I know you are right.. but it is still one of my biggest regrets.. I KNOW she would have me back in a flash too.. She knows what she did.. and I know she is sooo hurt too. But I just can't do it.. and I know I never will. Stupid really..
This happened to me nearly 2 yrs ago.. Having to drop a friend.
It hurt me soooo much.. because I am one of those 'Friends for life' kind of people.
She and I had been the closest of friends for 15yrs.. shared everything.. everyday stuff.. and knew each other deepest darkest secrets. We have laughed and laughed and cried and cried together.. and everything in between. (we went through a LOT of things together)
Trust is a HUGELY important thing to me.. in any kind of my relationships.. friends family children.. partners.
I trusted her with my life..
The first time she broke my trust it was quite small.. and although I was hurt.. I thought it was just a bit of a mistake. So although I wondered, I just let it go.
The second time it happened I became more aware that it wasn't a mistake... and stopped trusting her with my my inner most feelings and most important things. But I tried to still carry on as if everything was okay.. but emotionally backed away from her a lot.
But when it happened for a third time .. I lost totally trust in her.. and was so hurt and offended that I cut all contact with her immediately.
and it reeeeeeeally hurt me.. It hurt me like losing one of the 'Loves of my life' ... I cried A LOT.. (for a long LONG time) and it still makes my eyes leaky even now.. because I know I dumped one of the closest tightest friendships I will ever have.
We live in the same town.. but no longer mix in the same circles.. It's such a strange atmosphere when we bump into each other.. because you can actually SEE how hurt we both are.. yet still I cant go back..
I just wouldn't trust her again.
She is actually the only friend I have ever 'lost'.
I am looking for a reliable,honest and trust worthy partner as who I can give my attention, i said your mother and father is dead. i hope you want my partner.
remind me to tell my dad he has popped his clogs..
MF.. (when you get back).. what book are you reading?..
Claayer Forum Posts (15,888)
.. so Have I been for ten years.. well.. until a few more days time when I switch. 
hellloooo 
RE: Does the Atheist have a soul?
It does!