Change what we can
It is not snowing here.In fact it promises to be a day filled with endless blue skies and a sun like a highly polished brass bowl spilling light down on the vivid purples and pinks of bougainvillia, the yellows and earth tones of crotons and the amazing array of greens from dark to almost non existent.
It is going to be hot. Very hot. And I shall not complain, I shall sweat. Probably change my tank top once or twice. Some people will head for the beach but I will not. I have some editing to do and will head in to the station once I am done.
I have never had a problem with the weather. I used to thoroughly enjoy walking in a blizzard when you could lean forward into the wind and push with all your strength and get nowhere while ice spicules whipped cheeks so much, the cold was lost in the rush of blood to the surface of the skin.
I love to walk through the rain. Once, at a garden party, the skies opened and by the time I had sauntered back to the house my skirt was four inches shorter, a scandal at the time - my goodness I have lived so long in some ways, just moments in others- because knee length was the accepted norm, and for once 'dry clean only' meant do not get wet!
Days tossed with wind exhilarate me and I long to run along the beach on the East coast, sand coarse and squeaking underneath my feet, the tidal pools filled with secrets, spitting foam around my ankles, leaving salt like diamonds on my skin.
It has taken all my years up till now to learn I am much happier when I do not rail against those things I cannot change. Instead, I have learned to test the boundaries of everything to find where there is slack, room to maneuver, and then to change the things I can have an effect upon.
My fingers are still numb and my left hand is so beyond my control at the moment, it might as well be attached to someone else's wrist but I have cut the typos in half by using just two fingers rather than all four. I am changing what I can.
This does not mean I sit with a sappy grin going OM MANI PADME HUM, everything is as it should be and right in my world.
That would be such a whopper! What it does mean is that I will do all in my power to rectify and adjust the situation and once there is no more for me to do, I shall work on being 'okay' with the way things are and get on with my life.
There is absolutely nothing I can ever do to change the weather. So I never even try.