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I Love Him,

Yes I do love my Giant so very much.
Yet, I made him cry on that day..

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Wilujeng Tepang Tahun, Kang..
Sing pait daging, pahang tulang
Tur jauh balai parek rejeki
Mugia salamet dunya aherat
Bari teu aya kuciwana.
Aamiin..



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Enlighten Me, Please!

You see, I am not an English speaker and I am not really familiar with Western culture, and that's why I need you all to enlighten me.

1. When someone said "I am taking a break from smoking"
Does that mean that person will quit smoking for good or will always smoke again someday, anyday?

2. Is exaggerating lying (telling false information)?

thanks
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I am Calling All Bible-Expert-CS Bloggers


I couldn't really understand what those verses are saying or how closely those are related. But there are two things I would like to know from you all who are Bible experts.

If my Giant (Christian) is going to marry me (Muslim),

1. Will the marriage be recognized by his church?
2. If not, will every love he makes to me, every kiss he gives me, and every touch he does me, be considered committing adultery?
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This Morning I Promised Him..

All these years during my stay on CS-Island, I always.. I mean ALWAYS had high self esteem when interacting with CS people. You know why? None of them was humble. And therefore to me they’re no better persons than I am. At the end of the day, I could always say:

“who the hell do you think you are to me?”
“what the hell make you think you’re a better person than I am?”

Until I met my Giant..

Different from any other CS person, I have never sensed any arrogance nor any sarcasm nor any rudeness from my Giant whenever we talked on video skype.. He has always been a very humble man and that made me wonder.. who is this guy really? hmmm

To be honest, when he told me his real name, I searched on internet. I found many articles about him. So I know that he is real.. and he’s loved by his friends. But yesterday, I found one article that was posted in 2018. One of what the article said was that my Giant’s a SUPERSTAR. And I was like..

Who the hell do you think you are, Kal?”

So this morning I asked him about that. He said “Oh I was good once!”
That’s it. That was it all he said.

For the very first time, I felt so ashamed of myself. I felt like a Lioness without teeth. Even my thorns are all broken.

I told him that the article made me wonder if I am good enough for him to be by his side.. to spend his life with.

He said:

Stop wondering! Let’s just make our relationship work!”

And this morning I promised him that
I WILL DO MY BEST TO MAKE OUR RELATIONSHIP WORK!”
or I would rather stay single for the rest of my life..

I love you, my Giant.. I really do with all my heart. heart beating lips


Indonesia, 12 August 2020
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I Give Up. My Giant Is Sooo Stubborn!

I posted a blog about comments my family gave me when I sent a picture of me and my Giant to our family (correction: my family) WA Group. I decided to erase that blog although I got one interesting comment that deserved my response.

"Where is your Hijab, Kal?"

Yes, that's the comment I got from my family on WA.

You see, my family do not worry about me talking to a stranger from far away somewhere. They only worry about something about me will change. I find it a normal reaction when your loved one has relationships with someone who is from a completely different world. But that made me think. Maybe.. just maybe, my Giant's family have such worries too. They may worry about something about him will change.

So this morning, my time, my Giant and I spent more than 6 hours on skype video call. Ofcourse not 6 hours spent on our discussion as we watched 2 movies in between.. laugh

Anyway, I asked him to think over and over again about our relationship. I asked him not to waste his thousands dollars on flight tickets to meet me. Although I know he has huge amount of money, not to mention the huge amount he and his siblings inherited from his belated Dad. Even first class plane tickets would be nothing for him.
But as much as I want to be with him, I don't want him to face problems from his family and friends because he chooses me, an Indonesian Muslim woman, to spend the rest of his life with.

I reminded him that my belief and his are different. When it crashes it can create a conflict.. not only with him but also with his family and friends. I don't want him to be in a confusing position when the conflict takes place between me and his family, his two sons especially.

"How tolerant are you? How ready are you? What will you feel? How will you deal with issues?" I asked him those amongst other questions.

We discussed things from different point of view.. from many different conflict possibilities, including rule A to Z in my belief and rule A to Z in his belief..

However from whatever perspective I brought up, he ended up saying "Kal, you don't need to worry!"

I GIVE UP!
Maybe me and him spending life together with all our differences will not be as bad as I thought after all..

Farewell..


On the 23rd of July 2021 at around 7 am my time, that wonderful with class and character Gentleman passed away while undergoing heart surgery.. crying

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Inna lillahi wa inna ilayhi raji'un..

"Verily we belong to God and verily to Him do we return."

Farewell Dad.. kiss
Thank you for being nice and sweet regardless of my race and religion, and thank you most kindly for the invitation to your big family's Thanksgiving. I feel so much welcome.

You're such a lovely great man. I will keep you in a very special room in my heart. bouquet


roseIndonesia, 25 July 2021rose
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Darling, I Am Not Pregnant..!

The test I took 3 days ago (on Saturday my time) was negative. I could see how relief my Giant was when he heard that news.

You see, on November 24th, I attended a meeting chaired by my Boss. I sat next to him, less than a meter away. He wore a mask and so did I. I heard he coughed few times. And that’s the last day I met him as I WFO while he WFH. Less than a week prior to the meeting, I had a big discussion with one of my office colleagues. We ended up having lunch together. On a different day, I shared my lunch with my other office colleague.

Anyway, later on, I heard that a few days after the meeting, my Boss took a SWAB Test, and the result was positive. That made everyone in our office have to get tested at an appointed government health clinic on Tuesday December 1st.

