pat8lanips: I always swore my happiness would never again be reliant on somebody else liking me, but its like a junky saying just one fix...
Hi again, Pat
I'm sorta glad you said that, Pat. Why? Because I've NEVER been reliant on someone else, for my happiness! Sure, I was reliant on my parents for my basic "necessities" of life, food/clothing/shelter, as a kid, growing up. And I suppose that, had I NOT had those things, I PROBABLY wouldn't have been "happy". So maybe I SHOULDN'T say that I've never derived my "happiness" on/from some OUTSIDE source. But I'm the happiest person I know! With less OUTWARD reason to be, than most. And "I" should know, having been (as you say) a "junky" chasing my next fix (literally) for over 40 years! And I'm trying to live in one of America's most expensive areas, on only my Social Security income ($1.352/mt, and whatever I can hustle up, with/by my wits), at present. But I've been MORE places (on ALL continents, EXCEPT Africa [only Morroco] and South America [I've been to ALL the Central American countries, and am HOPING to go to Chile and Uruguay within the next year]), seen/done MORE"things" (I've worked/been paid for underground mining, farming, electro-mechanical computer installation/repair, jewelry manufacture/buying/selling, postman, salesman [of an INFINITE variety of things], drug dealer/smuggler, soldier [who has BEEN shot at by, and shot at, not only "the enemy", but by my superior officers, as well], a "cat" burglar, an artist, a writer, a hobo, a member of a bands, a driver, a fund raiser, etc., etc., etc.[I might mention that I've flown an airplane, but THAT wasn't for a paycheck.] But the thing of which I am MOST "proud", was to be OFFICIALLY named a provocateur/instigator, by my government!), than anybody "I" KNOW, personally. I've had more money than I could "legally" spend, and I've been a poor as a church mouse, sleeping on the streets. I DON'T have any of those little pieces of paper (diplomas), but I have at least a BASIC education in more areas/fields than anybody I know, personally.I'll admit that"I" DON'T "give" as freely, as quickly, or as democratically, as I once did. But I'm STILL not "stingy". Money/possessions have NEVER been my "motivating" factor. And I'll stand beside a "friend/brother", against the world, OPENLY! But I'll fight HIM just as hard, behind the scenes, if I think he's wrong!
I've told you all, that, to explain how it is, that I'm a "happy" person. I'm "happy" because "I" find the world an INFINITELY "interesting" place. At times amusing, and at others, sad. But I'm NEVER bored! I'm "happy" because "I" LIKE me! I'm true to MY thoughts/beliefs/credo/ethics, regardless of the outcome/consequences. So, when I lay my head on my pillow/rock/backpack/etc., I have no trouble going to sleep! I'm at peace with myself. And, even though I may accept/agree that I've made a mistake(s)(and I've made many), I have NO REGRETS for/about any of my actions. I DON'T spend ANY time worrying about ANYTHING! I deal with whatever rings my doorbell, as best I can, WHEN it rings my doorbell! NOT beforehand! Worrying about things that may NEVER happen, seems to be the epitome of "foolishness", a well as the WORST "waste of time", to ME. And I realize that EVERY man's birthright is death! We're ALL going to die, sooner, or later. I'm NOT saying that you SHOULDN'T FIGHT against your death! I think that THAT is ONE of our duties! But I also think that, since I AM going to die (REGARDLESS of my best attempts), if I can't escape it, I shouldn't FEAR it! Death is a part and parcel of life! (Probably my favorite, most inspiring quotes, comes from Lord MacCauley's "The Lays of Ancient Rome". I'll paraphrase it. ". . . For how can men die better, Than when facing fearful odds, For the ashes of their fathers, And the temples of their gods . .". How can a "Man" be BETTER defined, than THAT?
I also empathize with the native American saying - "TODAY is a GOOD day, to die!" And I'll be "happy" to go on and see what's next, WHEN "I" die! Because, from my own personal experience (although I CAN'T "prove" it, to you), that the cessation of my body is NOT the cessation of ME! I FIRMLY believe that "I" (you, me, EVERYBODY, "lives" forever! Not ALL those "lives" will be in the same form! But the living goes on, in SOME/WHATEVER form.) And the thought that I'm going to keep on having these various "experiences", forever, makes/keeps me "happy". I'm "happy" because I've received such a wonderful "gift"!
