no offense to anyone but i have met some great women on this site
its not so heavy to carry today im just sad
the main problem is that i was injred after his passing and became very isolated-literally from people and then a self imposed exile as i grieved those losses and my own physical state
im better now but im still alone- waaaayyy
so im workin on reaching out here some charity work etc.
yes-being in my head alone can sometimes be like going into a bad neighborhood something i shouldnt do...
however-that said-im off for awhile maybe a shoot em up flick will be just the thing
i guess last night i wasnt feeling it as being in here was a great distraction but when the lights went out and things were quiet it took about 30 seconds for me to realize what i was feeling...
regardless of what goes on online- sometimes it serves the strange purpose of escape
i sure miss my pop we laffed our asses off those last 3 yrs- at stuff that was sick and morbid- my family has a bizarre sense of humor
now im really alone
but i will continue to trudge the Road of Happy Destiny
sometimes i smell him and say hi and sometimes i feel him say it back
now you all can discard any remaining shreds of doubt that i am
spend some time if there is no need to say "no thanks" often i will-as the woman- back off and figger if he is interested he'll move forward...
for me personally its a good idea to not be in the drivers seat all the time but i spose men might feel the same way
what i do know is that i am of an age that i can look over my shoulder calculate my results thus far and choose to change some of my methods since i wasnt thrilled with the outcome in the past...
when i feel drama its the first thing my mind tells me will make4 me feel better
my head is a big fat liar!!!
so far...im makin it but its always there
hope that doesnt discourage anyone from quitting sometimes it takes alot of attempts but the info regarding how fast dif parts of the body heal is really amazing!
Everything is beautiful in its own way. Like the starry summer night, or a snow-covered winter's day. And everybody's beautiful in their own way. i dont worry cuz the world's gonna find its way.
There is none so blind as he who will not see. We must not close our minds; we must let our thoughts be free. For every hour that passes by, we know the world gets a little bit older. It's time to realize that beauty lies in the eyes of the beholder.
And everything is beautiful in its own way. Like the starry summer night, or a snow-covered winter's day. Oh, sing it children! Everybody's beautiful in their own way. no need to worry the world's gonna find its way.
We shouldn't care about the length of his hair, or the color of his skin. Don't worry about what shows from without, but the love that lives within. And we're gonna get it all together now; everything gonna work out fine. Just take a little time to look on the good side my friend, And straighten it out in your mind.
And everything is beautiful in its own way. Like the starry summer night, or a snow-covered winter's day. Ah, sing it children! Everybody's beautiful in their own way, aint gotta worry-the world's gonna find a way. One more time! Everything is beautiful in its own way. Like the starry summer night, or a snow-covered winter's day...
mindfful Forum Posts (18,996)
pop died 3 yrs ago today
thanks for your kindnesses