When Is It Time To Go?
I had a bit of road rage today. Didn't do anything stupid, of course, just dropped the F bomb a lot which my daughter noticed. Apparently, I'm the only one on the road who knows how to freaking drive! My aggression meter is maxed out. I've been losing my temper a lot lately.Apparently, not dealing with PTSD has some serious repercussions, mentally and physically, of which I'm dealing with right now. I'm still operating in survival mode as if I was still living in the toxic, abusive environment with my ex. I had therapy for PTSD for my first marriage, I've just never dealt with it from this past marriage.
Once I deal with it, my body will stop operating in survival mode, waiting for the next bomb to drop. Then things can play out naturally and return to normal. I'm looking forward to my appointment with my psychiatrist this afternoon.
I am thinking of leaving CS. I have begun looking for another site, but I don't think I want to do this online thing anymore. Maybe it's just time to call it quits. I'm not getting as much enjoyment out of the forums and I'm hesitant to post to my blog now because of some nasty comments I get.
Except for that, I've enjoyed my time here.
Willow
Comments (22)
There are no better sites than this one, dont worry about what others say, do your own thing and all will be cool.
Take a break if you like, breath the air, relax then come back and tell us how you feel.
If you do decide to leave... it was nice knowing you.... Luck!
When I see your name on a blog I do take the time to read it, because I know I ll more than likely enjoy it, and hear someones opinion, (of which I enjoy) There are a few bloggers who do nothing but complain and get down on life, those are the ones I couldn t be bothered with, And you Don t Fall into that category,
Me with ms, I ve learnt everyone has good days, bad days, please don t make any harsh decisions on one of those bad days.
You have a good one,
Thank you. I will be finding out about PTSD treatment today. I don’t remember what it was like from before since it was over 20 years ago.
Sola,
Thank you. I might take a break.
John,
Thank you.
1to1,
Thank you, I appreciate that.
Hey, don't let a bad day or two get you down!
You have probably have more friends on here than you realize!
Besides, you won't get to read my jokes!
Comment only on blogs when you feel like commenting?
Solve a CS face-puzzle or two to help you to relax
Bottom line is, just enjoy yourself here, Willow
but if I saw him broken down (car) i'd give him a tow home (for a discount price
Lifes important, we need to agree-to-disagree in fact, besides I still laugh at most of Jims jokes :)
take care get on Top girl and I promise you wont look back after a while
too bad if things doesn`t work out. Best wishes!
It's part of blogging...stay and don't let it get to you
I do love your blogs, they make this blogland more creative and colorful...makes so many readers smile so keep blogging
don't be where you feel you ought not be
and don't be ran from where you want to be..
Not going to give you any advice cause I obviously don't know you.
All I will say is that my son after serving in the military he too has PTSD and is on meds.
But I will just say last but not least that if you do decide to leave CS that I wish you Good Luck at whatever you decide and what you do.
Anyway, thank you all for the concern and kind words. I have decided to stay, but scale back on my participation at CS. I have quite a bit of "work" to attend to offline. I shall also try to develop a thicker skin.
Taking a break is good sometimes...did that myself...glad your staying on...all the best to you!!
I've not driven a car since summer '13 because my Indonesian drivers license isn't valid in Europe. I feel strongly this is related to the fact that I've not thrown rage tantrums ever since.
Trust you'll be interested to watch this movie soon coming out:
OutsideofBali,
Thank you for suggesting this movie, I have posted the video below. Yes, I agree that traumas from our past that are not dealt with, lead to dysfunction in our lives.