You've got more guts than any broad I know! And the booze was just a facilitator. He would've heard it eventually (I KNOW you!) and getting a little "inebriated" before hand only made it a little easier for you to deliver the news.
Don't beat yourself up too much, you're a classy gal and a great sister and I'm damned proud to call you FRIEND. (And future neighbor!)
It'll be easier tomorrow... NOW - Take 2 aspirin and a glass of orange juice and go to bed. Tomorrow's another day...
It can work both ways - I've met the one person I've looked for all my life right here on CS (she was the one who was looking for me) and we are planning a future together. (All that remains is getting the logistics out of the way.) I've also met others who will be dear friends forever, even though there was no romantic spark. And there have been others who will always occupy a (small) place in my heart, though we'll probably never see each other again. Simply put, I am richer for everyone I've met, whether through an online dating site or at a fuel counter in a truck stop or at a Mountain Man Rendezvous.
If driving a truck has made my world smaller, then the internet has made it even more "explorable."
To quote somebody far wiser than myself, "Perhaps God would want you to become acquainted with many different people in the course of your life, so that when you meet the right ones, you can appreciate and be grateful for them."
I have met several of "the right ones" and, (AT LAST!) the one who is most right and, indeed, even perfect for me. (I am truly happy for the first time in my life!) But we BOTH needed to experience others in order to become the people we need each other to be.
On line friendships can survive and flourish or fade and die, just as any other "relationship." The key is to understand that, sometimes we are disappointed, but that even the "disappointments" can make us richer.
Kansas Thunderstorm (seen from a Tennessee ridge) (by Jackson)
I perceive it before it can be seen, or felt. The hair on the back of my neck stands erect. It’s in a warm mid-West wind blowing soft and slow, Gathering together the forces it needs to wreak havoc here.
Taking strength from the elements-- the wind and the earth and the sun, and the waters (always the waters), it grows pensive and brooding and threatens to disrupt the peace that I’ve found.
Clouds form. Time stops. All is still, except for my racing heart, and I struggle to make sense of it all.
First, I must find shelter. But there is no peace in the familiar, only whispers from The Ancients: Watch! Listen! Live! Learn! Be in awe, and dance, by God, DANCE!
02/03/07
A Tennessee Ridge (As experienced by a Kansas Thunderstorm) (by The Kansan)
Countless hours of emptiness and air currents And moist air have gone into my makeup. I have gathered strength from nothingness And locomotion through positive uncertainty, Unsure of where to travel and wanting only to expend My energy in a manner befitting such a powerful force.
Many have gone to ground before my presence And survivors have celebrated my passing. A force of nature. Benevolent, yet sometimes harmful To the ‘me’ that others would protect. And still the inner churning continues Always moving and in search of a peace not revealed.
Ah, and then a ridge in East Tennessee And upon it a storm tamer, very fair. And as the churning mass of uncertainty That has become my very soul engulfs her, Threatening to upset her applecart And wipe out all traces of her heart, she whispers:
“I know you and you are welcome here. Are you after my heart?” And the storm that is me rages a little less. And then she smiles and says that she is scared. And the lightning and thunder which announced my arrival Give way to a peaceful, nurturing rain inspired by true love…
The ridge is still there, as is the storm tamer. And the Flowing Water of our love for each other Is crystal clear and pure and refreshing for heart and soul. And the Kansas Thunderstorm, has become a soft Tennessee rain And is no longer uncertain and now asks only one question: My love, Shall we dance?
These announcements actually appeared in a church bulletin or were announced verbally in a church service:
Miss Bertha Belch, a missionary from Africa will be speaking tonight at Calvary Memorial Church in Racine. Come tonight and hear Bertha Belch all the way from Africa.
Our youth basketball team is back in action Wednesday at 8PM in the recreation hall. Come out and watch us kill Christ the King.
Ladies, don't forget the rummage sale. It's a chance to get rid of those things not worth keeping around the house. Don't forget your husbands.
The peacemaking meeting scheduled for today has been canceled due to a conflict.
The sermon this morning: "Jesus Walks on the Water"; the sermon tonight: "Searching for Jesus."
Barbara remains in the hospital and needs blood donors for more transfusions. She is also having trouble sleeping and requests tapes of Pastor Jack's sermons.
Remember in prayer the many who are sick of our community.
Smile at someone who is hard to love. Say "hell" to someone who doesn't care much about you.
Don't let worry kill you off -- let the Church help.
A bean supper will be held on Tuesday evening in the church hall. Music will follow.
At the evening service tonight, the sermon topic will be "What is Hell?" Come early and listen to our choir practice.
The senior choir invites any member of the congregation who enjoys sinning to join the choir.
Scouts are saving aluminum cans, bottles and other item to be recycled. Proceeds will be used to cripple children.
For those of you who have children and don't know it, we have a nursery downstairs.
Potluck Supper Sunday at 5PM -- prayer and medication to follow.
The ladies of the Church have cast off clothing of every kind. They may be seen in the basement on Friday afternoon.
Ladies Bible Study will be held Thursday morning at 10. All ladies are invited to lunch in the Fellowship Hall after the B.S. is done.
Low Self Esteem Support Group will meet Thursday at 7PM. Please use the back door.
The eighth graders will be presenting Shakespeare's Hamlet in the Church basement Friday at 7PM. The Congregation is invited to attend this tragedy.
Weight Watchers will meet at 7PM at the First Presbyterian Church. Please use large double door at the side entrance.
