Help! I'm severely depressed (82)
gtbulldog2Towson, Maryland USA10 Threads 2,828 PostsHaving a good hobby helps.
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Raymond1953: Pain from feeling like a total failure.
Lost love, divorce, music career down the drain.
No support system..as if no one I know in my life cares
I'm rudderless
I know you have a studio,,,have you ever put any of your work on cd??Lost love, divorce, music career down the drain.
No support system..as if no one I know in my life cares
I'm rudderless
by the way,,I live alone and get prettty down sometimes as well,,, I hope you come out of this soon..have you been sleeping?? Eating?? I know when I am on a coffee diet with out sleeep I am not 100%
you have a lot of good people here as well.
I hope we can talk music some time as well.
;-}
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Raymond1953: It's a very intense emotional pain.
Feelings of overwhelming dread.
An emptiness that's impossible to discribe.
It's a big black hole..the abyss
Feelings of overwhelming dread.
An emptiness that's impossible to discribe.
It's a big black hole..the abyss
have you felt this badly before?
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There's always people who care about you. You just have to find them sometimes. They may be waiting for you just as much as you're waiting for them and if both of you are not actively trying to find each other, then you will never find each other right? Yes, as others have said, don't be scared to talk to everyone here. We all love making new friends and we are there for each other because we know that when we all put our differences aside, we all have hearts that need to feel love, we all have bodies that need to be touched, and we all need someone to talk to. Even sometimes in the wee hours of the morning.
With that being said, do not give up. I have gone through ALOT in my life and I could tell stories that would make some people cry and I have had people ask, how can you be so emotionally and mentally stable after all that and I tell them, because no matter what, I know I deserve better. I know I'm a good person. I am sure you know you are a good person as well. Just remember, you deserve so much more then what you are allowing yourself to have and feel right now. There is a reason why there is always a rainbow after the storm.
With that being said, do not give up. I have gone through ALOT in my life and I could tell stories that would make some people cry and I have had people ask, how can you be so emotionally and mentally stable after all that and I tell them, because no matter what, I know I deserve better. I know I'm a good person. I am sure you know you are a good person as well. Just remember, you deserve so much more then what you are allowing yourself to have and feel right now. There is a reason why there is always a rainbow after the storm.
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Raymond1953: Pain from feeling like a total failure.
Lost love, divorce, music career down the drain.
No support system..as if no one I know in my life cares
I'm rudderless
Lost love, divorce, music career down the drain.
No support system..as if no one I know in my life cares
I'm rudderless
Creative people feel every ounce of joy and pain very deeply, so they react more suddenly and sometimes rashly. But it is because your feelings guide you. Not logic, which doesn't always help anyways.
Talk to everyone. Not just us but everyone. getting it out and being heard will help, maybe even releave some pressure. And NEVER give up on music, because music will NEVER give up on you. Where there is life, there is music.
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Sorry TYPO QUEEN trikes again nd not good timing either,sorry Raymond.I do this alot.Rushing myself.
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Hello, please keep staying with us there are people here from all over the world, so there is someone on here all the time.
Many people on here have gone through pain like you are experiencing now.
Many are also lonely you are not alone.
No one including you, are a failure.
Don't give up on yourself you have friends here.
Jenny
Many people on here have gone through pain like you are experiencing now.
Many are also lonely you are not alone.
No one including you, are a failure.
Don't give up on yourself you have friends here.
Jenny
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lift your head up,you are worth fighting for,dont let anyone make you feel less of yourself,think about the good things in your life,the good things that you as a human being contribute to this world,and dont give me a nothing cause i dont believe that ,there is something good in everyone.tell me right now,something good in your life?????
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I was going thro the hardest time of my life a few months ago and as Claayer and cardsfan have said, when it got really bad i came on the forums and never felt alone, there are some great peole here that do care , some mailed me to see how i was and gave me so much support , i was able to move on. Interesting thing was the people in RL who i thought were friends just vanished! The true friendship came from here . 