And THAT is what life is! A gift! A gift that I get to experience receiving, over and over, again! Each time I wake up. Each time I open my eyes. So how can I NOT be "happy"? How can I NOT be "satisfied" with my lot, in life? I MAY NOT have all that I'd like to have. I MAY NOT be completely satisfied with all the things I have. But THAT is alright! I HOPE that I'm NEVER "satisfied"! Because, IF "I" ever become completely "satisfied", what is my reason for living? What will I have, yet, to do, THEN? If I have nothing to strive for? With no purpose, what meaning has life? What WORTH has life? So, no matter my situation or station, in life, I'm happy! Because I have the ONLY THING that TRULY has "worth, in life! And THAT is life, itself! If I let myself get caught in all the "details" of life, then I'm MISSING the most IMPORTANT part! And THAT's the life, itself. And I'll NEVER (or only seldom/occasionally) be happy.
And, to return to the topic at hand, I'm happy because, for ALL these reasons, that my life is one of "love"! I'm able to love EVERYTHING! The good. The bad. The trees. The birds. The tigers. The ants. The people. EVEN YOU! So, I'm ETERNALLY "IN LOVE"! And, as so aptly stated, previously, "I love being in love!" Being "in love" makes ME "Happy"!
So, no! My "happiness" DOESN'T derive from something OUTSIDE of my "self"! It derives from the "love" that resides IN me!
And that's what started this whole thing! I'm trying to BETTER "understand" what that "love" is.
Let_Us: I write, but am I a writer? I'll let YOU be the judge of THAT, for yourself. J
I seem to recall That someone once said That when I was born I was dropped on my head I guess that they thought That that might explain Why I was so hyper And seemed so insane
But I have to say That the world that I see Though it doesn't make sense It's alright with me I know that to others It seems to need change But the world that I see It's really not strange But I tend to laugh At so much that I see And the people in charge They seem funny to me
They think they're in charge And can order our lives But me I don't think they can order their wives And the things that they do They think that they ought But to me It appears They weren't given much thought And my act So they say Ought to be modified And you wouldn't believe All the ways that they've tried
But now When they see me I think they feel sad Because I keep on laughing And it's driving them mad I see odd little smiles That don't seem quite right And sometimes they giggle When I'm out of sight
I'm feeling quite lost And don't know what to do So I ask you My friend Please answer me true Should I still pretend That I don't understand When they walk up to me And give a command Or should I just laugh At the things that they do Please answer these questions That I'm asking you
Or should I take pity And lend them a hand And teach them the things That they don't understand That though life is hard If you look at it right Each hour we live Brings the chance that we might Encounter a friend On the roads that we walk Who'll give us a hug When we stop for a talk Or the love of our life Might come strolling along And join up with us As we travel on
But me I have learned That what I give away Will come back to meet me On some future day So I try to share All my laughter and joy And give a big smile To each girl and boy It won't lighten their load As they trudge up life's hills And it certainly WON’T Cure all of their ills But maybe Just maybe It will brighten their day So that then they won't mind The price that they pay Or the things that they do That earns them their bread And keeps the wheels spinning Inside of their head
Then maybe Someday When my life seems grim I'll see someone smile When I smile at them Who'll lend me a hand With the trials that I face And so Help me to live Through that time And that place And together we'll share A moment of grace Where souls come together In time and in space Where two can be one If just for a while And, my friend That all starts with ONE LITTLE SMILE!
“Sharing A Smile” is one of my ”whim”sical poems. It’s the result of ME entertaining MYSELF. It was written on a “whim”, solely as a means of relaxation and fun, for ME. It certainly expresses a philosophy. Which was/is intentional. But it’s also ME, talking about/describing ME. And it’s also me “playing” with words. But it’s also an example of me AVOIDING “LIFE” for a little while. I take these “Time Outs” occasionally. Just for my mental health! Not that I think the world is going to change me in any appreciable way, at this late date. But “LIFE” CAN GET pretty aggravating, at times. And poetry is my “Prozac”. But “Sharing A Smile” is a good example of me, at “Play”. This poem was not planned out, in any way. I just sat down and wrote it, pretty much the way you read it. I probably didn’t take more than two hours to write this poem, even including the little “polishing” that I did. That’s because I was just entertaining MYSELF! And this poem was never meant to be seen by anyone, OTHER THAN myself. (Of course, MOST of my poems aren’t meant to be seen by anyone. By far, probably 90/95% are written solely for my own benefit.) But I thought some of you might get “A SMILE” out of seeing how I “entertain” myself. :-) (-: J
There is no love. Love is an illusion in our eyes and mind. Once that illusion is out of us , things change!. We all fall in the trap of LOVE, some of us get lucky and continue with the river, and some of us get lost completely and seek the help of a psychologist or a psychiatrist depending on the severity of the case. But if you're the strong kind, eventhough you lose the game , called LOVE, or better yet they force you to lose it, then that is when you really open your eyes and see the sad reality all around you. LOVE is just a portrait that humans created it and we have no choice but face it whether we like it or not. Only clever ones avoid the trap, and the rest follows like a sheep. That is the definition of LOVE.