The Associate Minister unveiled the church's new tithing campaign slogan last Sunday: "I Upped My Pledge -- Now Up Yours."
Our next song is "Angels We Have Heard Get High."
Announcement in the church bulletin for National Prayer and Fasting conference: "The cost for attending the Fasting and Prayer Conference includes meals."
One final 3 cent addition and then I'm bowing out for awhile:
Ego plays no role in my (our) current relationship because I do things for her (and she for me) simply because we care for each other and it gives us personal joy to perform unselfish acts for each other. There is no second guessing or subversiveness or reasons for these "favors" other than the fact that it gives us joy to see the look of delight on each other's faces...
It would seem to me that the line would be a self determining one at best, dependent upon and fluctuating with the personalities of both (I'm assuming there are only two people involved!) parties. Romance, indeed love, is a very complicated dance, one in which both partners must take turns leading. And too much ego on either side can lead to misunderstandings or, worse, lack of direction. Free will must of course play a part, but in a successful relationship, free will necessarily becomes dependent upon the other person. (Call it the good ol' give and take scenario.)
Interpretive? Yes! Firm line? You bet! Otherwise, the line becomes a noose. (God, but I love having my own personally involved editor on the phone! What I can't put into words, she can! )
It would seem to me that, in order for romance to have a chance of succeeding, ego must be "left at the door." At the same time, it's a fine line indeed. With self-confidence and ego being so closely related and intertwined and with the boost in self-confidence that a successful romance can give, a person really has to careful - Especially if that person is given at all to narcissism.
Having said all of that and given that I am currently talking with my very own special "editor in chief," I (we) believe that romance and ego are, by necessity, almost mutually exclusive.
Oddly enough Mitchell, that reminds me of something my dad used to tell me: "Kids in the back seat cause accidents - Accidents in the back seat cause kids!"
I just wanted to let you know that I have recently been diagnosed with AAADD - Age-Activated Attention Deficit Disorder.
This is how it goes...
I decide to do the laundry, start down the hall and notice the newspaper on the table. OK, I'm going to do the laundry...
BUT FIRST I'm going to read the newspaper. After that, I notice the mail on the table. OK, I'll just put the newspaper in the recycle stack....
BUT FIRST I'll look through the pile of mail and see if there are any bills to be paid. Yes. Now where is the checkbook?
Oops.. there's the empty glass from yesterday on the coffee table. I'm going to look for that checkbook...
BUT FIRST I need to put the glass in the sink.
I head for the kitchen, look out the window, notice my poor flowers need a drink of water, I put the glass in the sink and there's the remote for the TV on the kitchen counter. What's it doing here? I'll just put it away...
BUT FIRST I need to water those plants. I head for the door and...Aaaagh! stepped on the cat. Cat needs to be fed. Okay, I'll put the remote away and water the plants...
BUT FIRST I need to feed the cat.
END OF DAY: Laundry is not done, newspapers are still on the floor, glass is still in the sink, bills are not paid, checkbook is still lost, and the cat ate the remote control...And, when I try to figure out how come nothing got done today, I'm baffled because...I KNOW I WAS BUSY ALL DAY!
I realize this condition is serious...I'd get help... BUT FIRST...I think I'll check my e-mail.
Yes Hon, I know - But "synchronicity" would seem to have required a certain obligitary diligence... Just to maintain the "melliflous" flow of our lives!
Somehow I knew you'd be able to complete the train of thought that I started - And I'm sure it won't surprise you to know that I pulled this thread up to re-read it just about the same time you responded to it. And with us sitting nearly 1,000 away from each other... (UNCLE!)
Here's wishing you/me/us luck! (Even though I'm ALREADY the luckiest guy in the world!)
Just got this in from a reliable source. It seems there is a virus called the "Senile Virus" that even the most advanced programs of Norton and McAfee cannot take care of it ..... so be warned. The virus appears to affect those of us who were born before 1962!
Symptoms of the Senile Virus:
1. Causes you to send the same e-mail twice. 2. Causes you to send blank e-mail. 3. Causes you to send e-mail to the wrong person. 4. Causes you to send e-mail back to the person who sent it to you. 5. Causes you to forget to attach attachments. 6. Causes you to hit "SEND" before you've finished the e-mail.
Hon, not only have I found my match - I have met my match! She is gracious enough to compliment me and feisty enough to let me know when I've screwed up royally! My one hope and prayer is that we continue on the path we've started down... It's the best road I've ever been on in my life!
It seems to be a combination: There are sooooo many ways that my lady and I are so alike as to be identical; Likes, dislikes, life philosophies, etc... But there are other ways that we are almost complete opposites; I travel for a living - She doesn't care for traveling much at all. I love to camp and my idea of roughing it is going out with a blanket and a knife - Her idea of roughing it is staying in a Motel 6 instead of a 4 star hotel. I'm a cat person who loves dogs - She's a dog person who loves cats.
The thing is, our differences - opposite parts, if you will - Seem to compliment, rather than detract from each other. We know that I won't like every single thing she likes and vice versa, but our feelings for each other seem to grow and feed upon our commonalities and it is our different life experiences that have led us to be the people we are. And the individuals we have become is exactly the reason we seem to be falling so hard for each other. It's the polarization that keeps us revolving around each other. She is my sun in an otherwise dark and aimless journey through the galaxy of life. She completes me...
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Honored and humbled. (By friends like you and love like ours!)