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morganlee: I was going thro the hardest time of my life a few months ago and as Claayer and cardsfan have said, when it got really bad i came on the forums and never felt alone, there are some great peole here that do care , some mailed me to see how i was and gave me so much support , i was able to move on. Interesting thing was the people in RL who i thought were friends just vanished! The true friendship came from here .
I kinda felt you looked miserable in your photographs - get a new one up of you looking silly but smiling!
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Raymod you said you havebeen herebe4(the feelings).Do you have diagnosisof Major,Clinical old name,or Bipolar disease?Are you in any group.Did you know there are groups on sites,like Revolution Health.com,where you get in group that fit's your illness and canchat with others with same or similiar problem?Tommorow is coming.
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What kind of music do you play, record, or please tell us about it okay?
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Raymond1953: I've been dealing with depression issues for most of my life but it seems to be getting worse with each day regardless of medication and therapy.
I have no real friends to speak of.
That is, the kind of friends that will be there when I go through these really dark horrible times.
I'm always trying to fight back this feeling like I want to end it all.
I'm really scared and extremely lonely.
I have no real friends to speak of.
That is, the kind of friends that will be there when I go through these really dark horrible times.
I'm always trying to fight back this feeling like I want to end it all.
I'm really scared and extremely lonely.
Hey dude!
I'm around alot. Pop in and out. Anytime you want to talk - about anything - I'm around. No need to feel alone when you have a computer. You can always reach out and touch all of us. Plenty of people here to help get you thru the bad times!------ This thread is Archived ------
Raymond!!!!!!!!
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Shanmariee: There's always people who care about you. You just have to find them sometimes. They may be waiting for you just as much as you're waiting for them and if both of you are not actively trying to find each other, then you will never find each other right? Yes, as others have said, don't be scared to talk to everyone here. We all love making new friends and we are there for each other because we know that when we all put our differences aside, we all have hearts that need to feel love, we all have bodies that need to be touched, and we all need someone to talk to. Even sometimes in the wee hours of the morning.
With that being said, do not give up. I have gone through ALOT in my life and I could tell stories that would make some people cry and I have had people ask, how can you be so emotionally and mentally stable after all that and I tell them, because no matter what, I know I deserve better. I know I'm a good person. I am sure you know you are a good person as well. Just remember, you deserve so much more then what you are allowing yourself to have and feel right now. There is a reason why there is always a rainbow after the storm.
Damn ood post, good advice here bro...for ya, Shan, i care With that being said, do not give up. I have gone through ALOT in my life and I could tell stories that would make some people cry and I have had people ask, how can you be so emotionally and mentally stable after all that and I tell them, because no matter what, I know I deserve better. I know I'm a good person. I am sure you know you are a good person as well. Just remember, you deserve so much more then what you are allowing yourself to have and feel right now. There is a reason why there is always a rainbow after the storm.
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I'm the most unselfish person you'll ever meet.
One of my biggest faults is overextending myself and doing for others
before doing for myself.
I know I should stand up more for myself, but I'm always trying to get people to like me.
The low self esteem I have stems from my mother who scared and threatened to kill me all my years as a child growing up.
I was still terrified of her as she lay on her deathbed.
So now she's dead, and here I am hoping she's burning in hell.
Does that make me a bad son?
One of my biggest faults is overextending myself and doing for others
before doing for myself.
I know I should stand up more for myself, but I'm always trying to get people to like me.
The low self esteem I have stems from my mother who scared and threatened to kill me all my years as a child growing up.
I was still terrified of her as she lay on her deathbed.
So now she's dead, and here I am hoping she's burning in hell.
Does that make me a bad son?
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I'm the most unselfish person you'll ever meet.
One of my biggest faults is overextending myself and doing for others
before doing for myself.
I know I should stand up more for myself, but I'm always trying to get people to like me.
The low self esteem I have stems from my mother who scared and threatened to kill me all my years as a child growing up.
I was still terrified of her as she lay on her deathbed.
So now she's dead, and here I am hoping she's burning in hell.
Does that make me a bad son?
One of my biggest faults is overextending myself and doing for others
before doing for myself.
