kle76am Poetry (90)

When the world is falling apart around you
And you can smile as though you haven't a clue
Encouraging others volunteering you as their tower
Is when you have got true undiluted "Power".

When you have built a life for far too many years
Watched it fall apart without shedding too many tears
And start building again. Whether it be faster or slower
Then my child you have got real heartfelt "Power".

When you have committed yourself to marriage
And from another comes the baby in a carriage
And you can accept and becomes his mother
Then Lady you have indeed earned real "Power".

When you have carried a child in your womb
And then watched him/her being put in a tomb
Cried your tears but never call all grapes sour
Then even the Lord will agree you emits "Power".

When your best friend is outed as your only foe
And you can forgive and still love him/her so
Even after he/she has rode you like a lawn mower
Then and only then you have grown in "Power".

When you are broke and without a income
But you provide for your family and then some
Your integrity and dignity in tact every hour
Then you have learned to manage "Power".

When your Spirit has been overly abused by all
But your Soul has refused to allow it to fall
It mends tears and heal each wound daily.
Now you are wielding "Power" really!

The first time my eyes glimpse you
I knew love.....before I had no clue
That someone could hold my heart still
And turned my world inside out at will

The first time I held your hands I FELT
And forgot every hard blow I was Dealt
My soul was filled totally filled at last
There was only you! NO present, No past.

My reason for living, breathing or dying
This is an oath and I am not lying
Though I've heard them before I never knew
Never understood until my first moment with you

God knew I was at the end of the road
I had given up and he saw my load
Knew I could not carry it alone anymore
You he sent my ailments to cure

I never saw the gift, so real and pure
First thought, "Another curse for sure"
But when I stopped to take a good look
I saw his love for me in you and my world shook.

We now find comfort in each other everyday
When in my mind the past does replay
Your smile, or face or your warmth is enough
For me to find and assert my "TOUGH".

Embedded in every breathe I take daily
Is an undercurrent of of your essence clearly....
Entrenched in the fiber of my being really.
Not just half way but fitted oh so squarely,
In the box I call life covering it entirely.

You have made me into the Master of deception...
Giving the world a serene almost perfect impression,
No one ever suspects my best friend is called Depression.
Who is Master? Who has whom under surpression?
Or are we just going through this process as a coalition.

Damned if I knew or even care at this point though!
If this was a movie I would be sitting in the front row.
I would have to live this drama blow by blow...
But it is my reality the winning jumps to and fro'
Much as I would love to I can't afford to let go.

Hanging on means keeping you embedded in my life always near
Your role though to the massive not really clear,
Is as important as the next breath I take dear.
Even though you I may detest, loathe,hate but mostly fear.
I keep a smile on my face, shining brighter with each unshed tear.

Thirty seconds was all it took
For his world like an earthquake to shook
He just wanted a number from his pocket book
And took the time out to have a look

He never say the brake lights shining
Only started seeing no clouds with silver lining
He heard metal and rubber seemingly combining
He saw death even as for life he was pining.

The news came to hear via the telephone later
She screamed and screamed but felt no better
She sent a silent prayer for life to the Creator
Even as she wondered if he was a traitor.

At the hospital she became the woman of rage
Screaming at everyone; the Drama Queen on stage
Even she forgot to fill in his age
She got mad and went off on an arguing rampage

Nothing seemed to be right or ever going that way
She cursed the Missionary who offered to sit and pray
Asking why she thinks she needed to pray that day
"Where was your God when this was happening to Ray."

On a gurney Ray laid his world black as night
He could hear even if he had no sight
He wished for her he could make it right
As he knew this was not her talking but fright

He will his hand to move in her direction
She saw it move just a fraction
That was enough to draw her attention
And she drew hope from that small action

She took a moment to send a prayer heaven bound
She spoke to him hoping he could hear the sound
He lay silent even as he gloried in the fate she had found
"Don't die my darling," she whispered, "I need you around."