Let_Us: Since THIS is a "dating" site, I'm ASSUMING that we ALL have SOME "interest" in "Love". And, as I'm writing something in which I wish to include a chapter concerning "Love", I thought you all might be willing/able to give me a little feedback/critique on what I've written, so far. And, as THIS is the area dealing with books, I'm assuming that you're literate and willing/able to read MORE than 1 short page. And, since what I've written (to date) won't fit within the confines of their 4,000 character limitation, I'm going to have to insert it on MORE than 1 "thread". So, if you're willing and able, please read through the whole thing (I'll tell you when you've finished what I've written), and tell me what you think. What I say well. Where I fumble the idea. How I might improve and/or say it better. And anything you think I've missed. Happy reading!
LOVE
Alright. Before we go any farther, let’s work on defining just what we’re talking about. Until we SHARE some idea of what we’re talking about, we’re just blind men lost in the darkness.
THAT is the problem we have, when attempting to talk about “LOVE”. (See “Me, and Language” in the “Wit & Wisdom” section.) Even when we THINK about love. None of us has a viable notion of just what “LOVE” is. And what notions we do have are NOT consistent from person to person. Some cultures (such as Japan) don’t even have a word in their language for the CONCEPT of “Love”! So, if you are expecting to find some MYSTICAL DEFINITION of “Love”, here, let me disabuse you of that notion, right now. It just ISN’T gonna happen!
What you WILL get, is some exposure to “MY” CONCEPT of ”Love”! And my reasoning BEHIND that “concept”.
So I’m going to start this out with a few of the definitions of “Love” that I’ve encountered, in my wanderings about the world.
#1. When you say “I”, and mean “We”, then you’re in love.
#2. “Love” is an obsession.
#3. Love ISN’T what makes everything alright, because everything isn’t, and never will be, alright. Love is what makes you happy to be alive, even when everything ISN’T alright! (This one is an old one of mine.)
#4. When YOU are no longer YOUR PRINARY concern, then YOU are in “LOVE”! (This happens to be my latest attempt to define “Love”.)
But let’s face it. If I tried to list ALL the “definitions” of love, we’d never get to talk about what love is, and, maybe more importantly, what love ISN’T!
So I’m only going to add two more “definitions”. The first is one of MY favorites, and was written by the apostle Paul. (I’m NOT saying that I’m a Christian! But I’m NOT saying I’m NOT a Christian, either. And I’m NOT trying to promote the Christian faith, to you, either. I just think this is one of the best definitions of what “I” mean, when I think or say “Love”, that I’ve ever encountered. If you’re interested, you can find this definition of love in 1st Corinthians, Chapter 13 [Which is known among bible scholars as “The ‘Love’ Chapter”.]) It’s a little long. But I think it’s good enough to be worth the effort.
1 Corinthians 13 (I have a “King James Version”, which uses the term “charity”, where newer translations use “love”. So, for the sake of your understanding [and because our topic is “Love”], I’m going to replace my “charity” with the word “love”. Also, I’m going to paraphrase it into more modern English, so it may be more comprehensible to/for you.)
I felt the same, but have to admit I only read the first post, skimmed the others as it just seemed to repeat an opinion. The first thought that came to my head was "What qualifications/experience/knowledge does the author have to make such statements"?
For me to read more than a few sentences I usually have to get pulled in by the one writing. Even when "forced" to read technical data I will see if I can find it in video when it is just to dry. Some people have the gift and some seem to be missing that special element that draws you in.
rizlared: I felt the same, but have to admit I only read the first post, skimmed the others as it just seemed to repeat an opinion. The first thought that came to my head was "What qualifications/experience/knowledge does the author have to make such statements"?
This is the stuff of journalling in my opinion ...
It may hold interest for the writer but this particular one seems to lack the talent that is essential for engaging others.
