moving forward, again.
Six weeks ago my world was turned upside down, again. Over the course of about four days I discovered my cancer had spread to my bones, my boss fired me and both I and my sister fell. I cracked all the ribs on my left side which was a darn sight better than shattering my right thigh which is now an ongoing risk, and my sis, coming to help me, broke her ankle.We have been two physically challenged women in one house dependent on others for transportation instead of the freedom to pop into the car and let the road take us and although I have been functioning it has been minimal.
I did go through another fifteen radio therapy treatments and got myself off the morphine they put me on to quiet the screaming in my bones but my world was tumbling completely out of control so I gave in and planned my funeral. I also planned my birthday party for December 21st 2009 and now I am organizing all the stuff I have written over the last year into a book proposal, designing a query letter and seeking an agent to shop my book around.
I walk a little more unsteadily and I am loading up on alternative treatments that do not strike me as being more likely to kill me than my current dis-ease. Asparagus, honey and cinnamon and shitake mushrooms won't do me much harm and if they don't help, well neither did chemo!
I have always believed that the human organism is infinitely adaptable but I also believed that I had enough to deal with. Seems I was right -and wrong - again!
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Chinese Medicine is well respected for things that Western medicine cant cope with, and I know Louise Hay managed to cure herself from cancer.. might like to read her book. Many find it comforting.
Best wishes to you!!
just read your last blog and omg you have been through so much more, it is unbelievable... just when you think "things can't get any worse" well hey guess what?????
I am a great believer that the spirit is eternal and never ever dies...so I would say nurture the spirit (soul, conscience, experiences, wisdom etc,.) for that is all we take with us when we leave this place...this planet.
I liken the spirit with the butterfly....when we are done with the body and mind the spirit will soar and be free to live and learn again EVOLVE.
I have no fear of departing from here and I would like to think when all else fails that I would 'surrender' to the universe and trust that I will always be ok...
This is what I believe and it sits well with me. I do accept and appreciate that this may sound silly to many and that is cool.
Just wanted to write to you Dorielle, after I read your blog. I hope you are doing ok and taking one day at a time for at the end of the day that is all any of us have......
Yvonne