I know I should stand up more for myself, but I'm always trying to get people to like me.
The low self esteem I have stems from my mother who scared and threatened to kill me all my years as a child growing up.
I was still terrified of her as she lay on her deathbed.
So now she's dead, and here I am hoping she's burning in hell.
Does that make me a bad son?
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Raymond1953: I'm the most unselfish person you'll ever meet.
One of my biggest faults is overextending myself and doing for others
before doing for myself.
I know I should stand up more for myself, but I'm always trying to get people to like me.
The low self esteem I have stems from my mother who scared and threatened to kill me all my years as a child growing up.
I was still terrified of her as she lay on her deathbed.
So now she's dead, and here I am hoping she's burning in hell.
Does that make me a bad son?
Sometimes, it's best to forgive, im sure your feeling for here doesn't help your state of mind...But, you got to take care of you to pull you out of this depression, Then you will be able to help oters...One of my biggest faults is overextending myself and doing for others
before doing for myself.
I know I should stand up more for myself, but I'm always trying to get people to like me.
The low self esteem I have stems from my mother who scared and threatened to kill me all my years as a child growing up.
I was still terrified of her as she lay on her deathbed.
So now she's dead, and here I am hoping she's burning in hell.
Does that make me a bad son?
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Raymond1953: I'm the most unselfish person you'll ever meet.
One of my biggest faults is overextending myself and doing for others
before doing for myself.
I know I should stand up more for myself, but I'm always trying to get people to like me.
The low self esteem I have stems from my mother who scared and threatened to kill me all my years as a child growing up.
I was still terrified of her as she lay on her deathbed.
So now she's dead, and here I am hoping she's burning in hell.
Does that make me a bad son?
One of my biggest faults is overextending myself and doing for others
before doing for myself.
I know I should stand up more for myself, but I'm always trying to get people to like me.
The low self esteem I have stems from my mother who scared and threatened to kill me all my years as a child growing up.
I was still terrified of her as she lay on her deathbed.
So now she's dead, and here I am hoping she's burning in hell.
Does that make me a bad son?
Forgive her!
You can not live for others, only for yourself. And when you do that, can you truely shake the gloom away, because you will be your true self.
Hope that makes sense.
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Raymond1953: I'm the most unselfish person you'll ever meet.
One of my biggest faults is overextending myself and doing for others
before doing for myself.
I know I should stand up more for myself, but I'm always trying to get people to like me.
The low self esteem I have stems from my mother who scared and threatened to kill me all my years as a child growing up.
I was still terrified of her as she lay on her deathbed.
So now she's dead, and here I am hoping she's burning in hell.
Does that make me a bad son?
One of my biggest faults is overextending myself and doing for others
before doing for myself.
I know I should stand up more for myself, but I'm always trying to get people to like me.
The low self esteem I have stems from my mother who scared and threatened to kill me all my years as a child growing up.
I was still terrified of her as she lay on her deathbed.
So now she's dead, and here I am hoping she's burning in hell.
Does that make me a bad son?
Hi Raymond, Not at all a bad son. Allow yourself to be as openly angry as you want. Go off somewhere and shout at the top of your lungs if that helps. You've heard of the saying, You can't pick your family'? Well, you just happened to be connected through biological means. Trying to get people to like wastes a lot of energy, because you may be trying to be all things to all people. That in itself will make you feel pretty exhausted.
You are getting some terrific advice from other CS's, so stay on the forums.
I'd like to suggest you look up (let me know if I have made a mistake and will look it up for you). Sometimes, we have to act more directly on the brain. They sell this software which is fabulous. It is Brain Wave Entrainment. You can buy online and download straight away. I have the 'professional' version so I can modify for my clients. YOu will neea set of really good noise reduction stereoheadphones, and you can buy 'Sennheiser' from them. Then play around with it. The particular protocal to use is the 'Depression' (SAD), which is great to stabilise moods. Email me if you like once you get hold of it if you decide to do that. No side effects, though not good if you have seizures, or history of it, have pacemaker or pregnant(I assume latter 2 are out,lol). All the best.
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