CloudySky Poetry (58)

Alone on a night made for love
You’d think that I might want to cry
But I sit here happy in thought
Heart soaring, I just want to fly

Tonight I have love for myself
No catering to another’s needs
True to my heart’s desires
Nothing to make it bleed

Nobody here to break my heart
A glass of wine in my hand
I toast to a beautiful evening
One without a man

This might make you feel lonely
But happy and brave is my call
I’ve learned to love myself
And that’s the best love of all

My blessings to all those in love
As romance is beautiful too
Just remember to love yourself
And to your heart be true

Anger inside is raging ablaze
Sparked from just one simple gaze
Step back my friend or feel the wrath
I can’t always control it’s destined path
A warning is all I can share with you
Now back away until I am through
A moment alone will calm the storm
Back to the patience, quiet and norm

I had a dream
When I was small
I’d watch it play out
Against the wall

Though he came
As if a stranger
There never was
A lasting danger

Excitement then
He did invoke
And when he left
My heart was broke

The dreams they left
With childish pace
No more did I set
My eyes on his face

Now I’m grown
Those years long gone
Wisdom replaces
Fantasies of young

But in the dark
I lie down and smile
And dream of him
For a little while

My mind is open
My body awake
I give in to the touch
It’s his to take

So is it a dream
When touch is real
This tenderness
He makes me feel

Fantasy or Real
This man of the dark
I’ll see him again
In dreams I embark

Arms in cold embrace
Salty tears warm down my face
A smile in my heart

Did you know that I
Had my first breath
But I didn’t make it
Just too close to death
I waved my hand
But no one could see
Hidden from you
My soul not yet free

Did you know that I
Could smile at you
One of the things
I’ve learned how to do
I wiggle my toes
Grasp at my ears
Safety surrounds me
I have no fears

Did you know that I
Took my last breath today
Never a chance
To run or to play
No I passed away silently
In mother’s embrace
Before she had a chance
To see my sweet face

Did you know that she
Mourns every day
For loss of her baby
But no words does she say
The world does not seem
To think I was here
But my mommy knows
Her treasure so dear

Did you know of a memory
Too precious to share
With a world full of those
Who don’t seem to care
I live with my mother
Perhaps only in mind
Those precious few moments
Forever will bind

Surrounded by the silence
Only night can bring
Enveloped in the darkened clouds
Arms which angels sing
Bated breath like wind does blow
Only sign of motion
Rampant thoughts take steps so slow
Attempt to stifle emotions
Hide and seek the random play
Not left for children’s feet
This game is not of one we choose
And ends with souls defeat.

My love has never faltered
Although you seem not to care
No longer can I turn your head
Except when my body’s bare
The scent upon my breast bone
Does not draw you to my side
Nor does the lace and satin
That leaves little left to hide
My heart is feeling lonely
My mind has packed its things
Off to wander aimlessly
Chasing a hopeless dream
My love has never faltered
But I must leave today
For you no longer give me reason
That makes me want to stay.

If only tears were not stinging my eyes
I might find more than just your lies
If only memories of the past would hold
I might believe the words you’ve recently told
If only the hands of time would turn back
I wouldn’t feel in a mood so black
If only we could start this over once more
Then my if’s could be thrown out the door

Laying in the realm between dreams
No control over streaming thought
That is when you entered my sight
From the shadowed depth of mind
Clarity slowly forming around you
As you slowly saunter to my side
Standing before me, just watching
Absorbing the moment for memories
Then you reach out to me gently
With a slow caress along my cheek
Searing heat trails your fingertips
Surging with pent up desire
Awakened senses burst within
Ours eyes locked with shared thoughts
Knowing and feeling without words
No, they are not needed tonight
As you wrap your arms around me
No longer two minds but just one
I lose my own thoughts and conscience
You now directing a single dance of two
Each kiss melts control, long ago given up
My mind slowly wakes from blissful slumber
In a pool of silken sheets tangled with desire
Alone in this bed calling to you
With beaded moisture yet on my forehead
Feeling sated and still wanting to touch you
Alone in my dreams….or was I…Alone?

The canvas was stark white
No marks of life yet added
Possibilities
Innocence
Purity

Through loving strokes came color
Blue streaks of light
Happiness
Serenity
Joy

Next came contrasts of hue
Adding variety for all to see
Imagination
Knowledge
Growth

But the artists hand was interrupted
Sticky red jagged lines
Betrayal
Pain
Death

The world is hazy
Through misty tears
Wipe them away
Let me banish your fears
Take a chance on me
No promises made
Friendship for now
While foundation is made
Hold my hand
And walk with me
For we never know
What our future will be

There was a soft spot in the center of my heart
Burning with desire and longing for more
Scarred surface encasing the bruised core
There was a tentative beat, just waiting, unsure
Stronger the movements and pulsing became
Melting the layers from years of icy anger
Releasing the protective shell
Cautiously allowing the feeling to bloom
The rhythm progressing with confidence
Stepping out and reaching to you
Vulnerable to the emotions you create
Timid of venturing into the unknown
Reaching out - our fingers touch
Electricity pulsing from flesh to flesh
No longer in control of the music within
I will let you lead in this next dance of my life