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this is all new to me.never really searched for a date or a match on line.dont know what will come of it but its interresting just the same.

I think this time it's over. I fell in love - so briefly. All the petals have fallen to the floor and they lie there, their dieing veins withering away...

I still see him, still feel those eyes upon me, those glimmering emerald jewels. I walk and I feel his presence about me - if I turned, I might see him there, behind me, trying to catch up.

How is it there is a cord between us still? Some invisible chain just about to break apart? I have not spoken to him in several days, just lingering in silence, held back against my will. Don't contact him, my mind says, and my heart quakes for this, afraid one tug and the cord might be severed forever. Just wait, I'm told, and I suffer the darkness of my pathos mingled with the bruises of jelousy, imagined or real.

Be happy should he move on, I say. This will make the permanence solid and not a ground made of glass; this would be the point of recovery built after the embitterment, crushed ego, and devistation. It would be a gift of selfless love to accept him happy in the arms of another, and it would be poinient, all those hours when the petals were still upon that rose, only falling one by one without my even realizing til there were only a few left. And I clung to them even as they gently fluttered away, escaping my fingers, wafting in the rising breezes of change.

I did love him. And I wanted to love him. He very nearly loved me; for a moment. Even now? No way to know. No way to understand. Just silence and the very last ounce of life draining from those petals at my feet. One more second or two; one more day.

Yes, be happy then. He will find comfort and life in another's eyes, in another's voice. Be glad. The possibilities have been washed away with what will not be known and only linger as the thoughts of that rose.

If you turn on the TV and a show is on you don't like, do you change the channel? Of course you do. What if you didn't have that option and you saw war in real time, would you still sit and watch it? My point is this, and it has nothing to do with watching TV. Our service men and women in their tour of duty, don't have the choice of changing the channel their living. We sit down to our televisions and switch the channel because we are free to do that. We are free to change our jobs, change where we live, and even change the people we choose to be around. People in third world countries, especially those where fighting is occurring, don't have those options available to them to get away from it. I've been to a few places around the world and the level of poverty prevents many things. It's not a choice for them like it is for us here. Our own freedoms have spoiled us in many ways. We don't appreciate our tap water, the hot water heater, or even that light switch. We take vacations when we can going to lovely places. We do so many things that we have actually begun taking them for granted, through our own freedoms. Remember this the next time you sit down and turn on that TV and see events happening somewhere in the world that you don't like or don't want to watch because you don't feel like dealing with it and change the channel...those people in those countries don't have the option of switching channels to get away from it...like we do here. Life, is reality, not reality TV.

I bow to those who have fought, and still fighting and to those who have died to give me the freedom to simply voice my opinions. I am grateful and thankful I live in a country where I can still do that without fear...

I hope everyone is having a good weekend.
This is my question of the day.
What gives you purpose in life? Everyones life is different. Our sense of purpose may be different or it may be the same. Feel free to share what gives you purpose.

--- Steve

You can close your eyes to things you don’t want to see, but you can’t close your heart to things you don’t want to feel.

mickel jackson was a pedofile a child abuser simple as that

I've been active in the forums and am trying to meet people on this site with not much luck. Most of my forum post go on ignored and a lot of my threads only get one or 2 comments. It's starting to get frustrating.

It makes me wonder on why I get overlooked. Am I boring? I am too young? Is it because I'm different?

I guess I'll never really know.

Don't mean to brag, but it looks like someone thought me interesting enough to want to talk to. And to be quite honest, shes quite a looker! Can't say this website has been a total waste, now, can I?

Am currently struggling to deal with the loss of my 20 year old son in February and fully realizing how short life truly is !

I always pay for everything when I'm out on a date or even in a long-term relatiohsip. It's just something that's ingrained in me. But, deep down it doesn't seem fair.
Ladies: Do you offer to pay half and if the guy accepts, honestly, what goes through your mind.
Gents: Do you expect a woman to pay half. If she offers, do you accept?