Parentage that could not love me
I legacy that set the tone of my life
Painful memories are my legacy
From childhood to stage I became wife

Every time someone wants someone to use
My doorbell is sure to ring day or night
Being the victim I just can't refuse
I take pride in my precious birthright

Tears are my best friend always loyal
The only constant in my regime daily
Together we reign supreme cause we're royal
When we are together, we need no other really

She smiled as she closed the front door
A smile that never quite reached her eyes
For a moment she studied the floor
So very intrigued by the various dyes
Her feet tapped a rhythm as her body moved
She turned the stereo on with the right beat
Alone she decided it was time to groove
Music had always made her complete

"Change the beat the rhythm is too slow
I have got to dance, just watch me go
Here on my dance floor is where I glow
My body is hot as it goes with the flow
Every twist, turn or step I know
My body will even bend like a bow"


It was her time she made no apologies
No one to answer to or take care of now
No running nose due to allergies
No wondering if for this time will allow
She rock like a sixteen year old
She wined like a belly dancer
Her moves are daring and bold
Even she wonders if she is from Asia

Then she took a moment as her breath slowed
She stopped the music and really smiled
She felt her body ached, ebbed and flowed
At the mirror she stuck her tongue out like a child
She cared not if her reflection approved
In this time, at this place she was her own boss
It was her time and she just grooved
Sweat, stress and worries her only loss

You like to be punished and I punish well
My words of warning on deaf ear fell
I am not the girl for you and will never be
Why can the world but not you see
I am what one calls a bitter medicine nothing more
Please I am begging you just walk through the door
Who you look at is not whom you seem to see at all
I will never be there to pick you up after a fall
I have no interest in your future; PLEASE
No stability, no dependability just a TEASE
Your biggest mistake is seeing me as a wife
I only want to ruin your life

Greetings in the mighty name of the pen
It feels good to be writing again
I missed you all while I was away
I could not read your words each day
Now I am back without a bang
With you darlings, to hang

I never earned an Oscar or a Nobel
You never won the lottery or sweepstakes
But I can speak without a babble
And you live through your mistakes
So What? We are happy and we know it
We are the world's happiest misfits

So what my ears don't work as yours do
My eyes has taken over that job gladly
Hence I don't live without a clue
I love myself and my life madly
So while I stand proud and tall
You can watch and think small

Your love life has fallen apart
Don't cry yourself to the grave like a brat
Even if you gave him/her your whole heart
Live so you say to him/her "SO WHAT?"
You would have won a battle you didn't fight
Because he/she will have restless nights

So what? I don't know who is reading now
That's not all that important today
If you are touched let me now somehow
Commenting is a really good way
Be proud! Be Brave but be you!
That's the best you can do.

For years you held me close
I got no breathing space at all
I finally ran away from your zone
Only for you to find me again
This time I am afraid
I will not survive you
So What do I do?
I am so very sure
I have not the strength
To fight or hide you again
That I am ready to write
My memoir and my will
Cause when my best friend returns
It means I am back to that hell
That deep dark pit I once escaped
This time only I will not win
My friend, please leave me again
Just go, I will not miss you
I am tired of Depression being my best friend

Standing Ovations to you sir the day we met
You wanted to know whats on my mind
Not first what is under my dress or in my pants
And on that the tone for our friendship was set
Don't get me wrong I knew you weren't blind
I saw the desire but your behavior was not infant

Standing Ovations! The friendship was formed solid
We dated without me having to fret about your intentions
And you showed you care without being "dog" about it
I learn't that with a look my legs could turn liquid
And for our future I had high expectations
Because in my dreams, my life and my future you fit.

Standing Ovations! That first kiss could write a book
A Hundred and ten thousand pages long and never boring
It sizzle my toes, sped my heart, teared my eye and wet me
You could knock me over baby with just a look
Foreplay had me on cloud eighty souring
My nether parts dance with anticipation and glee

So why am I standing here alone and close to tears
Why is my body humming an unfulfilled song of woe
Why is my heart, mind, body and soul in contractions
Why do I want to enter this bedroom with spears
Why do I want to kill you long and slow
Because behind these doors you had no STANDING OVATIONS

Every decision comes with a price
Even if it is thought our thrice
And a such if I should stay
Disappointment will be my pay
But surely if I decide to go
My life would be bleak as snow
Even though you can dish bad
I would surely have less sad
If only you would learn to love me more
I'd live for the moment you walk in the door
Now I live to wonder every day
If you will be coming my way
Lost with you in my life I know
But even more lost if you should go.