I wanna go home
The other day a neighbor asked me if I could take her to the Verizon store in town because she didn't have transportation at the time and she wanted to get a new phone for her husband who was getting hard of hearing and their phone didn't have enough volume for him. She already had a smart phone. So, off we went. We got to the store and a very nice salesman asked if he could help us. We sat at his desk and the business of obtaining another phone began. He had his smart phone which he was using instead of a computer and she had her smart phone out and using it to get the info he was seeking as I sat there silently watching these 2 conducting their business both paying more attention to their phones than to each other, a sudden urge came over me that I had been transported way into the future to a world I was very unfamiliar with. All I could think of was getting away from this place. I guess I was so deep in my thoughts that I just blurted out "I wanna go home." "But we just got here." the woman said and the salesman looked at me like I was a retard. "No, not back to the house, I wanna go back to the 50's when people looked at each other when they talked, I wanna walk around Central Park, I wanna ride my bike, I wanna go across the street to "Baldies" candy store and get a Coke in a green glass bottle, I wanna go fishing in Castle Lake." I wanna hear "Rock Around the Clock", I wanna see Jack Benny." I felt the tears welling up in my eyes and got up and said I'll be outside in the car and walked out of the store.I went out to the car and sat behind the wheel and wept like a baby. Where did it all go? Where are all my friends? How did I get here? Is this what we all wished for? I felt lost. I wonder where Danny is? Oh yeah, he died a couple of years ago, Cancer. His older brother Jesse the same. Jimmy must be pretty old by now, he's probably dead too. Rudy jumped out of a 4th floor window because he couldn't kick a Heroin habit. Just about everyone I knew as a kid were dead.
A few minutes later my neighbor came out of the store and we went home. "Are you ok to drive?" she asked. "Yeah I'm fine'. I said and we drove back and I dropped her off at her house.
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but I'm glad I read it, the older we get, we understand that home sickness more.
As a youngster I'm sure you often wondered why are old folk often stuck in the past?
well now you know
I think sometimes the less we know.... the happier we were or are
Nothing lasts forever. We change and adapt, or we join the dead. Sometimes we join the dead anyway. Such is the way.