Sometimes we feel like that GP.
I belong to a Mega Church and has grown into so many other churches here in Tampa.
We get to find connections with people through our small groups. We pray, learn the word and make friends with others.
My old bible group still get together and has been past 8 years. Since I work late nights I joined a morning group and has grown little by little with awesome people.
May you have joyful and blessed upcoming holidays, Remember the Lord is always with us. SM

Thanks for sharing this good poem ...think we are all prone to feeling that way sometimes ...not comfortable feeling and I hope you feel better in that respect soon...my guess is you may not be the only one at your church to feel similar which is why it's always good to try include others but it's a fine line as some prefer to be left to make there own way around..mingle as I'm sure you know .. so many people in our world are isolated ...feel lonely ...and that can be in a crowded room... it's sad and community groups are amazing as is this to help develop a sense of belonging..
Best wishes Kathy

Hi South Miami: I love small churches. However, this is a small town church where everybody is related to everybody else. You know "This is my cousin Daryl and this is my other counsin Daryl kind of thing! I've been there for 9 years now and under the previous pastor I flourished - she was married and her husband was also a pastor (they were country pastors - not ordained Reverends in the Methodist Church). My current minister is ordained, single, over 50 female with no children but a 94 year old mother.

I use to go to Bible study, but she brings the subject around every time to death and dying. And asked each individual every week - how did you cope with the death of your husband? With me - she asks "How did you cope with the death of your mother? I can't imagine how I'm going to feel when my mother dies - she's my best friend." Well - excuse me - so was my mother and I don't want to have to go through all those emotions every week! It doesn't matter how much time goes by. That is why I wrote "Dealing with a Loss".

Thanks for caring.

Kathy

Hi Happy - I'm by nature very shy and do not mingle well in big groups. I do very well one on one but crowd intimidate me. So thus - tend to stand off and just observe. Add to it I'm pre diabetic and can't eat lots of sugar and carbs. Tell me - at church dinners and fellowship gatherings with food - what is there always but lots of carbs and sugar!

Kathy

Can understand that on a personal level was crippled with shyness as a young girl....did manage to overcome it eventually wasn't easy by any means..did the pretend to be confident to enable me to slowly become more confident routine ... and yep I hear you require church gatherings and food..know many with different health issues who find it challenging at times all be it yummy ..hope you have a blessed day

Thank you Ummka

Yes Happy - I too when I went to work practiced at trying to overcome my shyness and can manage one on one but get me in a big crowd and the little girl comes back.

Kathy