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I`m fun, funny, honest, caring, and faithful. Treat others how i expect them to treat me.. Been single for too long now and all i want is to be happy.. so if any of you single ladies out there like what you see then i`d luv to hear from you.

I`m fun, funny, honest, caring, and faithful. Treat others how i expect them to treat me.. Been single for too long now and all i want is to be happy.. so if any of you single ladies out there like what you see then i`d luv to hear from you.

I`m fun, funny, honest, caring, and faithful. Treat others how i expect them to treat me.. Been single for too long now and all i want is to be happy.. so if any of you single ladies out there like what you see then i`d luv to hear from you.

life is like music my life music is tears in heaven by eric clapton what is your life music thinkyou justmejohn

It is a murky evening;gloomy and dark;the sky is scattered-broken like a mirror.
Dear,please don't go out.Outside wanderer the demons,their eyes are glowing and flaring.A storm is rising up in the river,you see dear.
You see dear that I love you and I don't want to let you go
Outside amongst the evil-signs.You don't know dear,it's abstruse-the dusk is profound.
Look look dear somebody is knocking at the door-it must be some evil
Hush!please don't utter;keep your head on my chest.
Lye here.
Monsters are crawling up.The crazy-wind is knocking.
Adamant is it to realize
Please dear,don't go.Lye here.I am with you.
Dear they want to snap you up with their axe-like-teeth
you are so acute I know you understand
Don't be flattered by them.
Outside in the zephyr an evil is growing up
Dear,please,don't go out

I'm generally asking. isn't the best part of a love affair when you began? it's at this time that niether party has found fault with the other and the hope is 100%. when you get all them flushes and goospimles at the ring of the phone, when you can run out of what to say on the phone but still refuse to hang up but just hold it there at your ear and sigh. it's the time when you wonder what's wrong with your belly and someone ask have you eaten since morning and you gasp "oh my God, that's it". does love really grow? after years of mounting stress year after year finding out the little lies that adds up and the bad habits that won't go away? and if the love does grom what is it rooted on? what waters it? how is it discibed was it because or inspite of.

IN THE MOMENTS OF MY DEPAIR
I REACH OUT FOR YOU AND YOU ARE NOT THERE
COME HOLD ME TIGHT MY LOVE
FOR NOW I MUST BREATH YOUR AIR
COME DANCE THIS DANCE OF LOVE. ...
THE DARKNESS IS HERE WITHOUT YOU
. THERE ARE STARS IN THE SKY
AND ONE IS NAMED AFTER YOU AND I
SOON THE SUN WILL RISE

WHEN I WAKE, TOMORROW WILL BE TODAY
TO LIVE IN THIS WORLD WITHOUT YOU
I SEE NOT THIS WORLD BUT I LIVE IN BLINDNESS
THE SUN HAS RISEN AND I IN MY PRISON
MY MIND IS NOW ASTRAY UNTIL YOUR RETURN ONE DAY
MY HEART NEEDS YOUR LOVE AND KINDNESS
TO WALK THIS PATH OF LOVE ALONE
THE STRENGTH, I HAVE NOT
LET ME TOUCH YOUR HEART AGAIN
WALK THE PATH OF LOVE WITH ME
I NOW MUST BREATH YOUR AIR AND RID MYSELF OF MY DESPAIR WRITTEN BY LUIS ANGEL

Imagine you meet someone who has a different belief from your own. In fact, you are spiritual, but not religious, you somehow have found your spiritual path, but now the person whom you regard as a potential future partner definitely wants you to convert to his/her religion. He/She can trade anything, is flexible about anything, except religion. You start studying that religion, you feel there is something deep about it, but you don’t know if you can really follow it, completely commit yourself to that path. And you know that if you just adopt that religion to marry him/her and finally you are not able to practise it well, he/she will be disappointed. Would you take the risk and still convert?

The police just took my ex-husband to his fathers house.
I have a cut on my hand, and a big bruise on my butt…but I still have my sanity!

For the last month, since I discovered David’s 5th affair during our marriage, he has been living on the property…firstly in the granny flat, and for this last week, in the spare bedroom. We have been separated under the one roof, but still on a couples rate Centrelink payment and still keeping the joint accounts.

Although, I do have one just in my name…I’m not that naive! Considering that he went immediately to the bank and cleared out the joint account, seems I was prudent in assuming the worst!
He has been telling me that he wanted to sort things out and hoped that soon we would be moving towards being husband and wife again. I was unsure that I even WANTED him back and was giving him some time to get his head together before I laid down the ultimatums, and hear answers to the questions that would finally answer that big question to me….did I want him back at all.
He’s been affectionate and giving plenty of hugs and kisses…even this afternoon, we snuggled together in bed for several hours.

Tonight, I found out that he has been continuing the affair with the internet woman since he came back. Despite telling me that he wanted to rekindle our relationship, and that he had made the decision to not have the internet again, until after he had had counselling about his ‘problem’. He has had a modem the whole time and he has been chatting with her...and web-camming since before he moved back to the house. He had actually been keeping the modem in his underpants while he was sleeping!

What brought on this shitstorm tonight?
This evening, after HE went to bed, I came back online on my computer and went bout my usual stuff.
I went back to the BBWChatCity site that I joined 3 days ago…after all, I am a BBW, I was separated and I was….well bored and wanting some gratifying worship from BBW crazy fans! So, sue me!!
I had a private chat request from a woman, who just happened to be the woman he had been having his most recent fling with! (See previous blogs for gory details!)
Some eye opening discoveries!
David has in fact he had been chatting online with her since January...and so in fact he was also cheating on her with the other woman who he’d had a fling with earlier in the year! Bastard!
I had a nice long talk with her...a truly lovely woman whom he had lied to and omitted to tell her was married. And boy, was she was mad about being made an instrument in his adultery, because she was married for 20 years to a guy who cheated on her also. Don’t mess with a woman who has felt it before!!
To make matters worse, not only had he been chatting with her, but been chatting with her AND her two children
When the shit hit the fan earlier in the month, he tried to spin it to her, and make out that we were already separated and that I was crazy stalker ex or something, who was just out to make his life a misery! Try spinning that when you just happened to omit the past 10 years of your life, and that you were married then at all! Well, I spose the part about poisoning his playground worked coz she told me to tell him she wants nothing to do with him and he'd better not come back to the BBWChat site coz they would tear him a new one if he did.
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Fear is generally about being scared.

In whatever sport I do, I'm scared too...
The only difference between you and me, that is I don't allow this fear to prevent me for living my dreams and doing the things that I love...
I feel fear just like you feel it...
It excist for me, just as it excist for you.

The only difference is, I don't let it control me...
You can choose to control fear, or let fear control you...

Same thing about "courage"... Courage is not about having no fear.
Courage is about acting inspite of fear.

If you don't have fear, you're just a crazy person. And crazy people die. Period.
Fear is what keeps you alert and safe.

Just know that nothing is impossible. You can do anything in life if you are willing to put forward the effort and if you have the desire.

You can make anything happen.
That's how winning is done. That's how you win. That's how you succeed. You don't give up.
The people who fail, are the people who give up. That's how you fail.

For me.....;
Well, I'll probably retire doing what I like shortly after I die. (if you get my point here)