I've been single for 9 years and frankly I just sick and tired of it. My last boyfriend was almost 10 years ago. Once that ended I "found" myself, found out what I like & what I won't put up with. I seem to be a magnet for unavailable men and men who want to have their cake and eat it too. I am not in any rush to jump into a relationship, but I want it to be an option. I have no desire to be a FWB or the unaware third party of a love triangle. I thank them for their honesty & shut those down immediately. With that said, I can count how many dates I've been on in the last 5 years on one hand. Every year when I catch up with my friends and they ask that dreaded question, "So are you seeing anyone special?" My answer is always no and I quickly change the subject. I have a sinking feeling that my family also thinks I am a lesbian because of this. My dad jokingly said he has given up on having grand kids. I know they mean well & they would love me regardless, but I am not lesbian. My parents don't even ask about my love life anymore.
I take pride that I have a healthy dose of self esteem and confidence instilled in me by my wonderful parents. So I know these two things are not the issues. I am generally happy, can obviously enjoy my own company and have a good amount of self-love. I am an extrovert and I have no problems being in new settings. I end up meeting someone who shares an interest anyway. I try to smile, be welcoming, be engaging. I also have observed how women who desperately want to be in a relationship act, and trust me I no where like them. They scare me and I can see why they scare men! I don't brag about myself or talk about how great I am. I am a bit overweight but started working on that in March because lower back pains. I've lost 30 pounds so far and I am working hard at it. But I was smaller than I am before and still didn't spark anyone's interest. I don't think weight isn't my issue here as people of all shapes and sizes meet others who think they are great. Looks wise, I think I am cute..but everyone has their own interpretations.
At first I thought I was being super picky or unrealistic in the things I want in someone. But I don't think I have impossible expectations: Intelligent (IQ or education does not measure this). Ambitious, career/goal oriented, has short term and long term goals, self-sustaining, believes in something bigger than themselves, worldly, respectful of other cultures, adventurous, kind. Understands why family and friendships are important.
I've tried online dating and my friends are no help. Singles events,and groups that share my varied interests. It doesn't help that I moved to a city with an 8 to 1 women to men ratio (and a huge gay male population). There might be men out there, but I don't have the right anatomy, and competition is very stiff. I've met so many single men who know they are a hot commodity because of this ratio. Men will let you know that if I won't deal with his shortcomings, there are 7 others who will. I never want to be that girl and I have no plans to start. I would love to move out this place, but the present state of the economy won't allow it.
I haven't been actively looking this entire time. But is looking always a bad thing? I think I've paid my dues to singledom. I got a dog to keep me company last year, I think she is starting of get sick of me. After a while it gets tiring doing things alone when your friends have plans. Traveling, eating and going to the movies alone isn't much fun anymore. I've had a relationship with myself for 9 yrs and I think something else could benefit from my corny jokes, my cooking, my generosity, my outlook. Most people I know have never been single for such a long period of time so I don't really feel they can relate. Thoughts?
petalbabeOgdensburg, New York, Cork Ireland3,101 posts
Hi there, azu, and welcome to CS!
You sound like a lovely lady, and have been very open and honest about yourself in your post. You have given everyone a really great insight into your personality and feelings about things..
I dont think you will have a problem meeting someone, whether it is here, or not. There are some lovely guys on here, and Im sure they will be all viewing your profile very soon!
Just a suggestion - there is a section now here to specifically put your profile up for review and feedback. Perhaps that might be a good idea also?
I guess we tend to make things too complicated for ourselves. i wish that we were little less arrogant and more pragmatic NOT only about our own lives but also about others.
I guess my low IQ doesn't allow me to think as to why people would get 'sicken' when they have the liberty to choose/do the things that they do. Nobody really pushes anybody to remain single. it is the choice they make. I guess it has been a fashion in this world to blame others for our own actions. then again, i am just a guy with a very limited IQ and wisdom. i could be wrong.
You have a great attitude, and a fantastic understanding of yourself. It sounds like you are very realistic and that's really important. I enjoyed reading your post.. I feel like I know you! Oh wait.. maybe that's cause you're me!
