When my husband of 36 years passed away 5 1/2 years ago I tried to wrap myself around a tree. Have never shared this with anyone. Just as I was rounding the curve to go off the cliff and into the trees a picture of my grand-kids flashed in front of me. I pulled over and sat there in the wee hours of the morning and cried for over 2 hours. They had just lost their grandpa I could not put them through that again. Now I tell all that ask that I am going to my sister's for Thanksgiving, when in reality I am staying right here in my apartment alone. I have no suicidal thoughts going on but I just want to be alone. My choice. Thank you Shirley for starting this thread. We need to talk about these things. Hugs to all of you who are reaching out this time of year.
I'll tell you what real love is. It is blind devotion, unquestioning self- humiliation, utter submission, trust and belief against yourself and against the whole world, giving up your whole heart and soul to the smiter.
I do not have an animal at this time, but my 36 years of marriage and living on ranches we always had German Shepherds. Wonderful dogs, worked cattle and were great protectors of the kids. My daughter goes with breeds that everyone thinks are ferocious dogs, such as wolf, rottweiler, pit bull and great dane so far. She trains dogs and horses and they are all very well behaved critters.
Hell Shell I'm a country girl and I even hate long nightcrawlers but snakes, get the hell out of my way if I see one, because I will run right over the top of you.
I do have a wee bit of a fear of flying for the first time, although I have been told if they know it's your first time they take very good care of you. Just the thought of missing a flight because I get lost in the terminal scares me.
I do believe I included an age range on my profile. Have not checked recently. I have only been married twice, first was 8 years older we were together 36 years before he passed, 2nd was same age, we were together 2 years before I was no longer needed. I personally would feel very uncomfortable dating someone younger than my oldest son, he is 41.(JMO)
It has been in my thoughts for several weeks now. Just need to get up enough courage to go for my first plane ride. I have met him and we stay in touch on a daily basis. He is awesome, but will see what happens with this chapter in my journey.
It did give me problems with sleeping for several weeks. But 3 months later my husband was seriuosly injured when we were out in the hayfield, almost lost him then. He was hospitalized for a very long time and unable to work when he was released. So he needed my care plus taking care of our 2 sons who were still home and working part time. I just let sleep take over my body whenever I had the chance to grab an hour or two. When I would dream they would be more like fantasies.
Before my daughter passed away in '92 I had dreams quite often of one of my kids dying. Never really thought too much about it except each time I had the dream I would go check on all of them. Since then those dreams have stopped. I do still have very vivid dreams about other things. But when I wake usually can't remember most of it.
Hi Len, Your cat looks like my bird. Suppose they could be related. Well I do know around here most think BOB is battery operated boyfriend. But not my sweet bear, I have had him for years and believe me he has no batteries.
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RE: To all the single people that has a hard time during the holiday season
When my husband of 36 years passed away 5 1/2 years ago I tried to wrap myself around a tree. Have never shared this with anyone. Just as I was rounding the curve to go off the cliff and into the trees a picture of my grand-kids flashed in front of me. I pulled over and sat there in the wee hours of the morning and cried for over 2 hours. They had just lost their grandpa I could not put them through that again. Now I tell all that ask that I am going to my sister's for Thanksgiving, when in reality I am staying right here in my apartment alone. I have no suicidal thoughts going on but I just want to be alone. My choice. Thank you Shirley for starting this thread. We need to talk about these things. Hugs to all of you who are reaching out this time of year.