Ok, So . . .

Depression is a very hard nut to crack , one day at a time my friend . When I realize that depression is trying to overtake my mind , body and soul . I just try and blank it out , even if is every day I have to do it I would .

Why "have"? Anyone is forcing you to do that? Or is it something that ýou want to do?

Those are two different tracks.

Or you could just carry on using your greatest assets.

There is only one you, never try to be like anyone else. Have you looked around you? Why would you want to?

That's a challenging agenda. Depression kinda beats itself when you have the rest sorted, one day you'll suddenly realize the clouds have cleared and the skies are blue but telling yourself not to be depressed is like trying to blow real clouds away by puffing at them. Been there, done that, it took a while. So put that on the back-burner to clear itself.

You're not alone, especially on CS. Lots of us putting on a brave face, strutting confidently, BS deluxe But you're not alone anywhere. Most people have secret anxieties. Hiding them, working round them, is part of being alive.

First big decision, get into something where you HAVE to get up get dressed get out there and if a job is not an easy option in your area, how about volunteering. EVERYWHERE needs volunteers for litter clean-ups, working with rescue animals, helpers at retirement homes, teaching English to refugees? Others will have suggestions particularly relevant to your area.

And stick to it, reliable volunteers are worth their weight in gold. The hardest part is showing up. Everything else evolves slowly but naturally in a group of regulars working together, can take time but the sense of purpose and being needed and making a difference makes you feel worthwhile during the process and that's good in itself.

Way easier said than done. Like I said - been there, done that, changed my life around 10 years ago. Clouds still come and go but that living under heavy cloud 24/7, that has to go - and does.

When I logged in this blog came up as current on the right-hand side of my profile, not so much? But that's why it took so long to comment