To all my dearest friends at pc.

I want you all to know that I love you all very much. As I'm writing this, tears are clouding my eyes. And let me tell you, I don't cry easily. Strength has always been my strongest character. But the last 16 months of my life had made me shed tears enough to create my own ocean.

Most of you had shared if not all you somehow knew the extent of what I have been through. Please allow me to make a short revelation since I'm already deluged with questions but I will make it direct to the point. I survived two cancers. Last April of 2012, I was going to die after 3 months. Most of you prayed so hard for me specially Paloma, Lady B, Libby, Lady Morgana,Cameal, Addy, my friend of 35 years, Tess (thelmaTalla), who invited me to join here, and so many more of you that knew, but most of all the man I loved so much. You all know him. He held my hand and kept me strong. And, I will never be able to repay him nor can I thank him enough. He received all the info and no one else. Not even my lovely children knew anything about it but him.

Given the circumstances I was in, made me act so unnaturally me. But felt so much love from all of you here specially him that I loved.

Well I survived and I believe I'm too much of a bad seed and not quite punished enough. Lol. But my love didn't.

I would have chosen to completely disappear but this place is too addicting so its all your fault. In fact, more addicting than love itself, I think.

When I said goodbye one of you wrote and I quote." The good thing about leaving is that you get to come back". I didn't realize how amazingly true that is then until now.

Most of you made me feel this is my home. I live in each and everyone of you and your magnificent writings that I get to read for free. Thank you so much.

I can't be untrue to myself pretending I'm a new person when I'm not. It's still me your true and imperfect friend that love this place and all of you so much.

For those I've come short of your expectations please forgive me. I have written about three items a day but I'm not going to flood this place as respect to all of us is very important.

I love you all and thank you all so much for your contributions, comments, opinions on my writes. I read them all and try to respond as much as I can. It makes me learn so much and continue learning about life more than anywhere else. I am grateful to God and to all of you. My great appreciation to all of you now and for always.

Sincerely yours,

Phyllis