Stedan Poetry (135)

You watch their eyes and look for the smile,
each day you held them close, touching and holding,
telling yourself, that love is worthwhile,
no cross words, not even a scolding,

You held their hand and snuggled close,
each precious moment treasured,
kissed their cheek, lips and neck, trying never to be gross,
actions of affection given but never measured,

Each day you loved their smile and eyes aglow,
you asked most times if they was happy,
hoping these are really her feelings they show,
talking slowly and not being snappy,

Communication at times was hard,
Even though you understood every word said,
reading you was like a card,
you never told me what was in your head,

Our Golden rule number one,
to always talk things through,
we both agreed this to be done,
somehow this got lost in you,

Even though my love I shared,
washing, cleaning looking after you,
it is obvious you never cared,
to say I did not love you, made me very blue,

Now your gone and loves not here,
how many more have you done this too,
I shall not hold on to your memory, even though it was dear,
there was never any us? just only you.

The soul it has no mate,
on its` own, it cannot date,
as it needs the human touch,
for it to be alive as such,

When it is in human guise,
it is torn and twisted by all the lies,
crushed and broken, creates a hole,
after all its just a soul,

When love breeds a fire within,
then it stretches like a skin,
when its warm and full of glow,
all pure love is there to show,

Treat it right and hold it dear,
for then it will show no fear,
for you found love on your first date,
joined together they became your soul mate.

The sadness lingers and all is lost,
the words of love, echo in my mind,
heart is aching and at a cost,
recent words she said, so unkind,

For her to say I never loved her,
she vowed her love was true,
or that I did not care,
that is why I got shut of you,

Silently look at those words, eyes bare,
now I wonder what went on,
to be told you do not care,
so love has really gone,

For I tried so hard to contact you,
am not listening, I told you so,
words of love I spoke were true,
now just get on and go, go ,go.

Having spent so many years,
trying to keep a love alive,
in a relationship with so many tears,
to find that all, had finally died,

Then onto the process of finding love,
to find that energy, to find that spark,
to meet that person who could be your glove,
hit by the scammers, liars this is going to be a lark,

Being so long out of the game,
you miss that presence of one so dear,
all the false promises is driving you insane,
time is passing, this is clear,

So you find one who shows a smile,
a glimmer of hope, a worthwhile task,
your words and hers said this could go the extra mile,
please do not lie, was all I ask,

Words we used to express our emotions,
your heart is open in need of feeling,
things were moving and in fast motions,
could this be the one with the healing,

Her words showed so much promise,
my words were from the heart,
telling me her love was honest,
I had so much to give and this was a start,

Time moved on, we related,
all seemed well, till that day,
you asked me "miks", and awaited,
seems my ex, wants her say,

Your face showed it all,
ex wants her share of my pension, lump sum due,
you stood indignant, what a gall,
legal wrangling is all, I will still be left with a few,

Then the panic, the fear,
your impatience made me worry,
you told me you would always be near,
then why the move back?, whats the hurry,

I still have things to do,
Yes you told me about the new grandchild due,
I will be back, as am always here for you,
words, we whispered of love true,

Just two weeks after,
you told me it was over and cant` go through,
there were lots of tears, no laughter,
now I have to start this process all anew.

Connecting Singles was the site I was told,
Does not matter even if your old,
For if one looks hard without fear,
Your true love may be lurking here,

So I registered and looked around,
On the same day we joined and there she was to be found,
I looked and saw her face,
My heart skipped and jumped at a pace,

This lady has enticed me and I must write to,
So with crafted words I said hello, how are you,
Her response with words were slim,
Then I reckoned my chances were getting thin,

So I pursued her with all my guile,
I can assure you this took a while,
After many days of sweet and meaningful chat,
She said could your love be true, could you do that,

My heart was afire and my passion incensed,
Our words on Skype started to become intense,
This lady of mine has kindled such desire,
Our eyes would meet and started such a fire,

Now we talk every day,
And this lady is not getting away,
We both know where we are going too,
So young lovers, this also could be You,

And I wished all the above was True.

Loves devotion,
an incredible emotion,
full of highs,
then your heart is broke,
lies.

