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Question: High maintenance/low maintenance...

For anyone...


How would you define a high maintenance woman? A low maintenance one?

just curious
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Thank you...

I am overwhelmed by the caring and support being given me here.

I just looked back at your comments to my last entry and felt as though a multitude is walking beside me to help keep me on the path as I falter at times. It was as though this warm spot swelled in my chest and exploded through me like the best fourth of july ever. Warmth, liight, energy. A tangible feeling as though I am truly touched by all of you.

I thank you all with everything I am.

Today is my last steroid. They started the taper down process very quickly after the radio therapy was complete, 9 days to get me off completely so tomorrowI take nothing at all.

I can already feel a difference over the last four days, the drive for food is fading, the swelling in my right foot is going down and my mood is touched with melancholy. I feel vulnerable rather than a tower of power, which is actually much more relaxing.

I have spent two days doing very little beyond drifting in a semi sleep that does not make me feel more rested but is soothing somehow and I visualise all the myriad nerves in my brain stem getting room to reshape into their normal positions and starting to fire up little sparks of communication to my left side.

I have this continuing sense that my body knows what needs to be done, I am suddenly craving yogurts and whole grains, meat is suddenly unappealing and everything I feel like eating will be amazingly supportive of my digestive system. Sweet has reappeared on the menu but only in the form of honey, natural healing agent that it is.

And my current plan is to do much more nothing today and tomorrow, just rest, not even trying to think of what next and how to and what will happen Friday when they stick the needle in the back of my hand.

And I can bear in mind that I am not actually required to be happy this is going on! Neutral is a fine place to be at times!
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The meek Shall Inherit The Earth..........

So, what happened to the American Dream?

I was thinking the other day about the most powerful country on this planet (at the time of writing cutie-pie President/Prime Minister Putin it about or Ayatollah Nuclear Thingy with a nice beard and soft loving eyes has not yet usurped the USA as number one world 'we know what's best for you' country) and thought to myself:

'What does it take to make a country a great country?'

Is the the huge natural resources of land and minerals and fresh flowing water or the leaders or the people?

Take a little piece of land like Hong Kong - no natural resources and not even any water of it's own to speak of - yet the people are so industrious that they have prospered....... yet they are not big or powerful enough in any way to become a world power.

Likewise, a country that has very strict laws and a kind of democratic but stern government like Singapore.

South Korea? Imagine South and North Korea being united - how many of us 'oldies' thought East and West Germany would be reunited in our lifetimes?

India, China and even Brazil have been touted for decades now as being the next world power, yet in the past few years Russia has become more and more powerful as its huge energy resources bring it back the power it once had. Russian businessmen and women are found everywhere these days - and there is no doubt that really rich Russians are as rich as any 'western' memeber of the elite and powerful club of 'movers and shakers'.

It's been so sad, in many ways, to see the American dream falter these past couple of decades - what real chance do most young Americans from poor families really have of making 'The American Dream' come true?

There is now far less social mobility in the USA than in Europe where many American ancestors fled from either persecution or lack of opportunity.

Are we heading for an enlightened age where democracy spreads throughout the world (including the vast and forever suffering continent of Africa)? -

Or, are we destroying ourselves as our kind of culture spreads like a plague of locusts - stripping the earth and the water and the very air we breathe of all its goodness?

I think we could have the best of both worlds - a planet that sustained itself and breathed new life into itself each day where the air was purified and the clean purified waters of life bubbled joyously each day from fresh springs.

How could we achieve this and still have the high standard of lifestyle (in a technological sense) that some of enjoy today?

Although we can theortically feed our huge population I believe there are just way too many of us on this planet.

We belong at the top of the biological tree, but we only deserve to be there by using our resources wisely - and we can do that only if we do NOT become a plague of enormous locusts consuming everything in our path.

A locust is probably quite a cute insect; it doesn't eat that much - nor do a handful several locusts. It is only when they swarm in billions and make the land dark with the beating of their wings does the land cry out in despair as they strip the land bare.

We need less people.

How can we have less people without a terrible world war or some global disease that would make AIDS seem like a little cold?

Shall the meek inherit the world?

What meekness shall that be? Meek, humble and wise human beings or scurrying cockroaches?
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GOATEE'S WHATS THE DILLY SILLY ? OF THE DAY

WHAT FAST FOOD RESTERANT HAS THE BEST FRENCH FRIES??
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Does Anyone Know any Good Drinking Toasts?

I know a few good Irish ones...

It is better to spend money like there's no tomorrow
than to spend tonight like there's no money!

