Vanity Fair and City III (55)

Seas change into mulberry fields and mulberry fields change into seas--time brings great changes to the world and us.

Once I played online tarot cards, the question was: Has that one who loves you the most appeared? It predicted four possible results:

1) You have already lost that one who loves you the most.
2) You have nearly lost that one who loves you the most.
3) You haven’t lost that one who loves you the most, but only you know whether you love her / him or not.
4) That one who loves you the most hasn’t appeared.

I don’t know much about tarot cards, so I don’t know whether it can predict correctly or not. But it is quite fun to play it when feeling bored or feeling lost. I linked it to two friends. Daisy played it and her result was number 4. I asked her whether it predicted correctly. Daisy said yes, she hasn’t met somebody who loves her sincerely.

And Dk Yang played it. His result was number 3. I didn’t feel surprised, because as far as I know, there have been at least 5 girls who love him crazily, before, or maybe now. But just as what it predicts, only he knows how he feels toward them.

I asked him whether it predicted correctly. He said he didn’t know. There are some scars on his hearts, though in others’ eyes, he looks like a playboy.

He asked me my result and whether it was correct. Well my result was also number 3, but I didn’t think it was correct. If it was correct, then where was he?! I giggled and tried to make things not so sad or not so serious.

“We are the same.” At last, he said.

Yes, we are the same. Once, I have loved him for so many years, but now, I do not love him any longer. And I know, in some of those years, or some of those days, he loved me too. But why couldn’t we be together?!

Now I don’t love him, he doesn’t love me. Most of the time, I feel that he is more like my brother, rather than a lover. But it is quite ridiculous that after so many things, I told him I haven’t lost the one who loves me the most and he told me he hasn’t lost that one either. If we had played this online tarot cards one or two years ago, then we might have felt that that one predicted in the tarot cards was exactly each other. But now, yea, I am still myself, he is still himself, but both of us change a lot. Just like that saying, “Seas change into mulberry fields and mulberry fields change into seas”--time brings great changes to the world and us.