Your eyes looked at me,
green, bright and glistening,
your shining love so clear to see,
my heart wholly swallowed and listening,

My fingers reached out and touched your skin,
your head bowed and laid upon my chest,
and I could feel this love swell within,
we passionately made love and came to rest,

You gently took my hand,
I caressed your worried brow,
for we had been to the promised land,
then we laughed at that silly row

I live on an island with many a shore,
I love my children forever more,
Do we see each other or ever meet,
The lottery has more chance to greet,

What is life but a lineage,
do we ever gain much mileage,
Friends and family we adore,
but too life is there much more,

I have memories in my mind that would scare you to death,
You carry baggage in life but not in depth,
Friends and mates that did not escape,
Left you with memories that cannot be scraped,

All my life I have carried these thoughts,
Does it do anything but nought,
Dreams may come and they may go,
But for some it is all a show

The pain has gone, but still the sorrow,
reminders of what could have been tomorrow,
your family and trusted friends say,
maybe it is better this way,

You remember her face, the words softly spoken,
the way her eyes shone with loves token,
and what has happened, your greatest fear,
her words echoing Kallis, Kallis, your so dear,

You empty the drawer of her things,
and feel the welt of tears sting,
your heart is gripped with such emotion,
your mind shocks with so much commotion,

Silently you place the items in the case,
come on be brave, dont` lose face,
remember what family and friends say,
maybe it is better this way.

Heartbreak

On this day in July,
a pretty lady I did espy,
back and forth we communicated,
each message made us both elated,

Onto Skype we did try,
so we could see each other eye to eye,
her beauty was there to see,
and I thought she was for me,

Our words and feelings we both did prose,
we both felt the swell as it arose,
each spoken word was meant to be from the heart,
and our love began to start,

Our eyes would meet from afar,
and feelings and emotions were like a destiny star,
her eyes were like a deep green sea,
and I could feel her love melt me,

Many hours and days were spent,
each declaring their intent,
our emotions and feelings made us pine,
we had to meet, we knew it was time,

At the airport she said I had looked scared,
what she didnt realise was just how much I cared,
I saw her beauty and my heart did fly,
I had to hold onto my emotions so I would`nt cry,

Her visit was supposed to be a short stay,
The night before we felt the pull of her going away,
We talked and felt the emotions pulling at our heart,
I asked her to stay so we would not be apart,

We spent all our time together and we shared,
we could see through our touches that we both really cared,
hours quickly flew and our love grew,
our vows to each other we said anew,

At Our Ladys Chapel I bent on one knee,
and asked this princess to marry me,
she answered one word "yes",
at that very moment I felt blessed,

She told me she would always be there,
we made future plans in which to share,
we knew work to her was very dear,
and moving back to Finland was clear,

Her going back was not a good day to cheer,
we both held back the tears, we declared that each was dear,
my homeward journey was strangely cold,
but she told me our love was a very strong bond to hold,

Back to Skype we communicated,
with smiles and love anticipated,
we could see that we were missing one another this was clear,
and we both dearly wanted to be near,

A few weeks have now passed and time has been on her side,
each moment treasured, had been measured including her pride,
last 48hrs we scarcely talked, my attempts to Skype were closed a line had been drawn,
and new thoughts in her mind mind had been borne,

I received an email to say things were not going her way,
and that in her eyes there is no future to stay,
all communications to her have been blocked everywhere,
So my answer is clear, you my sweet princess will always be dear.

People say time has great healing,
difficult to take this on with feeling,
I have loved and she has now departed,
and am I the only one broken hearted.

A hurting heart, burns with pain,
for the love you will never see again,
the fire of passion slowly subsides,
and quietly within, the love dies,

Your reasoning and mind wandered,
at the chance of love squandered,
and did you really do your best,
or was you considered, just like all the rest,

Was it love they wanted or just to fill a need,
were your feelings passionately needed or was it just greed,
you read their words of how they felt with intent,
and now you fully understand they were never meant,

You loved this person and felt so good within,
she met your mother and the rest of the kin,
sweet comments were made that your a lovely pair,
and now you realise she just didnt` care,

The means in which you was pushed away,
Will stay in your mind forever and a day,
now days have passed, and time has moved on,
this how they wanted it to be and now they have gone,

A loving heart, now smoulders within,
a new flame ignites your feelings and your ready to begin,
push past the pain and the ache, you know your love is pure,
someone will love, need and want you for sure.

My world turned around,
Because of you I found,
Your love is sweet and true,
It removed all my doubts of being blue,

My heart sings with joy,
You have made this man a happy boy,
All my life I have waited,
And now my love is sated,

Your love for me is so true,
And in this life I will be with you,
For my heart and soul is yours,
And this will be for ever more.