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Happy 7 days here and happy birthday to me hehehe..
simple wish Happiness and Good health of my family

I woke up at 1:30am today. I was screaming and I remembered that I took some poison in the dream, and I would die very soon. So I screamed and mum came to me,i told her that I was about to end . I mean I was still in my dream when she came to me. I wanted to tell her my things cos I thought I would die. I didn't realize it was a dream.

I've watched this many years ago and this always make my 10 year old son laugh...the sound of it is priceless.

Wowser! A few weeks back my brother Johnnie had another stroke. He's has several since then and he is in pretty bad shape. He's blind in one eye, confined to a wheel chair and the usual paralyzed side.

My sisters here in California are making plans to get back to Colorado if necessary. I will not be going back because I simply do not like to attend funerals because the inevitable looks very likely.

I know I have stated this many times but my family was very dysfunctional. Most of them were bullies and me being the youngest one I usually got the muck from them. It was not pleasant and for that reason I stayed away from them alot.

This brother used to call me all kinds of demeaning names. One was "snafu". He used to call me a "sissy" which in the late 40's was akin to being called a "fag". The irony of this bullying turned out to be against him as 2 of his son's were gay.

One day when I was 14 I bought a razor because I wanted to be cool and shave. He walked into the bathroom while I was "shaving" and he ridiculed me and said to me, "What are you shaving for. You'll never have a beard". Hah! I had the last laugh because I have a full beard something that my bully brother never had.

All of this has crossed my mind and I have been pondering it not to laugh or feel smug about anything but only to understand that in the last few years, and I mean about 3 or 4, we have finally made peace simply because they have mellowed out. My brother and sisters are not as mean and surly as they used to be. And now that we are old, me being the youngest I am 74, we are finally close.

I think alot about my brother and I just wish we had been better with each other.

Again, I am stating this just to get my thoughts in writing.

I have few skeletons stashed in my closet and I believe most of us do. I try hard not to think of them, always do my best to forget them but they're there and something would remind me of them from time to time. It's no longer a complete secret but I've hid them from people who are close to me. It never give me a good feeling, in fact it only make me feel guilty but for many good reasons I keep them hidden.

Well I do wonder from time to time whether I should take them to grave or set them free and leave them behind Would you like to be buried with your secrets or would you tell on your deathbed?


A lovely weekend to all of you

Most of the time I am perfectly happy to be living 400 miles from my nearest and dearest but I'm getting really excited about upcoming family gathering

Maybe because the last 3 were funerals and weddings and the ex-in-laws all look alike. It is agonising when I'm 3 glasses of wine in and they come over to chat and I can never work out whether I should be saying Wow you look great, or we already talked half an hour ago ...

THIS gathering is MY family. Apart from the fact we all close our eyes when we smile, we are all different. Plus I'm can hardly WAIT to see my daughter (okay, I'll have to see some of the penguins) after 15 months!

After that, of course, I will be quite happy not to see them again for at least a year ...

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Today is my cousin funeral and i cant leave state to be at it.. he was one of the marines lost and found dead in napal. .he was only 22 yrs old. Very sad day...off to work feeling this way. :(

Family is the most important thing anyone can ask for.