Do I Love My Giant Really?

"Am I really in love with him?"
Not just one time did I ask myself such question.

To be honest, I don’t know. I haven’t met him in person yet. I only know that he has always been in my mind since I knew him better. The much better I know him the more he occupies this little brain of mine.

Every time I went to grocery stores, my feet were just taking me to the tea counter/shelf. I wondered which tea he would pick if he was here. Like me he doesn’t really drink coffee, but different from me he does love drinking tea, especially iced tea. I don’t. I prefer to drink mineral water or juice. Still I went and checked the tea available at the stores, without buying any. It’s kinda like a reflex move.

Every time I saw stuffs needed to make donut, I asked myself. “Hey Kal, when will you start practicing making donuts?” Oohh he loves donuts.

Every time I passed the counter of Macaroni, I smiled. I remembered when he told me about the Baked Macaroni n Tuna he got. And I remembered telling him why I don’t really like Macaroni. Hmm.. everything seems to remind me of him, even the eggplants I saw at the stores.

And it’s not just at the grocery stores. I kept thinking of him wherever I go.
Do you think is that a sign that I am in love with him?

“What do you want from him, Kal?”
I asked myself another question.

Again, to be honest, I don’t know. I don’t really know.
I know he has more money than I do (and that’s because of the stupid currency of Indonesian Rupiah). But do I want anything he can buy for me? I don’t think so. I already have everything I want and need. I told him that the only thing I don’t have is a winter coat as we don’t have Winter in Indonesia. Why do I have to have any when I don’t need it..

"So what do you want, Kal?"

Hmm.. I want to take him for Culinary tourism when he is here. I want to take him to places where he can get lost in the beauty of Indonesia, my City in particular. I want him to be happy whenever he is with me. I want him to relax and smile and forget all his long and hard and tiring day at work. I want him to get to know me more by knowing my family and friends . I want to make him happier.. I want to hold his hand, hug him, kiss him and make love to him..

And I was soo verry happy when he thanked me for making me his star.

If all those things are not any sign of how I am in love with that left-handed gentleman of mine, please tell me what else?