lindsyjones Poetry (153)

It's half past midnight
and I'm all alone
in this unlit
and dreary room

cold and unforgiving
are memories of
shattered emotions

beyond forgetting,
always hovering
the past that wilted in the wind

haunting the hell out of me
endlessly
as I feel all alone
broken
lifeless
in this dreary
cold, sad
and unlit room.

Your wit and brilliance
Your sense of humor unhinged
You made us all laughed, cried
And even dance

Now you're gone
This place mourning in your absence
Could it be that there's a chance
You'll be back
Even just for a glance?

I know you knew we loved you
Adored and even venerated you
As a friend, brother, and perhaps
Even as a lover

Please remember you'll always be
In our hearts
You're not far away
Your writes, your lines
Will forever grace this place

We will always be near you.

We love you Cafe.

May you forever rest in peace.

Don't you dare fall in love with me
Because of my looks and beauty
Don't even think I'm unique and bubbly
Nor consider me strong and pretty.

Don't dare know where I come from
Nor where I've been or where I'm heading
It's enough to learn that I'm here
Breathing, alive and real.

For so many a lives, I've lived
Numerous mountains I've climbed
Stranded in many galaxies
And now here wrapped in your arms.

So ask me not how our love will last
I can only tell you I'm for real my love.

possessed of evil and terror
my world is rocked
running away from it all
will it ever stop?
will I find a road
decked with kindness
will it be paved out of love
and out of happiness?
or will hatred prevail
will it divide the world?
and worse, will you stand still
blind and unperturbed?
wake up, be vigilant, they say:
the end is coming
open your eyes and be prepared

if anything, believe:
there is nothing to lose
but everything to gain

after all heaven or hell
is not an illusion

A most mystified moment
is when the leaves turn yellow
an indication of the arrival of autumn
a moist in the wind soften your pale skin
I wish I could reach to touch once more
if only to remember the glow

and yes in that afternoon, it rained
if only to make your hair silken
as it danced in the motion of the gentle wind
I felt pang of ache within me, yet
enchantingly and gloriously wishing
I am in your mind unforgotten
holding a lovely thought of
remembering

Once you confessed:
would it be that when I think of you
you think of me, and when you think
of me, I do? How funny because
it does happen, but even if today
we can't confess anymore,
I do feel just the same. .

that question is as constant
as life itself...goes around
like autumn, it will come again
and again.. without end...

because when I think of you
you think of me, its just the way it is,
was and will always be.

PALOMA'S CHALLENGE

can I claim to live
in the landscape of my dreams
where your presence is caped
in Gossamer of my longings

only then
can the heralded Nacreous beauty
with Ataraxia I am most compelled
to get a hold of me
to lay down,
my broken heart
and
my weary mind

and as I am lured
into the Cosmogyral flow
with my soul dancing
in an Aeolian echo
nourishing my memory
to keep thinking of you
for
how can I be detached
from the Reminiscence
of our past
when all the heart beats I have
twirl and dance
in the Psyturism of
the golden wind

I kneel in Reverence
as I pay tribute to our love
I will forever treasure in my heart

because I have always loved you.

yes time has come
packing my sorrows
are but needed to move on
and I am,
it is not like
it wont be here to stay
but that life has changed
in many ways
and lies and betrayal
are not buried away
but I have become keen
and strong, and
no longer blind
like I have become
because I knew
right from the start
you needed to pull me in
as I needed you out
and so we both did
shared the homily of love
albeit the good became bad
and I am now, facing
my golden moments
of simply moving on.

and so I am
and I don't even need
your permission

reflections on the mirror
elusive and splintered
a soul I once possessed
buried there in the prism
of brokenness
once in a while it appears
like shadows illumined
only in the dark
but it knows I am waiting
I just can't capture it
in the light
love they say is abound
and yet I haven't found one
or if it finds me, am I ready to be found?
perhaps
I really am just a figment of imaginings
maybe...

would my voice reach you
even as the nights are windless?
would you feel my touch
even as the skies are dark?
would my thoughts burrow
upon the temple of your mind
once in a while when you are not
holding her hands?

Would the roar of the ocean
the flutter of the leaves
the murmur of the brooks
and the stars in the night
remind you once in a while
that I once was in your heart?

each moment in passing
I do want to wish you love
happiness and joys
for always

I simply adore you my first true love.

You built the foundation of love and fear within me.

Before you were born I was fearless and strong about anything

Then you came, I became vulnerable, weak to the notion that if something happened to you

My world would simply crash. .vanish and I would simply crumble. ..

Yes, you taught me the true meaning of love. ..my world changed
For the better because of you

Believe it or not, but that was my truth then

And still remains the same.

You might not hear from me everyday, but know that I always think of you.

I love you. .

doesn't it seem plentiful
finding reasons
of being thankful
and all the trials
chaos and pain
are but my tools
to make me strong
resilient and able

so you left earlier
than I would have thought
but that is alright
I figured,
it was destined and meant
that I'd be in better hands
as, you would, too
if we parted sooner
than you and I anticipated

for somewhere, someone
out there
was achingly waiting
longing, for the both of us
to be apart and that....
is the reality of life

I just want you to know
I'm grateful and thankful for
the opportunity of knowing you
and partook in your love

and that love will live forever in my heart
whether you're with me physically or not
because
I will always love you.

as I've always had
when I said
the first time I let you
in my life, almost three years ago.

my heart, body and soul
will always belong to you
they never left you.

I would like to believe
that: I am free
I have a soul
yet my spirit is bound
trapped in the moments
of yesterday
swimming in the pains
of my loss
when I let go of my hopes
my dreams and my aspirations
yet as time goes by
I am still here
ensnared in the memories
of where we were,
what we did...
why can't I find my way
back to where I was
before you captured my heart
and yes, the sun may go dark
the stars may stop flickering
the moon might lose its luster
and I...
will still be alone...
hoping
waiting
till my breath accounts
for the last time.