Get involved in the forums here.. have some fun... meet some people, and don't sweat the small stuff! (It's all small stuff by the way!) I've coped by having a circle of single friends that I do a lot of fun stuff with including going out on the weekends, traveling, and hiking etc. We have a ton of fun, and while it's not the same as having that special someone to compliment you, it takes the edge off of the single life. I actually love my life the way it is and if I'm lucky enough to find someone to share it with me it will just be icing on the very delicious cake!
The best advice someone recently gave me on finding love ...
Just do what you love, because sooner or later that person will be doing that same thing too.
I believe that posting a photo is a good idea - and a good indicator of how serious you are about finding someone. I believe that not posting a photo is an indicator of ambivalence regarding the pursuit of a relationship.
That wouldn't explain your difficulties in corporeal life; to me it simply suggests - strongly - that you are ambivalent about finding someone. Are you truly committed to doing so? Despite your expressed longing for a relationship (longings don't qualify as the serious pursuit of something...we all various longings that we aren't actually attempting to fulfill), I'm fairly sure you have mixed feelings about it, and those mixed feelings are being projected to possibly interested others (just as your lack of a photo is projecting that to others here).
My suggestion is to perform a brutally honest inventory of your desires, with an eye toward discovering what you truly feel about relationships. What you find might surprise you.
Ambrose2007: I believe that posting a photo is a good idea - and a good indicator of how serious you are about finding someone. I believe that not posting a photo is an indicator of ambivalence regarding the pursuit of a relationship.
That wouldn't explain your difficulties in corporeal life; to me it simply suggests - strongly - that you are ambivalent about finding someone. Are you truly committed to doing so? Despite your expressed longing for a relationship (longings don't qualify as the serious pursuit of something...we all various longings that we aren't actually attempting to fulfill), I'm fairly sure you have mixed feelings about it, and those mixed feelings are being projected to possibly interested others (just as your lack of a photo is projecting that to others here).
My suggestion is to perform a brutally honest inventory of your desires, with an eye toward discovering what you truly feel about relationships. What you find might surprise you.
I deleted my photo right after I posted this because I wanted an updated one.
I am positive I am commited to finding someone. It's been 9 years. I've asked others to observe my behaviour...to see if there is something about me that seems standoffish or not available. The general feedback is positive.
NeWildflower: You have a great attitude, and a fantastic understanding of yourself. It sounds like you are very realistic and that's really important. I enjoyed reading your post.. I feel like I know you! Oh wait.. maybe that's cause you're me!
Get involved in the forums here.. have some fun... meet some people, and don't sweat the small stuff! (It's all small stuff by the way!) I've coped by having a circle of single friends that I do a lot of fun stuff with including going out on the weekends, traveling, and hiking etc. We have a ton of fun, and while it's not the same as having that special someone to compliment you, it takes the edge off of the single life. I actually love my life the way it is and if I'm lucky enough to find someone to share it with me it will just be icing on the very delicious cake!
The best advice someone recently gave me on finding love ...
Just do what you love, because sooner or later that person will be doing that same thing too.
Thank you for that quote! *writing it down*
I do love my life but how much fun would it be to share it with someone else ya know..?
mnowsa: I guess my low IQ doesn't allow me to think as to why people would get 'sicken' when they have the liberty to choose/do the things that they do. Nobody really pushes anybody to remain single. it is the choice they make. I guess it has been a fashion in this world to blame others for our own actions. then again, i am just a guy with a very limited IQ and wisdom. i could be wrong.
Okay I have no idea what you are trying to convey in this message. Also why are you projecting your insecurities on me/my post. What does you IQ have to do with anything? My brain allows me to be fully aware that no one pushes me to be single.
You sound like a lovely lady, and have been very open and honest about yourself in your post. You have given everyone a really great insight into your personality and feelings about things..
I dont think you will have a problem meeting someone, whether it is here, or not. There are some lovely guys on here, and Im sure they will be all viewing your profile very soon!
