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if i told you the truth, iwood have to keel you....at present i,m stuck here amongst .lesbians/lady boys/drunks and fat lazy cows.../hasbeens/never will be,s/..untill..captain kirk finds me........i must suffer.....do you live near portugal....???? sniff/sniff......i smell fish....good night earth man.....tru..aka.......bigust diccas............

make you think there's something to harmony and greatness in brentwood, Pete... You need to heal !! Port?


How is life treating you?::cheers:

s,t.f........

Three passions, simple but overwhelmingly strong, have governed my life: the longing for love, the search for knowledge, and unbearable pity for the suffering of mankind. These passions, like great winds, have blown me hither and thither, in a wayward course, over a great ocean of anguish, reaching to the very verge of despair.

I have sought love, first, because it brings ecstasy - ecstasy so great that I would often have sacrificed all the rest of life for a few hours of this joy.I have sought it, next, because it relieves loneliness--that terrible loneliness in which one shivering consciousness looks over the rim of the world into the cold unfathomable lifeless abyss. I have sought it finally, because in the union of love I have seen, in a mystic miniature, the prefiguring vision of the heaven that saints and poets have imagined. This is what I sought, and though it might seem too good for human life, this is what--at last--I have found.

With equal passion I have sought knowledge. I have wished to understand the hearts of men. I have wished to know why the stars shine. And I have tried to apprehend the Pythagorean power by which number holds sway above the flux. A little of this, but not much, I have achieved.

Love and knowledge, so far as they were possible, led upward toward the heavens. But always pity brought me back to earth. Echoes of cries of pain reverberate in my heart. Children in famine, victims tortured by oppressors, helpless old people a burden to their sons, and the whole world of loneliness, poverty, and pain make a mockery of what human life should be. I long to alleviate this evil, but I cannot, and I too suffer.

This has been my life. I have found it worth living, and would gladly live it again if the chance were offered me. Bertrand Russell



borrowing words

Some rambling thoughts.

Depression is hard to understand, even for us who have it. Everything in life can be good, goos life style, good job, good spouse, good home, but its an uncontrollable dark cloud that just ruins the day.

You can't just "be happy and turn it off". Its a chemical imbalance in the brain and its like telling a diabetic to not be diabetic. Its a real medical condition and a crippling one. Some days I come here and its all jokes and fun, those are my good days. Other days, its all doom and gloom, those are my bad days. I can't just turn it off, depression is like the weather, you can't control what you feel no more than you can control the sun and the rain. This is something I wish people would understand more.