A weighty question

I just wrote and posted a poem about sunbathing in the forums but it is actually pouring with rain here and I can smell the earth giving up its rich fertile scent as it absorbs the moisture. A sexy smell like fresh cut grass and salty skin.

It is Saturday so I am tired, yawns make my jaws creak as my systems try to come on line. It's early afternoon and I could still pretend I have a weekend to myself. I have so many things in need of attention. I will probably ignore them all and choose to sleep some more.

I've gained another pound. It's inexorable and annoying. For years I was 5' 5" and ninety-five pounds in a family who all topped 5' 10". I prayed to grow even just a little taller and in my twenties some internal lines got crossed, some strange hormone effect took place and I grew two agonizing inches in about three months.

I also swelled like a balloon, my skin first going shiny, then growing painful red lines as the fibres parted under the strain, stretch marks forming while I watched. I was quite unwell and it took two years to stabilize but I was happy. Five foot seven inches tall and 120 lbs until menopause which racheted my weight up to 145 lbs over about ten years. I was still happy until my cardiologist decided i should lose at least fifteen pounds.

Personally I don't see much difference in the numbers between 130 and 145 but I have certainly noticed as they go up rather than down. My doctor is conveniently on holiday and so is still living at the moment. I have decided to chuck the bloody diet and go back to my usual routine of salads, fish, chicken, whole grain breads and muesli (with out sugar).

I shall have a steak every now and then when I want red meat. And I shall eat it dripping blood the way I like it! I wasn't broke until they tried to fix me, only very, very tired and I am beginning to suspect my adrenals have gone on holiday again they way they did in my twenties.

Unfortunately that doctor has died and I don't remember what it was we did to solve the issue so I shall experiment with selenium and zinc, B6 and co enzyme Q10 or whatever it is and if that doesn't work throw in some DHEA for good measure. I suspect returning to my regular eating habits with minimal supplementation will do the trick.

At the very least I'll drop back to my happy 145 lbs and stop heading for ten more than that. Oh, my aching knees! They tremble at the thought!