Glad you didn't say a warm drink and a cold body...
I can not say what I REALLY want badly right now as it could be used against me in a court of law....
BUT since I do not really want to spend my life in jail I am simply VERY glad I have the Love of Merc to help me brush off my complete furry at a someone who did one of my family VERY wrong!!
But I agree I like hearing about how the day goes, what was frustrating what was fun, memories, etc from Merc. It is truly wonderful to have long talks!
*hehehe even if I hardly ever say a word...* Teasing you please put down the cattle prod full of botox! Please!
Heck that kind of money and you would have a hard time NOT finding one LOL
I suggest hitting a highschool graduation party when you get your cash, show up with a Budweiser truck, a ferrari, and wearing a Bikini made of $100 dollar bills, the love of your life will find you easy that way!
Caution - Being alive has been determined to be detrimental to your health, if you need help in quiting please call 1-800-healthy and a professional assassin will take down your info and the manner in which you hope to become healthy! just thought I would post an alternative for those who might be facing loooooong lives.
As for the medications for panic attacks being wanted by all who have had them, I have to very respectfully disagree as I know some who would do anything they could to stay away from meds if they could. Just a respectful disagreement from what others have told me about their experiences...
scrreeeech crash... smiling person staring at pictures... what officer?? Sorry I was at peace...
heheh
But noooo you would stop a vehicle first then get the pic out. There are other panic attacks aside from driving though which is why I shared the above...
such as glass elevators... snakes, various animals... any kind of phobia can lead to panic attacks etc So was just trying to leave something behind that someone might find helpful
1. everlasting life - Already have it in my kids and people who will remember me when I die.
2. an ordinary life with an ordinary life span ..but where you have total inner peace ....i repeat total inner peace throughout that lifespan - Would not want it, difficulty is something that keeps the spirit alive because it does not get bored and begin to wonder how it feels.
3. the chance to become somebody else ! - Nope, again sorry I am who I like to be and would not change it in anyway.
4. what you regard as being your dream relationship with any superior being in the universe - Could be interesting for certain but it would not be something I would expect to take, especially with the possible future I now have.
5. your dream romantic partner ! - Well again sorry but I have a possible future that could be better then anything I could dream up on my own.
6. Power - I am not one who would want to have such a burden because I would take on way to much responsibility with unbridled power such as I took this to mean. But even a little bit etc... I already have power over my life and some influence with my kids and some friends, what more could I ever need or want?
7. to be respected the way that you've wanted to be respected - Already have more respect then I could have ever hoped for from my kids and family and friends etc. Sorry I would decline this one too.
8. TO BE LOVED - I feel more loved right now then I ever could have imagined I would be by someone other than family etc.
9. to be able to MAKE ONE CHANGE IN THIS WORLD - This is about the closest one I could find that I might take. I would have to think long and hard about this one but it would very likely be the only one I would pick.
10. and 50 million us dollars ...yes $50,000,000 - Sure it would go a long way to help a lot of my family and would grant me my dreams for certain, tempting, VERY, but would I take this over #9... I really do not know, I would sure like to think I would turn down the money for a positive world change... but I just don't know.
How many? I am just curious as I have been in 36 where vehicles suffered severe damges each accident I have been in I was a passenger, needless to say I don't like being a passenger to much, but I still loooove to drive. On Topic:
I don't suffer panic attacks, but I have family members that do and one of them carries pictures of their children as babies and pulling it out to look at it seems to help them a great deal in rough situations. Perhaps something like that would be helpful for others too, so thought I would share it.
I warn special people not to ask me a question that they do not want the honest answer to because I will not lie about myself or my experiences etc
Which means yes if they ask if they look good in something and I do not think they do, they will hear the truth, though it may be softened with..."You look better in the other outfit" or some such statement. But I will not lie when asked a question by the one I am with.
Of course mine would... ask me after the event above and I may answer this way....
I would go to the day when I awake and see those same deep sparkling eyes mentioned above, still closed in peaceful slumber laying next to me with a gentle smile playing across her lips and her hair all about on the pillow... ask me after that and who knows.
My primary response would always change without question, but it would always remain the same in that at no point would I go back to any previous point in my life for any changes, I can view my life thus far at any time I wish in my memory, so that one fact would remain the same no matter what.
I could post 4000 characters to this every hour for the next 20 years more then likely as there are countless historical events I would love to have a look at, there are countless future possibilities I could also expand upon... but only one right now is the most prominant in my mind and that is in the future stepping off a certain plane in a certain city catching that first smile and becoming entranced by a certain set of deep sparkling eyes....
RE: What's something ya want RIGHT NOW?
Glad you didn't say a warm drink and a cold body...I can not say what I REALLY want badly right now as it could be used against me in a court of law....
BUT since I do not really want to spend my life in jail I am simply VERY glad I have the Love of Merc to help me brush off my complete furry at a someone who did one of my family VERY wrong!!
Merc