My friends are the best friends
Loyal, willing and able.
Now let’s get to drinking!
All glasses off the table!

Here's to a long life and a merry one.
A quick death and an easy one.
A pretty girl and an honest one.
A cold pint-- and another one!

Here's to women's kisses,
and to whiskey, amber clear;
Not as sweet as a woman's kiss,
but a darn sight more sincere!

And finally,

Meet you under the table!
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whats up

whats up with the ladies on this site connecting singles thats a joke
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To be or not to be American... That's the question

Okay, here's the deal:

I'm stuck in this country for approximately 4-5 years due to education. If I want any real experience in my field this country is definitely also the place to be and a green card should not be hard to get as a full educated doctor. Mm?

So by the time it would be rational for me to think about "going home" (originate from Denmark, Scandinavia) I've reached at least 30 years, probably even 35.

I'm not gonna but my romantic life at a standstill while here, so it's not very possible I won't at some point meet a guy that makes me wanna marry and have children.
Considering the overwhelming percentage of Americans in America (D'oh!) chances are that I'm gonna end up with an American.

Because of very strict immigrant laws in Denmark, he/we should be very lucky for him to be granted a citizenship or even just allowance to live there with me for longer periods of time.

On top of that he would have to learn the Danish language which is in the "Hardest Languages to Learn Properly" Hall of Fame.
It rates the same level of difficulty as Finish and Chinese and Xhosa, the East African click language.

Therefore it is very logical to assume that we will choose to live in the US.


I should SO have thought of this sooner.
But given a scholarship at the age of 22 my only thoughts were: "Yay! Baseball, hot hillbillies and Cadillacs here I come!"

Is it worth it? Could I do this?
I like America a lot, but living here... Forever? Marrying here, having children here, grow old here... Dying here? Buried here?

I feel overwhelmed by these thoughts.
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GOATEE'S WHATS THE DILLY SILLY'S ? OF THE DAY??

LEADING SOMEONE ON FOR ANY REASON ???
WRONG ??? JUST A THING IN LIFE???
SHOULD BE REAL ALWAYS AND SAVE
DRAMA STRIFE AND UN NEEDED PAIN
confused
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feeling empty headed

This morning I cried. It was literally all I could do for some reason. my thought processes have beciome unfamiliar to me and i sit with the inside of my head feeling like a shiny brass bowl, empty apart from the occasional flicker of images I cannot quite see, sounds I cannot quite hear.

I have not dreamed a single picture in my head since the radiation started or ended.I am not sure if I am actually sleeping, pr just in some extendeds meditation state and my eyes feel odd as though they are trying to see invisible thuings that are ver importasnt but they haven't caught the focal length yet.

I want a massage very badly to let my body know it still exists in three dimensional space and time.my edges are turning to smoke on the left side.

It is at the same time the most beautiful and teriffying experience of my life because I have no reference at all for where it will take me and I have no idea if this is something you come back from. I am not sure I am sane right now.

Everything has become a tremendous effort to move. To get out of a chair, to work with tiny little weights or do lean ins against the wall to maintain muscle tone.

I am, as much as I can, still producing; a DVD REview programme and I would like ver muuch to work with my favorite client on her next series of four half hours, because then when I start chemo on July fourth I can take a real break to see what that new path brings me.

But for another first, I am not DRiVen to make it happen,I can contemplate saying this is too much right now. And it makes me cry because I have always been able to find a way to make things happen, because I have always believed . I have never had an empty head and I don't know how to use it.

I very rarely spend a great deal of time soul searching any more, I do my best to practise what I believe and try to be open to learn because as I got older so much of what 'mattered' turned to passing fancy, lost in time.

I have strong beliefs that serve me well and I have an immense faith in the richness and rightness of life, no matter how inconvenient it may feel to me at times. Is this faith faltering? Or am I just hitting a wall so far beyond anywhereI have had to go that I have to stretch? Or am I literally feeling cells dying as I need them to, is this a purely physical phenonmenon of literally emptying out internal destruction on an unprecedented scale?

Maybe I just need to get comfortable with NOT knowing. Just rest in the empty brass bowl and look for dust.
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GOATEE'S WHATS THE DILLY SILLY'S ? OF THE DAY??

IS THE WHOLE SOULMATE THING A SURE THING??
FREE WILL EFFECT IT???
OR SHOULD WE PURSUE SOMEONE TO GET ALONG
WITH AND PARTNER WITH???
SOULMATE OR PARTNER???
confused
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