COSMIC CONSCIOUSNESS

Hello JB,

First this is a great blog. Second, I am amazed of the power of the spirit compelling me to join this presentation. For reasons, I will tell later, I have so much restraint on not doing so and or creating ones myself, although I could, with substantial experience and reading about them.

When I was forced by my best friend of 35 years to join this corner, I was so strongly hesitant and it took her three forceful attempt to help me sign up. The reason is when I realized that it was a dating site, I refused to join as I promised myself never ever to be a member of such a group. Only I agreed after she explained to me about that little POETRY on top to just be where I am. We were contributing our writes several years before that in a different site (poetry only) but I didn't like because the structure is so rigid and I am a Free Verse writer.

That was the late part of 2011. So I was writing and as per her instruction I don't have to put any picture in it. I obliged, and didn't post any at all until March of 2012.

Going back in late of 2011, I was drawn so uncontrollably and with such a force that I wake up in the middle of the night to read this write from another poet in the other ,side of the world. Night for me is day for him. He, just like me, didn't have any picture either but a paint of such a magnificent art (drawn by his daughter).

I was so fascinated and captivated by his writing, no one else. I noticed after a while that he didn't comment on any other writings, and seldom does he post his poems, but the way he writes, (I have a lot of copies) just mesmerized me and the rest. Eventually he commented on mine and mine alone for a while. I commented on most of those that I enjoyed and learned from but with him, when I comment, I feel it is not coming from me. but someone who is guiding my hand and my thoughts to write them.

Needless to say, we connected. to cut the story short, we became lovers (neither of us were looking, on my profile per the advice of my friend who was also very active, was to write in bold letters exactly like this: NOT LOOKING ONLY HERE FOR THE POETRY AND WRITINGS, with dots just to qualify for the limit)

We finally talked about four months later on the phone, and in exactly thirty days, I flew to go and meet him. Before that we had about 4 to 5 hours talking on the phone every single day and night. The reason, I went and made it quick is because thirty days before that my doctor said my cancer came back which was in remission since 2000. After two more specialist telling me that at most I have 90 days more to live, I wasted no time to go and meet him. I informed him all the details of my situation. Note, that I wasn't feeling sick at all, but I knew that if they will start administering cure for me, I would be so ill. It worked good because the last Specialist, Dr. John Sclaert, said it will take thirty days to study all my previous record before he could do anything.

So I flew to his country, and we just knew like we lived our lives together for thousand of years. That was how we felt. We were so in love, both physically and spiritually. He was already reading all the books of ZEN, BUDDHISM, SYNCHRONICITY AND CAPRA'S THE TAO OF PHYSICS, like the author mentioned (socrates). While I was cradled catholic and lector and Eucharistic minister for more than 25 years, I am a very open minded person and respect all other's belief or non belief. I was reading those already but I wasn't ready.


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Here is the most scary part, JB. and Johnny, In one of our walks in KURANDA, by Byron Falls, we came across a very old unused bridge. I noticed we were not going back where we came from. Normally I am a very aware and alert in my bearings of location, and upon sensing that I am lost, I immediately turn around and find where I was. This time, I didn't get bothered, and neither was he. Now it is like jungle where we were, sort of feeling uneasy if you have never been there. But we were both very comfortable just walking and enjoying those beautiful wild flowers, he even took a lot of those pictures. As we were crossing the old unused bridge, here comes a GURU, (like Jesus, in robe or a Monk) garbed in White linen with an orange sash, and a wooden staff. I opened my mouth as he was approaching halfway in the bridge. I said: "Okay, Guru, there is a reason why we meet you here unexpectedly today so what is it, that I have to learn from you?" all the time my love was just at awe as to how I approached him so direct and no preliminaries. With a firm but deep look in our eyes, he said in the most gentle voice, one that seem to come from a very deep hollow or tunnel. "IT IS ME THAT HAVE COME TO LEARN" So powerful that I felt so humbled and so paralized by his conviction. We each took turn in the discussion but the most that I will never forget and neither can my love, is when he said. about the best knowledge of all: 'IS NOT TO KNOW ANYTHING, NOTHING, IS THE EPITOME OF KNOWING" Of course, I was so confused, and then he added "WHEN THE STUDENT IS READY, THE TEACHER WILL APPEAR" and he manifested that we were his teachers and he was the student. It took me a long time to realized, and the end I finally figured out that we were all seekers at that very moment. Anything that we discussed (lasted about 2 hours) was all but learning itself of not knowing.

Fast forward. when I came back in June 10, 2012, as two days later is my big final test for the diagnosis. I didn't go to work and called my love, to wake me up at one o'clock because I will have my test an hour later. I told him I am taking a nap. I never ever sleep at daytime in my life.

Here is what happened: I dreamed, at the Northern end of Chrissie Park in San Francisco. I was standing facing the western side of Australia, which is Sydney where my love is. From out of nowhere appeared the same GURU, (we didn't take picture as he declined), this time garbed in White inside with a Blue sash and a crown of gold in his head and said with his right hand over my head: "DON'T WORRY, YOU ARE CURED" and disappeared but was replaced by a dove flying up in the blue heavens.

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I woke up shaking but so joyful and so full of peace. I looked at the time and it is half an hour before my love was to call me, I rang him and told him about my dream right away. Just the two of us knew about it. didn't tell no one not even my children, who didn't even know what was happening to me, because I didn't want them to be disturbed. So the test was done, the most sophisticated cat scanner, so new, I was one of the first 100 to be scanned in it. 1,500 hundred pictures in three minutes. Had the copy of my scan. It will be three days later when the result will be released to be examined by the three specialist who had to connect so they can all figure out what to do next. When the result came: LO AND BEHOLD, THEY ALL CONCURRED THAT I AM COMPLETELY FREE OF CANCER CELLS. I AM AS HEALTHY AS A BULL AND WONT NEED NO MEDICATION OR ANYTHING. I called my love of course, and informed him and he said: "I KNEW IT, LOVE, I JUST DIDN'T WANT TO TELL YOU MYSELF"

chat was in June 2012. JB this is my true story and my first time to give the full account in writing. but my children knew after that and my love and I kept it to ourselves. Note: I know he is reading all my entries, as we went separate ways, for reason, I will not cover here. I have so much respect and gratitude for him and his family.

so this is it, JB and this is why I believe. And this is why I am telling everyone to read Many Lives, Many Masters, by Dr. Brian Weiss..all documented facts and events on this journey of having 100 if not 1000 lives after lives...I believe.

Thank you so much Socrates.

Phyllis