Everyday has always been the day with traffic jam on that part of the road. So I decided to book an online bike motorcycle to take me to the clinic. Approaching the clinic, I almost had an accident when my bike almost collided with another bike that ran quite fast. I heard it from the sound of the brake. Although I was a bit late but I made it and got tested.

The almost bike collision made me decide to go home with the Secretary of the office on his car as we were going to the same direction. On the way, we talked about office matters but I heard him coughing few times. The traffic jam was so bad that it took us about three hours to reach the crossroads where we parted. I thanked him and got off the car.

The SWAB test results were announced on Friday, December 4th. I was negative, thank God!
To be honest, even my two office colleagues were surprised to find my test result negative. I told them about how my Giant has always made me laugh and happy every day we're skype video dating.

They said: “Aaahhh.. no wonder why your immune system is so great!”

But gooooshhh.. the Secretary of the office was positive and so were my two office colleagues who had lunch with me blues Before the result came out, we still interacted at work and therefore as the consequences, all his staff, all my staff and I had to take another SWAB test. And we did it last Saturday, Dec 5th at a different Government health clinic.

I kept my Giant updated with all the information. He was really supportive. He showed me his huge love. banana

Today, the result of the second test was announced. Three of his staff, two of my staff and one from another division were positive. frustrated crying

I sent my Giant messages to his WA. I thought I would get a reply in the morning (his time) as it’s around his sleeping time. But I got his response.

Me : "Hi darling. I am not pregnant. Meaning the TEST result is NEGATIVE."
Him : "What a relief! So happy to hear! Thank you for letting me know you are ok. I love you!"
Me : "Thank you for being the best booster of my immune. I looove youuu!"
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PS
I kept my double cloth mask on all time I interacted with others.
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I Will Shoot Those Dogs..

Reading a post on cs forum, about a dog that pooped on someone's property and the walker didn't picked up the waste.. that person just walked away instead, has made me remember about a story a good friend of mine told me some time ago. It's her neighbor.

At first my friend wondered who could do such bad thing as she and her husband never saw who walked the dog. They just saw the dog poop. Then they asked someone in their house to carefully watch and record anybody with a dog. Finally their neighbor got recorded with two dogs!

Different from most countries in the West, Indonesia has no law that forces pet owners to pick up their dog poop. So we cannot report the "incidence", let alone sue the owners.

Well, with that record, her husband knocked at the neighbor's door, show the evidence and said: "I will shoot those dogs of yours if you still let the dogs poop in my property!"

My friend's husband is a police officer.
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Do I Love My Giant Really?

"Am I really in love with him?"
Not just one time did I ask myself such question.

To be honest, I don’t know. I haven’t met him in person yet. I only know that he has always been in my mind since I knew him better. The much better I know him the more he occupies this little brain of mine.

Every time I went to grocery stores, my feet were just taking me to the tea counter/shelf. I wondered which tea he would pick if he was here. Like me he doesn’t really drink coffee, but different from me he does love drinking tea, especially iced tea. I don’t. I prefer to drink mineral water or juice. Still I went and checked the tea available at the stores, without buying any. It’s kinda like a reflex move.

Every time I saw stuffs needed to make donut, I asked myself. “Hey Kal, when will you start practicing making donuts?” Oohh he loves donuts.

Every time I passed the counter of Macaroni, I smiled. I remembered when he told me about the Baked Macaroni n Tuna he got. And I remembered telling him why I don’t really like Macaroni. Hmm.. everything seems to remind me of him, even the eggplants I saw at the stores. giggle

And it’s not just at the grocery stores. I kept thinking of him wherever I go.
Do you think is that a sign that I am in love with him? dunno

What do you want from him, Kal?”
I asked myself another question.

Again, to be honest, I don’t know. I don’t really know.
I know he has more money than I do (and that’s because of the stupid currency of Indonesian Rupiah). But do I want anything he can buy for me? I don’t think so. I already have everything I want and need. I told him that the only thing I don’t have is a winter coat as we don’t have Winter in Indonesia. Why do I have to have any when I don’t need it.. grin

"So what do you want, Kal?"

Hmm.. I want to take him for Culinary tourism when he is here. I want to take him to places where he can get lost in the beauty of Indonesia, my City in particular. I want him to be happy whenever he is with me. I want him to relax and smile and forget all his long and hard and tiring day at work. I want him to get to know me more by knowing my family and friends . I want to make him happier.. I want to hold his hand, hug him, kiss him and make love to him..

And I was soo verry happy when he thanked me for making me his star. dancing

If all those things are not any sign of how I am in love with that left-handed gentleman of mine, please tell me what else?

He Is A Republican..

Yes, my Giant is a Republican. blues

Anyway, the other day we skype video talked and for about four hours he talked about Democrats and Republicans.. about his Democrat Governor.. about Obama and Trump. Yes everyone, you heard it right, it lasted for four hours! laugh

But different from some cs blogger experts, he compared positive sides in both and also negative sides. I am glad that my Giant is kinda more fair in looking at the issues.

And yesterday, I asked him if he had heard about how Trump proposed a new covid19 miraculous remedy.

He said: "Yes, I heard that and tomorrow I will go for it!"

I was like.. "Whaaaattt!!" shock jaw drop

He then bursted into laughter and said:

"I was kidding, Kal. I was just joking!"

If he were here, he wouldn't get away from my kungfu-style-kick for telling me that joke! I hate him! very mad

I don't want him to die.
I don't want to lose him. Not just yet.
Not before I give him thousands kisses and hugs in real life.. kiss hug
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