Wait a minute. Your first choice is "kill her." If you did the cheating, should her choice be to kill you too? While we're on the subject, since you are no longer of intererest to her, should she also choose to kill you? Or should she allow you to do what you want? Or is it that only males have this privilege?
I tell all my friends I'm alone for Christmas. No big deal. If you have feelings of lonliness and want to talk about it, I find a fellowship in a church is great. I'm not promoting religion but there are some really good folks who love being with other people.
Much of my work depends on the snow as well as rain and hot weather. I love snow, snowman, snow fort, snow fight. That's it...Let's throw snowballs instead of shooting guns.
I think it depends on the people concerned. I had a relationship with someone across the ocean We lived together before she moved back home and wanted a commitment to arrange for a marriage. I agreed but as time went by being alone, she met another guy in her community. Couldn't blame her, some folks have problems being alone for any length of time.
It's not you. You are not responsible for some else's behaviour. You are only in control of yourself. Be brave, never look back, and be master of your fate, without allowing her to control your feelings. Been there,done that.
Broken? I've been down so low there was no place to go but up. Low self-esteem can change to a positive thing if you truely believe in yourself. After all, only you can control you if you choose. Why give your power away?
I have no expectations. If it happens it happens. Things can happen without warning anywhere. This is only one of many possibilities. Sure is nice to see I'm not alone though.
It all depends on the type of characters you date. Everyone is different so you need time to find the right guy. You have an advantage over most on this site because of your age. Never-the- less, you still have to kiss a lot of frogs before you find a prince. Hang in there and mark my words.
Religion is often confused with a system of ethics and morality which seems to cause much confusion of thought. It should not imply the existence of human-like powers governing the universe because it would deny the existence of religion to other cultures. What religion does imply through mythological stories is the existence of some power or powers governing the whole universe including humanity, possessing the ability to make decisions with unlimited power, and in all places at all times. It's believed this god or gods are capable of being influenced by human acts,sacrifices and prayer. Religion being created by primitive tribes thousands of years ago, show that we are still in an elementary stage of development as humans, evidenced by ideology rather than known fact.
Personal attacks have no meaning other than the reflection of the person who's doing the attack. The new world was built by uneducated people who had the right character and compassion to hope for a better life for future gerations like us. Shame on those who are so narcissistic they must resort to insulting others.
RE: Which would you do with me?
You already know don't you?