lindsyjones Poetry (153)

at least
we have the full cycle complete
where weaving through
in between
defines all the struggles
that bounded our journey
the ups and downs
the sun's heat
and the mist's damps

we knew exactly where
it separated
when summer ended
and winter began
right here within our hearts
in our spirits and in our minds
we cuddled and shared our pains
our joys and sufferings

we both flipped
the same pages of our times
unwritten in the blank sheets
of our book aching to be filled
with all our hopes
desires and ambitions
but as you gazed at the window
I just knew, our fate was sealed
when the falling rain drowned
all my relenting angers
and I was silenced
not from the wind
but by your indifference

I tried to reach you
deep down
pulled you out many a times
but once buried, and sealed
can't be saved or redeemed-
you resigned, I just sensed
the end just began

tried to beat
the living hell
out of you
just to quell the evils
and the dark spells
but none I could do
to brake that hell
you are doomed
and wanted it so
because in this world
and this life you said:
wasn't meant for you
nor will it ever be....

I walked away
because I knew,
you were a living dead
and so was I.

your strength is my wing
I do want to ride in
please be gentle
as my weakness
is in the howling wind

I am who I am
you are who you are
but if we choose to be
kind and gentle
with love and respect
we can go very far.

even when I'd leave this world
and be gone
remember, I've never loved anyone
as I have loved you
and when you feel
the warmth in the wind
that'd be me, brushing
your lovely cheeks
and God like sculptured body

your deep blue eyes
gazing up above
I'll form my silhouette
among the clouds
and you'd feel all of me
inside and out
as we have done a million times

yes my love, I'll always be
where you wanted me
inside your mind
in every pulse of your breath
in every beatings of your heart
mapping your every flesh
as I always had at night
before we'd made love
smelling your lovely scent
that satiates all my desires
over and over

my soul and my spirit
it all belonged to you
even before you knew
I exist
and so
I will always love you
as I've never ever loved
anyone, in anyways
only you and I have done

please remember that
because, I will always love you.

standing still
solid and strong
unencumbered
nor attached in the
wild encounters of the past
for they are untraceable
they wilted in the passing
of your youth and ambitions
it was you, the misunderstood
and the misguided

now a new you, built
just as you wanted
embracing the promises
of tomorrow
albeit a new design
of unchartered waters
and untested roads
but with your strength
and your indomitable hope
you will not give up
you wont back out

you will stand tall
facing this new beginning
with force of a bull
making it, even as you
will pawn your future
with me beside you
we wont fail
for at least 30 years
or more?

welcome to the new us..
we wont give up
no matter the challenge
we will advance
because that is who we are
one in love..

I have consulted all the angels
to show me the way
lost I have been for a long while
and still to my deep sorrow
there seems to be no sunny day
eloquence of words I plead
to have my fate
with love and trust be sealed
yet only and endlessly..
tears of strength
falling o'er my face
bleeding in hopelessness
feeling beaten and condemned
my mind confused and worn
the only thing I know
I can't bleed no more
Oh death of which I crave
lay me down to rest
and take my weary soul.

many faces of goodbye
I have endured in my past
a vicious cycle of love
for what?
so we know that yes
we are stupid and insane?
a character we knew
since we allowed us to be played?
by our dark and sinister emotions?
now I sound contemptible
as though I didn't partake in the game
but you and I and the whole world knew
there is so much to be ventured
just to prove it is all the same
this falling in and out of love
just different time and place
but the rules never change
you leave, I stay
I run, you play
oh the skeptics in us
always lurking in our minds
to doubt, to always question
because the truth is
your hurt is never gone
the pain you felt in her cheating
never left you behind
and I suck all your lies
so I can live in limbo
for your retribution of those
that have hurt you

but I am awakened
I am now new again
to love and bleed no more
because I have found me
love within myself and no other
just me and my fervor
to share the world and scatter
this seed I planted in the world
because that is me, a lover
of those that are unloved

shattered and abandoned.

next?

on account of my own
I will never stop loving you
tossed and folded might be the memories
yet it will forever lives
deep within the realms of my being
my soul and my mind
it will not stop
until the last beating
of my one and only heart

my body will decay
back into the mold of dust
my mind will cease to
conceive more new ideas
my spirit might sway in the wind
but my passion and my heart
will be forever entwined
in the deepest core of my love
for you..
and that will always be so..
I will never stop loving you.

you're just as coward
hiding behind that
indestructible mask
a tribute to a world
shaped with callousness
cruelty and disgust
you lured me in
by your remarkable
and unmistakable charms
I settled and rested
my confused and disenfranchised mind
you made me believe
it was you I seeked to find
you captured my weakened heart
and captivated my soul
only to toss it back
in the burning shadows
oh yes look at me
feast on this frayed body
for today is your last chance
to see me shattered and wasted
lies and betrayal I now release
back to your world of deceit
and yes it is not me
but you that was the culprit
and across the new horizon
colored life blooms in the open
my world, my refuge
and yes, I am not looking back
I will with my new me
move forward.

should one's time is marked
and he chooses to leave us
our heart will melt in sorrow
heavy loads of lacerating hurt
but yet, we stand upon the threshold
where our flags are lowered
a token of respect and farewell
to a dearly loved fellow poet of ours
I will not cry now will I sigh
and in my face a glow of smile
but deep inside my heart
a treasure that was held dear will depart
along with the love and deep trust
you have shared and given us

so dear Mick our brother in our writes
you've definitely touched all of us
and while we know only you can tell
to go and capture your next chapter
we are here lined up with tears in our eyes
but we also hope you will come back
for nothing is fixed nor permanent
that which can't be undone
and when the time comes and
you will miss and think of us
(I know you will)
we'll be here waiting for your presence
because Mick, there is only one like you
and we do love you, that is so true.

Goodbye our dearly love poet.

Please take care, always.

must be the recycled season
of spring, summer and fall
and I have evolved
I have embraced, faced
the possibility that love indeed
is not scraped off from my being
it is not dead, nor has ever stopped
beating within my heart
I have it all intact
and strong, even as you
made me struggled and hurt

one day, looking at the window
a butterfly just humped on the bloom
giving birth once again for the season
to repeat life on its own terms
no past, no future, no beginning
just now...

I figured, why not,
I can do better than that...
and I stepped one more time
into the world of where I belong
in the realms of love-ing
of caring, of being a part
of this cycle of love
as if the whole humanity
depended on me..

and by God..I am alive,.
I am feeling the nourishment of life
here in my soul, in my being
inside the depth of my heart
and like the butterfly, I am
hopeful and confident
someone is out there for me,
someone yearning like I am
to be held and to be cared
love at its best
I am ready...

are you?

flowing energy entwined
in my heart and soul
searching in the deep end
in every chasm of
the unknown
in spirit you're found
you and I in a love
unbound
you played in my mind
consented for you to own
my thoughts
even those that have yet to come
unhatched, still dancing
freely among the stars
and the moon
Yes, my soul, my spirit
upon madness of passion
in you
I thought I found
my shelter and my home

but maybe not
because, I am still here
feeling so alone
abandoned...
orphaned and disowned..

reflection of my spirit
splashed on the withered rose
the scent lingers
into my memory
that flew
among clusters of dust
remember me,
I know you will
when the wind
will sing my melody
I will be there
to wipe your tears
as your heart
beats inside of me
your words
will bring me back
if only to feel you
one last time
So my love,
when tomorrow comes
celebrate with the breaking
of the dawn
in the depth of silence
because
when the sun rises,
I will be there
besides you, always.