Perhaps I will write a more eloquent discourse on it later, but meanings are in people, not words. A series of vowels and constanants only has meaning if you and I agree that it does.
I personally think that it is a silly ridiculous word. It doesn't offend me personally. I never deliberately try to use it to hurt someone. I'm only offended when I'm told I can't say it because I'm white.
I got repremanded at work once because, on the radio instead of saying "10-4" I said, "Ten fizzle my Nizzle"
Some black guy got all bent out of shape about it, and got up in my face. I was talking to a white guy on the radio when I said it. So I told Mr. Angry For No Reason that how I address my kinfolk ain't none of his business.
This month I was hoping to have a gold-plated shark tank bar installed right next to my swimming pool, but thanks to people reading my comedy for free online, now I have to wait a few months before I can afford it.
RE: Have you ever been given an award, or won something?
Oooh Oooh ooh!
I won $500 in a hot body contest at a club one night.