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I haven't been on this site very long but I met someone on here that stole my heart at first site.I call her my heaven sent "ANGEL"....THANX CONNECTING SINGLES!!! I hope everyone finds someone SPECIAL...GOOD LUCK!!!

Another week has past and yet no special someone (other than my son) in my life. Ever wonder if we are jus destine to be alone? I have had some great relationships in the past but I find myself alone more than not. I considered if I was the cause of my bad relationships... but then I realize I am jus being me.I am still looking for that woman who can make me tingle with jus a kiss. I see others with someone like that everyday. Maybe since my parents are divorced it is genetic their parents are divorced also. How many wrongs before we get it right? I try not repeating the same mistakes they made. I based my beliefs on what I think is right. I cant figure it out. When I go out I look but I see with my eyes and I cant speak up with out thinking how I might seem desperate. I dont think I am a bad person and I know what happened in the past makes us who we are today. I am posting these blogs to get my profile viewed more hoping that one woman will see these and want to talk to me. I make sure I not vulgar or crude. I do cuss frequently when I talk but usually as a adjective not as a demeanor. I have confidence but I like to play by ear and when no response is made I feel shy and want to hide until I am reassured that I am doing the right thing. I am glad I have friends who support me (not financially) and enjoy my company. Maybe this week coming will be better. Thanks to all you who have read these blogs and viewed my profile. Hope you are having better luck then I am.

All i thought i wanted,
Many thoughts that could not stay,
All I thought i wanted,
Just seemed to fade away.
All of my hope, all my wishes, all my dreams,
Just seemed to fall apart before my eyes,
Like a blanket without seams.
An echoed whisper one cloudy, and dark night,
I wished a wish upon a star full of love,
Yet full of fright, listening from afar.
And so vainly i wished, knowing it would
Never come true, for how could i gain with
A simple one wish, the sweet and only you
all I thought i wanted,
A wish that never stayed, just always
fades away.

- Whoa, time out. Football is on.

- Sorry. I was just picturing you naked.

- Is there any way we can do this via e-mail?

- Don't you have some laundry to do or something?

- You are so cute when you get mad.

- You're just upset because your bottom is beginning to spread.

- Wait a minute - I get it. What time of the month is it?

- You sure you don't want to consult the great Oprah on this one?

- Looks like someone had an extra bowl of b*tch flakes this morning!

- Who are you kidding? We both know that thing ain't loaded.

Hey how are you all doing? I decided to post a descriptive short summary of myself on this site. Lets began my name is Rodney and i was born in Biloxi, Mississippi on the Keesler Air Force base. I am a Sagittarious which makes me kind of bullheaded at times but i an honest and laid back as far as my personality goes.

Ever since i was young i have liked the outdoors fishing, Hunting, Target shooting, Skeet shooting, Camping and hiking. I am a year around sportsman so to speak Hunting in the Fall and Winter and spending my time in the Spring and Summer Fishing and boating. I also like other past times such as Baseball, Hockey, playing Pool, Cooking and Grilling, Concerts, Reading etc.

Getting off of the subject and concerning my goals and ambitions when i was younger i though that i wanted to be an Artist and i started college as an Art major. This lasted for about three semesters and then i quit trying to figure out what i wanted to do in life. Later i decided to go back to college for Travel and Tourism Management and i earned my degree in this field.

Lets move on to my musical taste i like Modern Rock, Classic Rock, Rockabilly ( Rock and Coumtry fused together) as well as both Classic Country and New Country. I consider myself as both a Rocker and Honkey tonker if such a thing exists.

I try to do my best at all things and i also try not to focus on the negative in life. I believe in recognizing the positive experiences in life and disregarding the negative experiences. Life throws us curveballs and it is up to us to get past these challenges and hardships instead of obsessing over them day to day. Please feel free to comment.

I wonder why you've locked yourself
Up there, in that high, lonely tower
Though you pretend it gives you power
Your soul lies on an empty shelf..

You try to see what preachers meant
By telling you "Confess your sins!"
They want to be your garbage bins
As it is useless to repent..

The so-called soothing balm you need
For helping you to walk on air
Is just another love-affair
Another fruit that leaves no seed...

Just give it up, 'cause it's no good..
Keep dreaming in your lonely tower
You'll only think you smelled a flower..
Sink deeper in your lifeless mood

And let me know when is the time
To fall apart or start again
To be a woman and a man
Or just a poem with no rhyme...

I've just spoken to someone about the one I love. THEY don't know it, HE doesn't know it...even I am trying to convince myself that I don't know it. But I do... I know that he could be my lover, so close, and yet so far away.
I might soon meet him. We'll just pretend that we don't know it, just like we do every time... we talk, we smile at each other, we touch each other accidentally, yet we pretend not to know it, not to feel it...the love that grows inside of us, that flashes in our eyes every time we look at each other.
We simply don't have the strength to admit it...our love. Such a burning, self destructive, sweet pain, denied even before existing....our love.

A dream you have, closed in your hand
‘Cause magic is the night
A white-horse rises from the lake
And flies to another land

And hidden in a tree you’ll stay
And wait until it comes
You’ll catch the angel’s white-long hair
And hold...’cause it flies fast

And fairies you will get to see
‘Cause they will know you’re there
They’ll show you spells and tricks and games
And they will brush your hair

This happy night is just for you
They’ll give you all they can
They’ll tell you stories about a boy
To make you come again

Earthquakes…It seems that the earth is quaking. First it is Wenchuan, then it is Hayti, then Chile, then Kaohsiung…Which place will be the next?

Back to the real, trifling life.

My former landlord is still distressing about his empty apartments. Not many people rent his apartments so he can’t get the rent, yet he has to pay for his houses. The more houses he has, the more money he has to pay for the bank every month. But now not many people rent his apartments.

Besides this, he is still distressing about his divorce. His wife asks for a divorce, because---

“He considers me as a coat.” His wife, Amy, said.

“When he feels cold, he will put on the coat. When he feels hot, he will throw it off. And I think I am just a coat.” Amy said. Her baby girl was crying on the bed.

“How about the baby?” I asked.

“I will raise her up.” Amy said.

Amy is just three years older than me so we become friends easily. She is lonely in this city as she came here not long ago. Me too. So she always talks to me whenever she has a chance.

“He is selfish.” Amy said. “Sometimes he can be very good to me sometimes he can be very cold. It all depends on his mood. I can not find any respect from him. What’s the difference between me and a coat? I am not a coat and I prefer to choose rather than to be chose.”

Yes, a divorce can solve the problem. But Amy needs courage to take this step. Divorce can be a release in a sense; however, it can bring some bad effects. Not many people want to marry twice in a life.

When they were distressing about these problems, earthquakes happened in those far places. Yes, the earthquakes didn’t do much harm to people here; however, all the annoying problems seem to smash to pieces in front of the great nature.

Imagine, earthquake happened here one day. All the houses, high buildings, skyscrapers collapsed. All of us died. Who would still care about the houses, the rent, and the real estates? Who would still care about “coat”, “selfish”, misunderstanding, quarrels and hatred?

Only those times we were together could linger around your heart. And all the other things, including our lives, would have gone with the wind… for ever.