Just a suggestion - there is a section now here to specifically put your profile up for review and feedback. Perhaps that might be a good idea also?
Welcome again, and good luck!
Thanks for the welcome! I've actually been a member for a while and this isn't my first forum interaction BUT it is my first forum rant. I will take you advice and have my profile reviewed...I didn't know about that feature!
azucarmorena: Okay I have no idea what you are trying to convey in this message. Also why are you projecting your insecurities on me/my post. What does you IQ have to do with anything? My brain allows me to be fully aware that no one pushes me to be single.
Fair enough....if no one pushes you to remain single, then it must be your decision to remain single. If it is YOUR decision to remain single, why are you SICK of it?
azucarmorena: I deleted my photo right after I posted this because I wanted an updated one.
I am positive I am commited to finding someone. It's been 9 years. I've asked others to observe my behaviour...to see if there is something about me that seems standoffish or not available. The general feedback is positive.
You are cute, but I'd suggest perhaps some footwear to cover your webbed feet?
Oh, I didn't know you'd had a photo up, Az.
Nine years seems like a long time to be putting out committed vibes as an attractive woman and getting nothing solid in return. Maybe you should consider moving to SF, where the ratio of straight men to straight women is one to six unlike where you are.
Maybe you're having a problem with location, location, location. I know I am...
mnowsa: Fair enough....if no one pushes you to remain single, then it must be your decision to remain single. If it is YOUR decision to remain single, why are you SICK of it?
I see where this is going...*sigh* basic comprehension is all I ask.
If you need me to elaborate any section of my post I will gladly do it. As indicated I my VERY LONG essay, I am not willingly remaining single only to come here and create this discussion. If I was WILLINGLY trying to remain single, then why would I express my great desire not to be? I am pretty sure I was VERY clear about that in my original post.
It also seems that you came into my post looking for an argument...I way to tired.
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I take pride that I have a healthy dose of self esteem and confidence instilled in me by my wonderful parents. So I know these two things are not the issues. I am generally happy, can obviously enjoy my own company and have a good amount of self-love. I am an extrovert and I have no problems being in new settings. I end up meeting someone who shares an interest anyway. I try to smile, be welcoming, be engaging. I also have observed how women who desperately want to be in a relationship act, and trust me I no where like them. They scare me and I can see why they scare men! I don't brag about myself or talk about how great I am. I am a bit overweight but started working on that in March because lower back pains. I've lost 30 pounds so far and I am working hard at it. But I was smaller than I am before and still didn't spark anyone's interest. I don't think weight isn't my issue here as people of all shapes and sizes meet others who think they are great. Looks wise, I think I am cute..but everyone has their own interpretations.
At first I thought I was being super picky or unrealistic in the things I want in someone. But I don't think I have impossible expectations: Intelligent (IQ or education does not measure this). Ambitious, career/goal oriented, has short term and long term goals, self-sustaining, believes in something bigger than themselves, worldly, respectful of other cultures, adventurous, kind. Understands why family and friendships are important.
I've tried online dating and my friends are no help. Singles events,and groups that share my varied interests. It doesn't help that I moved to a city with an 8 to 1 women to men ratio (and a huge gay male population). There might be men out there, but I don't have the right anatomy, and competition is very stiff. I've met so many single men who know they are a hot commodity because of this ratio. Men will let you know that if I won't deal with his shortcomings, there are 7 others who will. I never want to be that girl and I have no plans to start. I would love to move out this place, but the present state of the economy won't allow it.
I haven't been actively looking this entire time. But is looking always a bad thing? I think I've paid my dues to singledom. I got a dog to keep me company last year, I think she is starting of get sick of me. After a while it gets tiring doing things alone when your friends have plans. Traveling, eating and going to the movies alone isn't much fun anymore. I've had a relationship with myself for 9 yrs and I think something else could benefit from my corny jokes, my cooking, my generosity, my outlook. Most people I know have never been single for such a long period of time so I don't really feel they can relate. Thoughts?