Dragos1: For me to read more than a few sentences I usually have to get pulled in by the one writing. Even when "forced" to read technical data I will see if I can find it in video when it is just to dry. Some people have the gift and some seem to be missing that special element that draws you in.
Yes, this is the 'hook' I mentioned Dragos
It needs to present early and there isn't one in this case so readers don't engage, period
.....I would say. you need at least 5/6 years of * Solitude*........to write this book....without....outside Interfearance........jmo..... ..............
truheart1941: .....I would say. you need at least 5/6 years of * Solitude*........to write this book....without....outside Interfearance........jmo..... ..............
truheart1941: .....I would say. you need at least 5/6 years of * Solitude*........to write this book....without....outside Interfearance........jmo..... ..............
Hey Tru Are you trying OH SO SUBTLY to encourage me to STOP posting on the threads?
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Hi again, Pat
I'm sorta glad you said that, Pat. Why? Because I've NEVER been reliant on someone else, for my happiness! Sure, I was reliant on my parents for my basic "necessities" of life, food/clothing/shelter, as a kid, growing up. And I suppose that, had I NOT had those things, I PROBABLY wouldn't have been "happy". So maybe I SHOULDN'T say that I've never derived my "happiness" on/from some OUTSIDE source. But I'm the happiest person I know! With less OUTWARD reason to be, than most. And "I" should know, having been (as you say) a "junky" chasing my next fix (literally) for over 40 years! And I'm trying to live in one of America's most expensive areas, on only my Social Security income ($1.352/mt, and whatever I can hustle up, with/by my wits), at present. But I've been MORE places (on ALL continents, EXCEPT Africa [only Morroco] and South America [I've been to ALL the Central American countries, and am HOPING to go to Chile and Uruguay within the next year]), seen/done MORE"things" (I've worked/been paid for underground mining, farming, electro-mechanical computer installation/repair, jewelry manufacture/buying/selling, postman, salesman [of an INFINITE variety of things], drug dealer/smuggler, soldier [who has BEEN shot at by, and shot at, not only "the enemy", but by my superior officers, as well], a "cat" burglar, an artist, a writer, a hobo, a member of a bands, a driver, a fund raiser, etc., etc., etc.[I might mention that I've flown an airplane, but THAT wasn't for a paycheck.] But the thing of which I am MOST "proud", was to be OFFICIALLY named a provocateur/instigator, by my government!), than anybody "I" KNOW, personally. I've had more money than I could "legally" spend, and I've been a poor as a church mouse, sleeping on the streets. I DON'T have any of those little pieces of paper (diplomas), but I have at least a BASIC education in more areas/fields than anybody I know, personally.I'll admit that"I" DON'T "give" as freely, as quickly, or as democratically, as I once did. But I'm STILL not "stingy". Money/possessions have NEVER been my "motivating" factor. And I'll stand beside a "friend/brother", against the world, OPENLY! But I'll fight HIM just as hard, behind the scenes, if I think he's wrong!
I've told you all, that, to explain how it is, that I'm a "happy" person. I'm "happy" because "I" find the world an INFINITELY "interesting" place. At times amusing, and at others, sad. But I'm NEVER bored! I'm "happy" because "I" LIKE me! I'm true to MY thoughts/beliefs/credo/ethics, regardless of the outcome/consequences. So, when I lay my head on my pillow/rock/backpack/etc., I have no trouble going to sleep! I'm at peace with myself. And, even though I may accept/agree that I've made a mistake(s)(and I've made many), I have NO REGRETS for/about any of my actions. I DON'T spend ANY time worrying about ANYTHING! I deal with whatever rings my doorbell, as best I can, WHEN it rings my doorbell! NOT beforehand! Worrying about things that may NEVER happen, seems to be the epitome of "foolishness", a well as the WORST "waste of time", to ME. And I realize that EVERY man's birthright is death! We're ALL going to die, sooner, or later. I'm NOT saying that you SHOULDN'T FIGHT against your death! I think that THAT is ONE of our duties! But I also think that, since I AM going to die (REGARDLESS of my best attempts), if I can't escape it, I shouldn't FEAR it! Death is a part and parcel of life! (Probably my favorite, most inspiring quotes, comes from Lord MacCauley's "The Lays of Ancient Rome". I'll paraphrase it. ". . . For how can men die better, Than when facing fearful odds, For the ashes of their fathers, And the temples of their gods . .". How can a "Man" be BETTER defined, than THAT?
(More to come! see next thread)