If this is not the case, it seems like the echo’s come back to us in the format of “shrieks” rather than just a reminder.