Loneliness, the weekend and more

First of all, Happy Thanksgiving!

So I am sitting here, listening to a playlist made from my top played songs in 2017. I am browsing the web and playing a video game, when it suddenly hit me: I am very, VERY lonely. It comes and goes.

One day I can be happy with what I have, and be cheerful. The next day, I can be a sad mess, that just want a cuddle. Nothing more than a cuddle. A long one, at that.

The loneliness hits hardest at around 7 pm. Without fail. It just hits me like a ton of bricks falling from the Empire State Building. I should go out and meet some new people, but I don't have the money to go to a bar. I also have to travel a LONG distance in order to get to a bar, and in case I meet someone at said bar, then I have to get her home with me in the train, at 11 pm on a Thursday evening. And that just doesn't fly!

So, I am just sitting here, waiting for the correct time to strike up a conversation with someone - provided they respond.

I know tomorrow will be better, but right now, the loneliness is hitting me.

On another note: I am going to my mothers place on Saturday for a cabbage feast. There is this weird tradition here in my family to eat cabbage on the 24th of November. And not just any cabbage - THIS kind of cabbage



It gives you an incredible amount of gas in your stomach, which results in farts - farts everywhere. For the few people who doesn't like it, I.E my sister and I, well there's pizzas for us. WITH pineapple! Because pizza with pineapple is amazing!

These past few days have been extremely tiring. I go to bed at midnight, and I am up again at 5.45 am, which makes me incredibly slow and tired. But usually I can fake being super fresh in the mornings, while I secretly wishes that I was back home in bed, sleeping. Having bought Farming Simulator 2019 as well doesn't make it better!

I can sleep in on Sunday! I look forward to that!